Lycan Princess

Shock

~Lilly~

Evan must be insane! I looked at him and I couldn't understand why he was saying what he said. I felt the need to challenge his words so I blurted out the first thing that came to mind. “You would be totally fine with me marrying Cam and having children with him… I mean can’t you feel what I do with another through the bond?” How could my mate be fine with me laying with another. I mean the idea of mating with Cam made me want to hurl... not to mention Terra would create a hole in the earth to bury me alive in... but he was my mate. Did he really not care?

I watched as Evan seemed to pale at the idea of me with Cam. Maybe he did find me attractive even just a little bit. Blushing, I ran my hands through my hair trying to think about anything other than the fact that he looked kissable! I have no desire to find a new cage but... the damn bond is doing things to me. I always thought that Cam was insane for giving into his instincts... but as images of Evan making love to me entered my mind, I understood.

Finally, I felt Evan cup my cheek and I looked up at him. Softly he spoke, his voice shaking, “I cannot say that I would be happy about it. However, I won’t stop you from living the life that you have chosen.”

Frowning, I couldn't believe that he really thought that. Feeling the need to be defiant again, I growled out in challenge, “And what if I ask you not to mate with anyone else because I don’t want to feel it?”

This man was going to shock me to death because, unbelievably, he started laughing. Was my question really that out of left field? I mean, he was okay with me being with Cam but the idea of him being with someone was funny. I mean, unlike me, he's probably lived a full life. Plus, if River is any indication, then Evan is certainly not a virgin like I am... so what was funny?

Looking up at him, my eyes went wide when I saw nothing but sencarity fill his eyes. "You don't have to worry about that." Evan smiled softly as he moved a piece of hair out of my face. "I decided long ago that I would only ever mate with my fated mate. If I am not going to be with the mate that the moon goddess has chosen for me, then I will not mate with anyone.”

"WHAT!" I screeched in shock before I could stop myself. Did this Adonis of a man just sit here and tell me that he is not only a virgin, but also will live celebite if I stay with Cam? I started pinching my arm, yelping when it hurt and a bruise appeared. However, this still didn't convince me that I was awake, so I continued to pinch myself.

"Don't do that," Evan growled softly, taking my hands in his so that I couldn't hurt myself anymore.

"But I must be asleep!"

"Why?" Evan laughed softly, rubbing his thumb over one of the pinch marks, sending sparks through my veins. "Why did you feel the need to mark your beautiful skin with bruises?"

"Because there is no way that someone like you said something like that!" I snapped, turning red when I realized what I said.

"Someone like me?" Evan smirked, raising my hand to his face so he could kiss my hurt skin. "What does that mean?"

"You are handsome..." I whispered as I watched his lips tease my skin. Turning red, I watched as he moved kisses up my arm to kiss each of the marks.

"You think I am handsome?"

"You know you are!" I squeaked when he kissed my shoulder, making me acutely aware of the fact that he now had me completely in his arms and pressed against his chest. "E...evan..." I whispered, trying to find my breath as he kissed my neck.

"Yes?" He whispered softly as I moved to look at me. He was so close to me that I could feel his breath on my lips. "Lilly..."

Blushing softly, I felt my heart and my body at war. I wanted to give into the mate bond and give myself to him, but at the same time I knew that if I gave into our bond I wouldn't be able to let him go... and I wanted to be free. "You... you're holding me."

"And you aren't running away," Evan laughed softly as his hands moved along the sides of my body until he held my head in his hands. "I... Lilly, I want to kiss you..."

"I thought you were fine leaving me to my chosen mate."

"I... I said I was okay with it, not fine." Evan growled, sending shivers down my spine.

"Is there a difference?"

"To me there is," he said softly as he leaned even closer to me till our lips were almost touching. "Push me away if you don't want this..." I could feel his restraint slipping, but for some reason I felt safe and secure in his arms. I knew that he would let me go if I asked and right now I didn't want to be let go.

Slowly, I lifted my arms and wrapped them around his neck. "For just a moment... Just this moment I am yours."

Evan clearly did not need to be told twice as he claimed my lips in his. Sparks flew between us and I heard my soul cry out for him as I tightened my grip on his neck and held his face to mine and I kissed him back. The kiss was not like the movies, we were both clearly new to kissing and WAY too much spit was being exchanged, but I couldn't bring myself to care. Whimpering, I nipped at his lip and I heard Evan groan as he broke the kiss.

"Do not tempt me, Lilly," he warned, as he rested his forehead on mine.

"I was not..."

"Every sound you make tempts me." Evan admitted softly, as he opened his eyes to look at me. I was shocked to see that his eyes were bright red as they looked at me. "Every part of me wants to claim you right now..."

I opened my mouth to say okay when he pulled away from me. "E...evan."

"I need to go," he whispered, running his hands through his hair. I could see that his breathing was shallow and that his jeans looked a little tighter than they had before.

"I'm sorry," I whispered softly, looking down at the ground as I fiddled with my hands.

"Why?" Evan sounded shocked.

"I...That was my first kiss. It must not have been good if you are leaving." I could feel insecurity fill my body as I whipped the saliva from my lips.

Evan laughed softly and I wanted to crawl into a hole and die until he took my hand in his again. Slowly, I looked up at him and saw that his eyes were back to normal and his skin was slightly blushed. "I am not leaving because the kiss was bad... That kiss made me want to claim you as mine and your chosen mate is nearly feet away. I told you I would respect your chosen bond and claiming you in your mindspace is not how I respect that."

Smiling softly, I squeezed his hand tight, "So you liked the kiss."

"Did you?" He challenged.

"Very much," I laughed happily as I wrapped my arms around his neck to hold him close.

"Lilly..."

"The moment I gave you is not over yet," I whispered softly as I watched the war go on in his eyes. "Evan?"

"Yes..." he groaned as I leaned closer.

"Thank you." With a soft smile, I gave him another kiss. This time our kiss was soft and slow rather than quick and needy. It felt like a sweet first kiss that you have with your first boyfriend. It made me happy rather than hot.

Evan whimpered, pulling away from my kiss, "You are a temptress, aren't you?"

"No... just weak." I smiled softly at him.

"You..." He smiled, giving me one last quick kiss. "Are anything but weak, Lilly." Before I could say anything, Evan smiled at me and left my mindspace. Frowning, I looked at Zion and saw Raven nuzzle her neck before leaving. Zion whimpered softly wanting to go after him, but she stayed in place.

"Now that is a mate bond," Cam snickered as he reentered my mindspace.

"How long have you been there?" I gasped, trying to hide my embarrassment.

"two seconds... but I could feel the heat from the tree line. You okay?" He asked as our wolves headed back to the kingdom.

"Honestly, I'm not sure..."