Lycan Princess

Spill

~Lilly~

The entire way back to the castle my mind was thinking about Evan and the kiss that we shared. Were all mate bonds that powerful? If they were, how was Chase able to resist hers... did I want to resist mine? My life has never been mine since the beginning so why should I stop fate from putting me in another cage? Should I go back to the forest and find him?

'Yes!' Zion howled excitedly as I thought about going back to Evan and Raven.

'Settle down girl...' I groaned internally as Cam held the door open for me and we headed for the elevator.

'Why? You liked them as much as I did... Why can we not go be claimed by our mate?"

'All mates want to do is keep you tied to them.'

'That isn't true! Not all mates are like that!'

'Even Cam is like that with Terra.'

'Really?' Zion rolled her eyes at me and laid down in our mindspace. 'That girl would live on his lap happily if she could. She is at his beck and call by choice. Look at your aunts and uncles. All of them have healthy relationships and they celebrate one another.'

'They are also not going to be rulers. Power does things to people and I wouldn't want to see what it does to Evan.' I admitted sadly as we arrived back at my cage.

'Why does it have to do something to him? Why can't you both just be happy together?'

'Because that isn't the fate I was given. i don't get to run into the sunset happily. I have to follow the laws and be prim and proper at all times. I have to produce heirs for the next generation and I have to live my life...'

'As a caged bird.' Zion sighed softly, finishing my statement. By now, these words had practically become my slogan and I'm pretty sure Zion thought I was going to tattoo them into my skin to make them permanent. 'You said it yourself that he was different than you expected.'

'That doesn't mean that it wasn't an act he put on to be the good guy.'

'Do you really think he was acting?' Zion whimpered sadly. I couldn't bring myself to answer her because I didn't know the answer to the question. I wanted to believe that the safety I felt in his arms was real... that he cared for me and was honest. However, if I believed that and he wasn't, then I would lose the last little bit of faith I had in destiny. I needed to believe that he was bad so I wouldn't be surprised when he changed.

"Are you sure you are going to be okay?" Cam asked, stopping me right outside my room.

"I...I have to be, don't I?" Smiling sadly, I gave the only honest answer I could think of. "I don't have a right to be upset or sad about my mate and who they are. I have a kingdom to learn how to run and that doesn't involve a mate. It involves an arranged marriage."

"What!" Cam looked at me shocked. "Your father is going to force you into marriage?"

"He hasn't said he will, but I'm pretty sure he will. I mean I cannot marry for love if I cannot leave this floor. How else would I get a king?"

"But your father married for love, so why would he force you to marry for prestige?"

"Again he didn't say he would... I just know how he thinks." Smiling sadly, I hugged my cousin tight, "Thank you for taking me out tonight and letting me run."

"Any time," Cam said sadly and we just stood there for a few minutes holding one another as we thought about how different our lives were. Cam was married to his mate and first love, ready to run his pack happily. I was starting to train to be something I didn't want to be and having to give up my mate in the process.... Screw destiny. "So what are you going to tell everyone when we go inside?"

"Is it bad that I am just hoping that Avery and Allison are still fighting?" I laughed softly, pulling away from Cam.

"If I didn't know the pressure you were under I would say yes," Cam sighed before opening the door.

"I'm sorry okay!" Allison yelled throughout the room. My entire room was covered in trash and pillows and it looked like the girls had thrown everything that wasn't breakable at one another.

"No it isn't okay!" Avery growled, throwing a pillow at her twin.

"What did you want me to do? Go up to you and go hey you know the girl that you hated in elementary and had a crush on in high school is my mate!" The room grew quiet as Avery froze in place. Allison was breathing heavily as she tried to catch her breath. The girls just stared at one another for a few minutes before Allison's eyes went wide. I guess she finally realized what she had just said. "Avery..."

"Don't!" Avery growled in anger. "This had nothing to do with me hating Thea or a high school crush! We are too old for that crap. This is about the fact that you are my twin and best friend and you hid your mate from me for two freaking years! Two years of us looking at guys and talking about going on group dates! Two years of me telling you how lonely I was and I wished I had a mate and you agreeing! Two years of you lying to me and then when it came out you couldn't even tell me yourself! Two years of me thinking we were best friends and you were just lying to me!" I had never seen Avery open up before and I could hear the hurt in her voice as it cracked.

Allison looked at her twin and opened her mouth a few times to say something, but stopped herself. Finally, she put down the weapon in her hand... it's a pillow, calmed down... and walked over to Avery. Avery shook her head and tried to walk away, only to trip over some thrown blankets and fall on the floor. "I'm sorry," Allison said softly, sitting down on the floor next to her sister.

"Why... why didn't you trust me..." Avery whimpered, pulling her knees to her chest.

"Its not that I didn't trust you," Allison sighed sadly. "If I'm being honest, I wasn't ready to admit that Thea was my mate in the first place."

"Why! They are goddess given!" Avery snapped, looking at her sister in shock.

"Yes, but I don't naturally like women. You're the Bi one... until Thea, I was straighter than a ruler." Allison smiled sweetly at her sister. "I was going through my own demons trying to figure out if I even wanted a mate, and if I wanted Thea. Then I thought about how you had a crush on her and everything and I didn't know how to tell you because I didn't know if you still liked her."

"I had a crush on her for two minutes," Avery scoffed before looking at all of us. "And I can hear your thoughts! It was at prom when she wore that really tight red dress with like 3/4 of her boobs showing. Lets get real, EVERYONE had a crush on her that day!" The room burst into laughter and I had to admit Thea looked good in that dress. "Allison, I never meant to make you feel like trash about having a mate. I was just hurt that you didn't feel you could tell me about it."

"I know... I should have." Allison smiled softly, hugging her sister.

"Danm right!" Avery laughed, hugging her. "Now little miss princess," She smirked, turning her attention towards me. "Why do you have the scent of that mate of yours all over you?"

....Great...