The Demon Within

As a child in a way I knew I was different and my mom always told me I was. But what parent didn't make their child believe they were special. But when my mom told me I was different as a child I expect that she meant I could be whatever I wanted and change the world for the better. Thinking about it now that was one f****d up joke she could have given me more clues before she died. But that would have made my life a little easier and fate wouldn't tolerate that now would it. I had a normal childhood and even a somewhat normal teenage life but for the life of me I can't wrap my head around out of all the s**t I did in life I ended up here. My mother was a great mother she did everything in her power to make sure I was loved and cared. At the same time though I think she showered me with so much love and attention because my father was a walking d**k. He walked out on me and my mom when I turned 5. I remember that night clearly like it just happened yesterday. Apparently, something big was supposed to happen I had no clue what it was supposed to be and my mom would never talk about it. That night at the tiny age of 5 on my birthday I experienced my first and last heartbreak. My father was always so sweet and caring towards me and my mom he loved us. The day before my birthday he told me that turning five is a big deal for me. That, when I turned five everything, would change for the better. He was so excited for me and I was happy just to see him so excited about my birthday. But when it hit 11 pm on October 25th and nothing out of the ordinary happened after dinner and we made it back home he got down on one knee looked me in the eye and said I was a disappointment to his family line and to never speak of him to anyone because he was no longer my father. God, I remember that day so clearly. I didn't even cry I just stood there for a moment looked at my mom and walked upstairs. That night continuously played in my dreams for years but eventually, I realized him leaving us was a blessing, not a curse and his karma would come for him. But now that I'm 21 and realized what was suppose to happen that night happened on the night of my 21st birthday I would be coming for him.