Living a ? life and working hard for myself and accomplished many goals in my life now plus planning for my future.

I can't wait to not feel so needy like always asking for help man if I could go back in time where I didn't need to ask nobody.

I am finding out that I can't even get cash app 20 dollars from anyone maybe cause I am always asking for money all the time and when they see me calling them they won't pick up their phones years ago I had all good now the struggle is so real right now and I can't keep on living like this cause this is a very stressful life and it needs to come to an end already but I know s**t like this doesn't happen come to an end really fast it's going to take plenty of time work blood sweat and tears to conquer all of these hurdles that I find myself jumping over every single day in my life who would've thought that I would become a widow at this young age in my life not me but this the way I believe God wanted to show me that you could have happiness and don't need nobody help for awhile then bam everything could change quickly at a blink of an eye. Do I have regrets no but I don't like how my life has turned out because of my loss. I'm a strong believer and this just temporary not permanent just taking a long process for everything to fall into place like I would want it to today and sooner rather than later.