Your Power

BROKEN HEARTED GIRL.

It felt like a WWE feud, where two people were getting down bt since it wasn't a match they had to be held back by almost ten men each.

By the time i came to, some serious damage had already been done bt luckily for her and unfortunately for me, i was being held back by three men; my friend Ray, his boyfriend Devlin and my neighbour Githenji. I was amazed by the sheer strength i possed, like for real, i'm mad strong if i do say so myself.

Breana was on the floor crying her eyes out and shrinking into herself each time i tried to break free to go finish what i started by imprinting her into my bedroom floor. She had blood dripping off a cut on her forehead, nose and mouth onto my sheets. She had a black eye and nail scratches on her face.I had also pulled out her wig straight off her big ass head. A huge part of me was happy on seeing her face, that should teach her not to mess with me or my sister ever again. Nick being the weak ass useless nigga he is was just standing in the corner looking stupid with his jaw to the floor. What the hell did i see in this nigga in the first place?!

"Nick, baby, look what she's done to me! Baby i'm in pain help me! I uumm i think she broke my arm baby , take me to the hospital baby. Nick, Nick baby, Nick hey , Nickolas Marshals stop ignoring me!' Breana cried out from her place on the floor, still being the whinny b***h she is.I seriously can't deal with these two no more. " Why are you two still here tho, i thought i have already made it clear i don't want y'all here anymore, So scram and take the sheets with you, i don't want to catch any STD that i'm sure you two have. So tafadhali nyumba yangu ione paa" I was let go as i wasn't deemed a threat no more bt i was still too furious to not bear the sight of those two. Seeing as i was serious, the both got dressed although with difficulty for Breana. Being too slow for my liking, i took Nick's clothes out of the closet and started hurling it out, i just needed them out as fast as possible.

I just decided to direct all the anger and pain onto the clothes coz i needed to vent out somehow, it was getting too much. I felt suffocated, i felt like the room was getting smaller by the second. I needed to get out of this God forsaken place and try to forget the betrayal that took place here, on my own bed. Bt first this two devil's sperms need to be out my house.

"Get out, get tf out my house! Why in heavens name is this p***y ass hoe still here. Get out b***h before you get your ass beat again!"

Why are these two this shallow! Cant they just see they are in the red zone?! Jesus Christ save my soul! I was so mad right now i was still shaking.I guess they all realised i was a ticking bomb so they speed up and hurried out to the door.They weren't even fully dressed yet.Breana rushed out the front door but Nick hesitated for a while. He stopped and looked around as if reminising. He dropped his bags near the door and rushed back to where i stood and dropped to his knees , dramatically might i add, in front of me.

"Baby i know you don't wanna talk to me let alone see me right now but i had to say this before i leave. Baby i love you, you are the only woman for me, i can't live without you. She means nothing to me. s****l relief, that was all she was for me. I won't ever do this again love, please give me another chance. I'll give you the space you need even tho i hurts to be away from you. Just know i love you always, don't forget that." By the end of all that we were both in tears. I could see the regret in his eyes, i knew he meant what he said bt i couldn't bring myself to believe that he won't do this again A leopard never grows out of its spots.

Looking back at it, i saw all the signs i failed to see or choose to ignore. I'm partly to blame for not putting myself first.

I was still angry at all he did so i did what first came to my mind first, i slapped the s**t out of him. I know i was just trying to make him feel how he made me feel. His head flew to the side, he was shocked that i hit him.

"See yourself on the other side of my motherfucking door. Ooh and leave the keys, you ain't welcome here no more."I said this to him looking him straight in the eyes.He gradually picked himself up and walked out, dropping his house keys by the counter top near the door. I was still going to change the locks tho coz one can't be so sure, I can't put it past them for them not to break into my house in the middle of the night.

" I know you guys came all the way to celebrate my success bt that won't be happening tonight.I'm sorry but i'll like to be alone right now i won't be much company ." I told Ray , Delvin and Githenji. They all looked at me with pity and sympathy and that's not what i wanted right now.I did feel bad tho for messing up their day with all the drama going on even tho it wasn't my fault.

"Hey its ok, we get it. There is a lot going on and we understand you need time alone. We are always here for you, just a call away. Don't be afraid or ashamed to talk to your friends"Ray said. I'm thankful that in my circle of friends their is still someone i can count on.

"I know you feel bad on how the night turned out, bt don't its not your fault. Its those two disgusting devils. I know you are gonna get thru this and we will be here through every step coz b***h we got you" Leave it to Githenji to make you laugh in such situations.

"Awww thank you guys , you the best you know." They are so sweet , they got me emotional.I gave them all a group hug and after they said their goodbyes, they left and i was left alone with my thoughts.

As i clossed my door shut, i leaned onto it and slowly slid down, suddenly feeling exhausted and drained. It was then that it hit me that i was betrayed by two of my most trusted people in my life. I saw all the signs, it was just staring at me all this time. Like the time me and Nick had an argument about us not going to third base by having s*x.

Flashback

"Awww yea baby. Aaaah mmmm I'm about to...aaah...cum. Nick!!" Seeing Nick between my legs eating me out like i'm the last supper is the hottest thing ever. I was busy catching my breath to see Nick crawling up on me and lining up , ready to f**k me to next week. I felt him rubbing himself on me and i knew i had to stop this before it got too far.

"Baby hold on. You know i'm not ready to have s*x yet. You understand right?" He stopped, went stiff and rolled off me to my side.

"Why don't you want to have s*x with me? Is it because you think i'm not good enough or is there someone else satisfying your needs..." That's where i had to stop him.

"Nick, can you stop with the dramatics?! Why would you think i'm cheating on you. Why can't you just understand, i'm not ready yet to reach that level of intimacy" I said that while getting out of bed and putting on my robe to hide my nudity.

"Coz i know if i can't get it here, i get it somewhere else. As in what you can't give me someone else will type of situation" he said also getting out of bed and putting on his boxers. That statement should have got me thinking but i pushed it to the back of my mind , thinking he was jus bluffing. The guy loved me too much to cheat. I should have known better.

"What are you trying to say mmm? That you would go out and find someone else to f**k?! Boy please.Spare me the bullshit, try me i dare you...boy i wish you would." I said to him over my shoulder while walking away before i told him something i really meant.

"Ooh yeah? Then you don't know me as much as you say you do coz if you do....Damn gal even a blind man can see the s**t you ain't." he said , smirking arogantly. I just sneered at him and walked away coz i seriously couldn't deal with this s**t, i had to sleep early coz i had work the next day.

End of flashback.

I started crying my eyes out, how could i not see it, i really did do this to myself. I pride myself as being observant and cautious, like nothing can get past me but now i see i was naive and stupid to trust so easily. Never again tho, i'm gonna put a cage around my heart coz all this love s**t ain't gonna get me no where. Its gonna be money before hubby from now on.I gave my heart once but now i can literally feel it breaking into pieces. Men truly are dogs like bruh how do you cheat on the gal that got you thru it all , your down chick, for a woman that doesn't even know your middle name? Doesn't he want someone who can love him instead? That has been mad disrespectful.He got me out here looking at myself different. Was i stupid to think i had a chance at love? Was i naive to want my own person, to love, to have thru the good and bad.I need somebody who will stand by me, thru the good times and bad times who will always be right there. Was that too much? I just need love, thats all a b***h want I guess i'm trying to fill the void of lack of love in my childhood

All of a sudden i couldn't bare to be in this house, too much memories. Us dancing on the coach, us having a food fight while cooking chapatis and us having a tickle match on the floor. I had to leave, quick and now. I quickly got up, almost falling on my ass while at it, wore my jacket, grabed my purse and keys and was out of the door faster than i could comprehend.

So here i am, in the park, in the dark, in the rain, crying my eyes out.I know i'm better than this bt now i need to cry. Even a bad b***h crys once in a while.

I may be a broken hearted gal.bt i will rise up coz i'm a bad b***h like that.