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unexpected call

chapter 19

For the next one week,I became a shadow of myself,I lost interest in everything,I am this type that hates dirtiness, my one room selfcon always look neat with everything always at it's rightful place but since that day shade left my life,I have turn into something else,the whole house unkept.

The trauma even got to my office as I started recording avoidable miscalculations and were noticed by my supervisors, my only saving grace was that all the errors does not show lost of money but emotional instability.

I called shade the next day she left my house and constantly for one week but she never picked my calls,that made me give up,I have never blamed her because I never believed she would truly love me which was why I never gave her the chance at least to officially reject me like others.

Although it's now late but I have learnt that true love might not come from the choices we make but from the one destiny made for us, I never expected to come across someone like shade but it's clear that destiny brought us together, will I ever forgive myself for letting her slip away from my hands due to my low self esteem,I pray I do but at the moment,I am doing very badly emotionally.

Going into the third week now with no word from shade has been excruciating, I have been going from bad to worse,the bad spirit I prayed for is now taking over me, night clubbing, excessive alcohol intake and a rapid hate for women, unfortunately my coach has turned to a pastor, Jide's life has dramatically changed,he never left me but he failed his promise to brush me up with his playboy skills, instead of hooking me up with girls countless times I have gone to him ,he turns me down with the excuse of believing that I and shade will get back together ,bros I can't do that anymore,jide told me the last time I asked for a hookup girl,why ?, I asked, it's late, I don't want to ruin your relationship, which relationship,I am back to where I belong,shade is gone,I protested, how did you come to that conclusion,what have you done since she left your house to bring her back knowing fully well you have broken her heart, I felt the pain from that wrong accusation,does jide think I am happy losing shade,does he know that I am just a little closer to depression without shade in my life.

Tears barely allowed me pour out my mind to jide in defence to his accusation, jide I have called shade more than fifty times since the day she left, I have missed her every day till this very minute,she is right to reject me, I never gave her chance, I never returned the love she placed before me, jide I am gradually going into depression please help me, I cried into his arms, it's okay my friend, everything will be fine, I will help you go through this but I stand on my word,I am not going to hook you up with any lady,I believe in miracles,shade will return to you,as assuring as it sounds, I no longer have the courage to believe anymore,on the other hand,jide sounds so confident, one , not willing to hook me up,two, talking as if he has been in contact with shade, I can swear he doesn't have her phone number,he only met her on two occasions and their was no time they were together one on one without me,I didn't want to sound suspicious because there was no need for it, I only took the consolation which really helped me for the time being as my faith in miracles was rekindled, the rest of the day became lighter till around 8:30pm,a call entered my phone,I reluctantly picked it ,hello good evening,I greeted, good evening, the caller returned, please are my speaking with kasie, yes, I responded,okay, this is Mrs Taiwo, shade's mother.TBC