My Sexy Billionaire

Decisions

Diane was aware things are turning out what she feared. Mark is cheating on her. As every woman would feel, she is hurt. She is hurting so much. But everyone has different ways of dealing with emotions. And Diane’s way is not the typical kind where women burst into a chaotic emotional outbreak for no matter how chaotic she felt. She was in emotional control to get answers to whatever questions there are in her mind. She doesn’t like dwelling on unresolved things if there is a clear possible way to resolve them. If things are to end or go on, this should be the right time to settle it, so she had to numb herself from pain for a while and hear him out.

“Okay, Mark, so tell me, what the hell is all of this?” Anger isn’t hidden in every word she said yet in a low voice. She tried to focus her eyes on anything aside from their faces.

“My name is Candy…

“I don’t think I care who you are. I am not talking to you.” Diane cut her off before she can even finish.

“Candy, please excuse us….” Mark was also cut off by Diane bluntly.

“No one is going anywhere, she is part of this, and so she stays. She needs to hear whatever we are going to talk about, though I don’t want to hear her say anything, she should stay.” Diane firmly stated what she wanted.

“Well, tell me, why did we get into this, huh, Mark?” 

“Diane… I don’t think I deserve you. I can’t even fight temptations even before we are married. I am so sorry, but please, believe me, I love you, Diane, it never changed. I am weak. I am stupid, but I have to be responsible for Candy now. I know how much you hate irresponsible people, and I would be one of them if I turn my back on her, but that only means letting you go, which is so difficult for me to do. Tell me, Diane, what would you want me to do?” Mark was so heartbroken that his voice was shaking. His tears were starting to show up.

“If you even respect me, how can you make it last for a month? I thought you understood the nature of my job. I thought I know you well enough that I won’t have to worry about you being snatched away from me. I just realized I was fooling myself.” She sarcastically chuckled, taking a sip of the wine prepared on the table.

“I am so sorry, Diane, maybe I missed you so much. I wanted to be with you so much that in my drunken state, I let myself fall into the illusion of you being with me in the presence of others.” Then he turned to Candy to say, “I am sorry, Candy, you know I tried to avoid all of your advances, and maybe when I let my guard down, I was actually aware it was you but kept convincing myself I was with Diane while I was with you.”

Candy knew what he meant. It was Diane’s name he was whispering while they were in bed having s*x. She just comforted herself that he was just drunk and didn’t know he was calling somebody else’s name, but knowing how profound his guard against her advances and even with another woman he has only one woman in his mind was another reason she greed for this man. If only she can turn his love, his woman, to be her, she would do anything.

“I…”Candy’s voice started to sound, but Diane gave her a glare, and so she shut right up.

“I love you, Mark, I do, I really do, but I cannot say my plans will change because of these incidents, I cannot give up my career and jump to marriage with you, but I cannot feel at ease to go back the way we do things because I know we can’t spend much time together, we have different worlds, different work nature, different schedules and I can’t be there for you all the time. It was okay with me before because I thought it was okay with you. I am sorry, I think you should stay with her if you are happy, don’t worry about me, maybe one day I will be lucky and free enough to enjoy romantic relationships.”

“Diane, please let’s take some time to think things over before we decide anything.” Mark pleaded.

“No, Mark, we have to end it now. The longer we delay it, the more it will hurt to be thinking further. I understand I have not given you enough time, and so others had the chance to break into our midst. Now I am thankful you had been bearing with me for a long time. I am sorry I am not enough for you. I wish you happiness! Now, let me at least leave with my pride. You owe me at least that.” With an aching heart, Diane tried to smile at Mark, but she left without even sparing a glance at Candy. She doesn’t have to be hypocritical and hand her man over to her rival with a congratulatory smile. She was, after all, still her rival in Mark’s heart. The one-man she had built her dreams about the future for years. She had focused her life on her studies turned career and one man only, she believed in his self-control as she believed herself, there also been bees around her even during school days and working days, but she shut them right off because she already had Mark, she was totally convinced Mark would be as firm on his beliefs as she was. She turned out to be wrong! But we can only walk forward. Let go of whatever we must. More baggage around you will slow you down. The slower you go, the more chance for bad memories to linger, which makes your suffering prolonged. That would be stupid to do so. There are times to celebrate as well as endure. Unfortunately, today is the latter, so she has to release this hurting-like crazy kind of feeling.

She ended up in a bar not far from the hospital she worked in and called some colleagues who would like to join her.