Is it me?

Soraia... Soraia my dear wont you comedown for breakfast? .... "mom whats with the early flicker!... the suns barely above the ravine?" I grumbled as i groggilly rubbed my eyes. Since i know you'll ask a flicker is a way a wolf communicates. Its psychic conversation from mind to mind. no words spoken out loud. I sat next to the window because even though i didnt want to up just yet i am always drawn tot he breathtaking view! As i munched on my warm drool worthy muffin i stared out over the expanse of the ravine. There were juts and gulleys and the colors of the rocks were mesmerizing as they strayed and swirled to and fro mingling with each other. almost dancing down the cliffside. The ravine was always my favorite place on the pack lands. It made the world seem so huge and the small waterfall that almost trickled over the edge down the way just seemed so odd, yet there it was..."Soraia" .. i turned to look at my mom. She was amazing even for a human. My dad met her one day when he was running the edge of the territory for patrols. Now if you havent figured it out, Im a werewolf... or at least in part. No we dont shift uncontrollably at the sight of a full moon you movie nut! But we can shift at will... I have a little bit harder time than most. well then all of them.... My wolf hasnt come to me yet. Usually a wolf will become known when a Were is about 16. Mine has stayed quiet. they usually talk via an internal flicker. They are like your subconscious you can talk to. and you are theres when they are in control. A wolf is an entirely other entity that shares your body. its pretty cool and i am pretty bummed. I kinda think i dont have one! My mom on the other hand is an elemental witch. the ebbe and flow of the universe is in her blood. with the flick of finger a flower can grow or die, all in the emotion behind it. She is, as my dad would say, a goddess in her own right. She is slender and a wild native. Her skin is the silkiest caramel tone. and her eyes hold the depth of the bluest ocean. and her lips are full and hold the a smile that shines so bright it competes with the stars. and her hair looks like its made from the darkest ebony. I envy her beauty. My dad says i am just as beautiful but i dont see it. My eyes are the odd greenish brown of a mottled forest floor. i have a voluptuous figure but nothing to turn heads over. And my hair looks more like a ravens feathers. i feel so plain compared to the two of them. My dad says to be patient, i am still a child. and mom says i am my fathers daughter so patience is not a virtue i hold. My mom is my dads mate. whats a mate you ask? well its a destined pair made by the goddess herself long before we ever roamed the earth. I think most humans would equate it to a soul mate but its so much more! They share a spirit, a life force. it is divided between the two and only made whole when they find each other and complete the bond. i know its cheesy but i swear by the goddess its true. My mom saw my dad running. His wolf was huge but she did not run, she was curious of what this creature was. I mean who sees a wolf about the size of a mini van and just goes.. hey let me check that out... but my mom did. And my dad felt it right away. He saw her and his world stopped turning until she touched him. and instantly the shockwaves ran through them both.. so powerful a jolt it knocked my mom of her feet..... and as my mom fell back my dad in one smooth move turned back into his human form and stopped her before she hit the earth. She stared into his mahogany eyes and smiled. and yeah my parents have told me the tale a thousand times... My dad is a strong man, The alpha of his pack. The waning moon river pack. My mom calls him a god among us. Hes tall, ruggedly handsome and my mom instantly was head over heels in love with a man she didnt even know the name of.... and was stark naked, but she didnt care about anything but getting to know him. And the rest as they say is history and here i am... just weeks from my birthday. My eighteenth birthday! "im sorry mom" ... "im just thinking about nothing in particular, im listening now go on" she rambled on excitedly about my birthday plans. but how was i to be excited i didnt think anything was going to happen. My mom is dead set that ill get my powers, i will meet my wolf and finally know what is going on. i will know who i am. Me i dunno. i dont think anything is going to happen, i just feel like im going to disappoint them. but i uh huhed, yepped, nodded and smiled all the while. When she was finished i started to get up " Mom i going to go get ready and go for a walk okay, ill be back later. Love you"