Prologue
have you ever been hurt and a person came into your life to fix it all ?
and then that person messed you up all over again? . you were allured by that persons beauty , personality , mindset etc
. it can be anything by which you got attracted to that person .
that person seemed like the only light peeping through a small hole in your dark room .
it hurts when you give your 100% and when you don't receive the same in return, i mean you gave your everything to achieve a specific goal in a relationship , you put your every inch of effort and in return all what you got is their 10% plus betrayal tax multiplied with lies .
can you hate someone ? who you loved so truly that you wanted them to be with you forever ?
with whom you dreamt about future ?
with whom you thought your kids names ?
with whom you planned everything and dreamt about your wedding ?
someone you though you will grow old with ?
with someone you holded hands and went for a long walk ?
someone you hugged with all those emotions ?
someone you could not get your eyes off ?
he was on your wallpaper , you used to kiss his picture every night you went to sleep and every morning ?
someone you shared sweet moments with ? can you every hate someone you loved so truly with the bottom of your heart ? even if he cheated several times , even if he lied a lot , even if he made excuses to not to meet you . . . . . . . . . .
can you hate someone that easily ? is it is simple to hate someone ? someone you could not imagine your life without ?but they still hurt you . . . . . . their words hurt you every day . . . . . . .they make you eel unworthy , they make you feel insecure about yourself , they emotionally black mail you ? and force you to do something you were always disgusted to do .
imagine being good to everyone and everyone being hurtful / bad to you . ouch . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . that feels sad doesn't it ?.
the truth is life will hurt you, people will hurt you ,but people will come and go , they will break you . but you have to take a stand for your self .the more you are available for everyone the more you will loose your value .
playing hard to get and being independent are two different things you cant mix the two .
does putting people as your first priority and putting your self at the bottom makes any sense to you ?
things that you don't have attracts you to people doesn't it ? instead being what you want to be and embracing your flaws and stop being insecure about your insecurities can attract you to yourself .
i might be talking all motivated stuff .
my heart knows what is actually happening deep down there . i am trying to console myself , trying to be confident in who i'm , trying to close my heart , trying to fight from this depression i've been in . . . . . . . . . . .
i am trying to improve emotionally , i am trying to grow . . . . . .
