Reaping Me Softly

Chapter 46 - It Can’t Be

Time flies so fast when you're having fun.

We were back to being a long-distance relationship again. I found it ironic that we just live in the same city, one or two hours away from each other yet we can’t frequently see one another.

Well, as I have said, it was not the distance that apart us, but my parents.

I sighed deeply as I tried to bring myself back to answer my assignments.

For that one week, it was all bliss. There might be a little understanding but we have talked about it like a matured people, like we should in order for the relationship to work.

Simeon’s family has been showing me goodness since then. Especially Tita Astrid who told me things about her pregnancy with Simeon. I almost cried in seeing his baby pictures, too, as I listened to her stories.

That it was hard bringing him up into the world because of his differences. Tita Astrid almost died because of complications. Simeon was and is, a vampire... Instead of food, he attacked his mother’s blood and that was the reason why among him and his sister, he was the complicated one.

Despite the sufferings she faced for fighting for their lives, I could see how happy Tita Astrid was. And I’m beyond thankful for she didn’t give up on him. She fought and brought Simeon even if it was meant losing her life, too.

Gladly, she was strong to saved both of their lives.

I can’t help but smile remembering the time we have spent together for a week.

We spent it exploring places far from everyone. We rode a zip line I have been dying to experience, in a ferris wheel, and I still blushed thinking our kiss as we reached the top with all those city lights, the passengers in the other wheels, and the people standing small in the ground.

It was beautiful and romantic... Like it was the most romantic thing that has ever happened to me and I wish for it to come in reality again for the second time.

Sadly, time has come to an end.

I was glad that my parents didn’t become suspicious. Perhaps because Alec and I came home together after a week so they won’t doubt. And as usual, pictures of ours to post in social media to make it look more realistic.

I don’t know what to react though as they all expected us that we were that into each other when in fact, we have been fooling around, lying to them, and the likes.

And the news? I am not feeling even an ounce of regrets.

“So, you’re graduating a month from now. Your engagement with Alec will be announce soon, too. You should be ready for that, Lia.”

I tried not to mimicked them one time in our dinner.

Here we go again...

“Before you go to college, you shall have his surname. You won’t enter the university if you’re not married with him.”

I mentally rolled my eyes. That won’t happen, Mama. Never.

It was so easy for them to marry me off. Well, as expected from them.

A week later, I have been feeling conscious of what’s happening in my body. I felt nausea and I can’t even talk about it with anyone aside from Simeon who has been constantly reminding me to go for a check- up, and that he would come with me.

“Baby, please... Go see a doctor. You have been complaining about it for days now. And you said you’re taking pills? Your medicine? Yet it’s still there...” the worry was visible in his voice, as well in his eyes through the screen.

I pursed my lips. Honestly, I am scared. And I could feel it through him even he don’t speak. He’s a med-student, and I doubtably know what these signs were for and that made me nervous and scared.

It can’t be...

“Simeon...” My voice almost cracked. “I’m scared, baby. You know that those signs were for...”

I can’t even bring myself to mention it!

“But we made sure to...” Even him was unsure. “Baby... I’ll go there. I don’t care if I’ll get caught. Please... I’ll buy something that you could try to find out if our speculations were right or something.”

I have been throwing up in the morning. I noticed that I eat more than two times than the usual. Even our maids who prepared food for me were asking me weird questions, and eyeing me curiously...

I can’t even give them an answer as even I, does not know why.

“It can’t be, Simeon...” A tear left my eye.

I’m still young! I’m just turning nineteen and this... Damn it.

“I can’t be pregnant, Simeon. I can’t be...” I shook my head.

They would kill me. They might ask me to abort if there’s a life inside me... They might kill not just me but once they finds out about Simeon, it would not just me that would be put in danger.

Pregnancy... I don’t have plans to be pregnant at this age. I still have a lot of things to achieved! I’m not even yet in college. I don’t even have enough savings to raise this child if ever.

“Oh god, Simeon... They would kill me. They would kill me, Simeon...” I said in fear repeatedly.

I bit my nails. I’m shaking real hard thinking of possibilities. I know for some sort that we didn’t take care, and that we were irresponsible doing it for that week. But I have taken my pills!

“What should we do, Simeon?!” Tears were now streaming down my cheeks. “I can’t be pregnant. They would kill me, Simeon...”

“I will go there, Lia. I will confront them now, okay? If you’re pregnant, then I’ll have to show myself to them and face their wrath! Baby, you are my responsibility. I love you and I won’t let you fight for this alone. I will be there, okay? I will be there.”

Shaking my head, I spoke with my voice cracking.

“You’ll just worsen the situation, Simeon. Please, don’t...”

“Baby, no. I will be there. Trust me on this, okay? Just trust me.”

I can’t think straight right now. I am frightened of the possible result.

What if I’m pregnant? What would happen to me and to the child? I know Simeon will not abandon me, he would take responsibility for the results of our actions and recklessness.

But I am startled.

What can I give to my child? Can I even secure his future? Can I give him the life he deserves? Can he access an education and the rights he has yet to receive?

I don’t know. I’m still in my last year of senior high. I don’t have a name yet...

I laid on my bed, feeling hopeless. My eyes were just blankly staring at the ceiling, even my mind was blank, too. I can’t even seem to process everything.

There’s still no result. Yet the possibilities... It has a big possibility that I might be pregnant.

It was over twenty minutes when I heard a bang on my window. I promptly stood up when I saw Simeon climbing up.

“S hit, Simeon!” I whispered firmly. “There’s a damn camera in the window. What if...”

“I broke it, and it doesn’t really matter, baby. I’d show myself to them if ever.” He handed me a small plastic. “I brought a pregnancy tests. Go to the bathroom and try it, okay?”

My eyes started to watered again.

“I’m afraid...”

He cupped my face, kissing my forehead before he let out an assuring smile.

“I’m here, Lia. I won’t leave, okay? If there’s a life inside your tummy, I’ll be willing to be a dad and take the responsibility. I don’t want to say it but we’re both at fault, okay? The only thing we can do now is to accept whatever the results would be.”

I sniffed. “Okay...”