Never fear to love again

Fireflies on the lonely river

My life once being dark, so dark that I even though I can't get through. Because there is no light, not a single bright path for me to keep moving. I was like a blind boy keep looking for love but I know it's already a memory. I once sink to the deep ocean, the big wide sea that I being force too hard, I can't get up. I know I am in a fixed mindset but that's what I'm really feeling. But if I repressed my feeling and slowly think, ignore what others say, maybe I could sink deeper. Down till I reach the bottom of the ocean. Once I touch the bottom layer, I will take the strength to jump back up, I will rise...again.

The chilly air blew across my face, I smiled at the moon. I notice the boys are quieter now, I turn my back and check. They all fell asleep, I thought: "Silly all of them, it's cold for laying on the floor. I take out some blankets and place them on one by one, I yawned. I sit on my bed, staring at the window, wonder why the moon so shines tonight. I rest my head down, tomorrow will be Sunday, so I can sleep a bit more. I heard something make an annoying sound, I stand up and check. I see Soujin sit by the wall, he looks at me. I ask quietly: "Why are you not asleep, it's late now." Soujin carefully stands up and sits next to me, on my bed. He said: "They are a little messy, aren't they. But my friends are not that bad when you're close to them, you'll see how they actually are. And I know for sure, my words won't let me down." I nod, I know it, his friends are not what I thought before, they're different. I whispered: "I can't sleep. Do you mind if you stay awake with me for a while?" Soujin yawns but accepted, he takes out some drinks for us. We talk with each other, I feel that he now cares for me more. I said: "Sometimes, I feel that I am weird. I feel sad too. Do you want to know why?" Soujin replied with a nod. I continue: "I miss my parents so much. In the new year, people suppose to gather with their family but...I'm all alone." Soujin touches my head as he said: "You're weird, noyangi. But I like it." He smiles at me, his smiles warm the mood up. With the moonlight, the smile seems to be brighter. Soujin turns his head facing the sky: "My mom used to say when you're sad, worried, or scared. Just sing." I paused and look down, I turn to him: "Can you sing for me?" Soujin quickly shook his head and rejected. I was disappointed: "I'm sad but I can't really sing, can you please do it for me this time?" Soujin shyly turns away, he said: "Fine." I laughed and wait. He starts to sing, a lovely tune fills with sweetness. Soujin continues with the song, he sings: "What am I to do, someone here is really unhappy. Put me on the line, it seems I never to through you. So I weaned myself off slowly..."  I close my eyes, the melody goes through my head softly. Soujin looks at me: 

I believe I believe, I believe

Everything's out to sea

I believe I believe, I believe

I believe that is the way it should be

I hope you feel the same.

On an empty road, people start to walk past. On a lonely river, there are still fireflies last.