Never fear to love again

The dark side of you

Soujin's group didn't bother me but unless they insulted me like how they have just done. I agree that sometimes I am sensitive. I angrily go down to the schoolyard, the weather is starting to get cold. Luckily, I have tons of warm clothes with me, after I got the dorm memory back in my mind, I start to wonder: "Why do I have to be his roommate? Why do I have to act that I'm okay even though I am the one who hurt?" Everything seems fine, I don't like rude people either, that's why I try to give them another chance. I will not communicate with them, of course. I just don't want to cause trouble.

That evening, after I got dinner with my friends. I go for a walk and suddenly, Soujin sends me a text: "Can you come up to our dorm? I have something to talk about with you." I raise my eyebrows and wonder if this is a prank but I still go up to my dorm for sure. When I arrive, I see Soujin stands in front of our dorm's door, leaning against the wall. He stands up after seeing me, I let him go in first then I followed and close the door. Soujin takes his serious face and asks: "Did you feel uncomfortable around my friends?" I was surprised that he actually does watch my expression but I still not moving my face. I slowly answered: "I'm not uncomfortable. I just feel unwelcome." Soujin sits down on his bed and replies: "Why? Are they acting strange?" It really seems that Soujin is not that 'watching around' person. He's doesn't care what happens around him, which makes me grin: "Strange? I will never say that to a junior? Or maybe I will, but trust me, your friends are not strange. I can't just judge them the first time I see them. The problem I was expected that they will notice and give me some respect. But they didn't even say hi to me." Soujin turns his face away, he looks at the window. It takes a few seconds of silence. I suddenly talk: "Sorry if I cause any trouble. If there is nothing else you wanna ask, then I'll go for a shower now." I'm about to turn my body and take my clothes but I heard that similar tone: "My friends have been a bit rude, sorry for that. But it makes me wonder is that it for you to walk away in anger?" I stopped my action and froze. What are that voice and question? Is he trying to provoke me? It's doesn't need me to talk, he continues anyway: "I'm not trying to do anything but you seem to be too sensitive, noyangi. Life is tenser than you thought, as a bigger year, so I make sure that you understand this." He left a soft laugh. I smile blandly, which makes him surprises. I lift my face and say: "Yeah, I am sensitive. Is it bothering you?" Soujin seems to be a bit angry, he answered: "No, not at all. But it does bother people around. Hey, are you are trying to provoke me back?" I shook my head and I tilt it to my right: "You think I'm the one who likes to insulting? Plus, I don't care about what people think, I have my friends to be careful of so please..." I paused and look blankly into Soujin's eyes. He's also doesn't know what to say. I bite my lip and pull my coat's hat up, I turn around and open the door. Soujin suddenly stands up and holds my wrist: "Where are you doing? You're already going for a walk!" I pushed his hand away and give him a cold look: "I'm going to someone that is not disrespectful. None of your business." Right after I finished my words, I turn away and walk down the hallway.