Never fear to love again

Golden dusk

At the start of this year, I can feel the pressure from outside and mostly the exams coming up. Yeah, this is life, and I know I can do the tests well. The exams are not the only trouble, if I do them well, will I get a chance to go on the school trip? The teachers still don't announce anything yet, which makes me feel aching badly, it was always unfair. In middle school, I'm the only one who can't come on the school trip. I was okay but by that time, I was curious, what is the trip like? Being only myself is not that easy.

Min Jun shout as I sleep on the table: "Concentrate, Jae An!" I am sleepily focusing on my notebook. I yawned: "Do you think I can come on the trip this year?" Min Jun holds my head and turns it, facing toward his face, he lows his voice: "Are you a positive person? You have to do your best to try hard, do well on the exams, and get on that trip! Do what you want to do." I understand what he meant, but ... my thoughts paused. I look blanky at his eyes, the eyes are so strong, yelling out: "I believe in you. You have to believe in yourself too." I am surprised, I smile weakly: "I know I can. Neither I can go on the trip or not, I will be okay." After my words, Jun doesn't seem to be less serious, he stares at me in fire flames: "Don't think in a mixed mindset, you i***t! Neither if you can nor not, you have to say you can do it. Think widely! Think in a growth mindset, you --" Jun paused, so am I, look at him with my mouth open in shock. I never saw Min Jun in such a wave of anger like this moment. Yes, he hit me or shouted at me when I did something wrong, but his eyes always had a big warm hug, not this time. The burning fire keep encourages me, the only one I have to believe in is myself.

The crowded of people covered the whole hallway, I wonder: "What makes them curious about?" I peeked through people, another bullying scene, I groaned. Kyung Bin with her friends, talking and laughing at Lim Nabi, again. The girls splash water at Nabi, her clothes now are soaking wet. I rub my head and try to pass through but I can't. Kyung Bin used a haughty voice: "This is what you get for ignoring me, you b*tch. So look at what you're now. Totally loser, do you think there is anyone who wants to be your friend?" The mean girls laugh, I'm about to stop their actions but surprisingly, Nabi said: "So what? Do you think I care about fame? I don't attract people to be my friends, the true friends will realize and come to me." Kyung Bin angry shout: "Being completely loser but you still can say those horrible words? What a brazen!" Kyung Bin's hand is about to hit Nabi's face. Nabi grabs the bully's hand and pulled backward. She said as she looks sideways at Kyung Bin: "The loser is not the weaker. Whoever gives up first is the loser."