Mateless (English)

Episode 5

WE exited that supermarket and our next stop is in the park just to have a short date. This will be our first official date, and I do not know what to do, or what he expected me to do.

This will be my first time going outside with my love interest. I mean, I believe in having a label, and he is not yet giving me that. What is apparent is we are mates, and that is all that matters right now.

I sat on the bench while he is buying ice cream from a vendor. I am looking at random people here in this park. Children are playing, family picnic, there are also couples here dating.

And it feels romantic, but the best part and the best thing here is, I am dating someone that I love for so long.

I never imagine that the popular Arvy, and somehow my best friend will be my mate.

"Vanilla flavor as usual," he said while giving me the ice cream on a cone. I almost salivate when I saw how big a scoop he gives me.

"And yours is chocolate, right?" I pointed out.

Ever since we were younger, he loves chocolate, that sometimes I am thinking that it is his unhealthy obsession. He is always overhyped because of too much sugar, thanks to his genes and he can still have those abs and muscles that are very sexy and attractive.

Just for me, he is the sexiest man alive. He can make me drool without giving an effort.

"Yeah, chocolate is my favorite. Some things cannot be changing." I agree with that.

Just like my feelings for him.

I am always so into him, that sometimes I cannot help thinking about what-ifs.

What if he is not mated to me, what if more people deserve him. I am not the type of person who loves overthinking because it is simply unhealthy. But I cannot stop doing that. Why? Because I keep doing that s**t.

Falling in love with alpha is just a point because the scary part here is the regret. What if he regrets loving me or simply being his mate.

And then I remember how he assured me that I am perfect for him. And I should always think about it rather than thinking negative stuff.

"Where do you want to get married? Have any idea?" he asked me which give me a little short of a heart attack. He is opening such a huge topic!

"Wedding? This early? We are still in college," I reasoned out. I mean, it is not as if I do not want to have a wedding. It is just too early? I think so...

He cackled like I did say something funny. "We are not that human. We study for the sake of knowing human behavior. A degree does not bear anything with us... I can marry you as soon as you want, and if you do not want it yet, I will still respect it. But I just can't help thinking when and where. I want to make it perfect, just what you do deserve."

"I love you too, Arvy. You are everything to me right now."

He smiled. "Can you call me mine? And I will call you to mine too? I just love the sounds that we owned each other like the rest of our time," he aforementioned.

"Okay, from now on, Arvy Matthew, the soon-to-be alpha and pack leader of Blue Moon pack, will be forever and always mine," I promise to him. I showed him my pinky fingers that symbolize our promises.

"From this day, my soon-to-be Mace Matthew, my future Luna, and the one that I will live for the rest of my life will always be mine forever and always," he promises.

I remembered my horrifying dreams. I will not let it happen. There is nothing who could let us be apart. Only Luna can take me away from him.

BEFORE lunch, we ended up finding somewhere to eat because we are starving. We choose to eat at his favorite burger restaurant.

And I should remind myself not to get surprised by his big appetite. He does order a huge burger in a huge quantity also. And take note that he will not share his food with me.

I know him since then, he loves eating his food without sharing, and it is his nature, and I understand him.

But I was surprised again when he offers me a bite of his double beef cheesy burger. Like what kind of miracle is happening? He does want me to take a bit? This never happened before!

"You sure about this?" I said trying to clarify what he said.

"Yeah, why? You are not eating pickles?" he asked as if it is not a big deal!

"No, look you do not share your food before," I said as a matter of fact.

"Mine, there are things that bounds to change. I am sharing the other part of my soul with you. I never share my good before because I want to do it the first time with my mate. I know that I am not a perfect person. I am aware of that, I feel sorry about playing around before. I hope you can still embrace my imperfections? Because I will also prove to you that I am a better man now," he said worriedly.

I never saw him being like this before. I know him, no matter how many times I will say this but, I know him too well.

He became my best friend before leveling in this kind of stage in love. I saw every side of him, I watch him from afar, and also near on me.

But I never stop loving him. Because I accept who he is, and I dream about being with him. I never surrender, and now surely I harvest my hard earn patience from waiting.

I smile at him while holding his hand. I just want to make him feel as safe as how he makes me feel complete.

"I do not know what will be your reaction about this, but I hope you would not laugh, or else I will smack your head," I warned him.

He raised his hands like he is promising. "Okay, I swear that I will not laugh."

I bite my lips suppressing my smile for a short moment. "Good... The reality is, I am in love with you since then. Like when we have no idea that we are mates. I think it was started when we were in high school. I saw how you became what you are now. From that little boy to the usual high school jock, to a college superstar."

He looks shocked at my sudden great confession. I understand him because I know that if I am in his position, I will feel the same.

Imagine that your childhood friend, best friend, most trusted person is in love with you for a very long time.

"But you never said it before to me," he said confused while having a little frown on his face.

I sighed, here we go again. "Because I am afraid of your reaction. And you know our fate. We cannot say who will be our mate. Everything can change in a matter of time that we will find our mate.

" So I held with the chance of finding someone. I tried but I failed. Yes, you have no idea about this because I kept this a secret, but I also tried to talk with some other guys, not dating, just casual getting to know each other, but I failed because you are just the only person that keeps running on my mind," I said in one breath.

He smiled. "Yeah, and that should be always the thing. I will not let you see any other guys besides me and your family. I have never been territorial to any girls that I dated before, but you, just that thought of you going out with another guy pains me. I will surely beat that s**t into pulp," he said with a little angry expression, making a sound my breaking his knuckles.

I chuckled. "You don't have to. I have no plans on seeing anyone. Maybe you are because you have plenty of girls before," I said leaving a bitter taste on my tongue.

He secretly slips his hand to touch mine. We are practically holding hands in a secretive manner because we are still outside and in a public.

"So you are always jealous before? You know, you secretly love me, and I have no idea that I am hurting you."

I slowly nodded, this feels like a little confession session between us. You can't blame me because I hide these feelings for so long, that this might be my chance to express them.

"I am so sorry, I have no idea if I just know..."

I shook my head. "You don't have to feel sorry about me. I never obliged you to feel the same. And I cannot endure seeing you guilty just because I have a secret feeling for you. Those are the last things I want to make you feel, I never wish to make you feel burdened and accountable."

"But I am now, and trust me when I say that starting from this day, I will cherish you more than what you deserve."

"I am looking forward to that, my alpha."

Of course, we decided to leave and go back to our pack territory. I need to be busy myself because there are lots of home chores that still need to accomplish.

I cannot give the works to the boys, why? They will just ruin everything! I remember the last time that I asked Samuel to clean the bathroom, oh gosh, he put a lot of soap on the floor and an accident happens. Lucky bastard and he is a werewolf who can regenerate some broken bones after a few minutes.

I asked Raynold to cook breakfast, but he almost burns our whole kitchen. I let him kneel on the beans to think about playing fire.

And lastly, Marcus. I asked that guy to water our crops at the back of our house, but knowing those boys, they hate vegetables as much as they hate my nagging. They plan to sabotage my lovely crops.

In the end, I cook vegetables for our breakfast, lunch, and dinner for the whole month. I think I gave them a little trauma that time but deserve it.

EVENING came and all of the boys are hanging out in our living room. They are shouting and cheering with their football team bets. Just the usual boy's thing, I cannot judge them because I also have mine. If it is time for my favorite shows, they have no choice but to back off.

Right now I am cutting some broccoli that I will put on our dinner for tonight when suddenly Marcus came into the kitchen and he saw my dark plan. I am caught in the act, and he does shout very loud.

"DAD! MACE IS CUTTING SOME BROCCOLI! SHE IS PLANNING TO POISON US!" he screams very dramatically.

I rolled my eyes heavenly wards not minding his screaming.

The next thing that happens I heard their footstep running to our kitchen and they want to instantly throw the green veggies.

"No! Don't touch that damn broccoli! Or I need to cut some fingers right now and chop them into pieces."

"What is your problem?" My dad asked in his horrified voice. Are all men like this? Very grand.

"Nah, I want to remind all of the werewolves here with balls that I still hold the spatula. You can laugh at my dress all you want, but still, need and face the consequences. Do not fret because this is just for tonight or it will be extended depending on how tamed are you all," I aforementioned.

I saw how Raynold tried to sneak on our fridge. I know that they are putting an emergency ration like a burger, fries, and frozen pizza, so when they pissed me off, and I cook some leafy green vegetables, they can still survive all night.

"Where are the pizza here?!" he asked. Raynold is always being si loud.

"Oh, the pizza? They are in my room. No one will have their spare food. No mercy for tonight," I said as a matter of fact. That is what they get when they mess up with me.

Now we are at the dining table and I am so happy to see them frowning from time to time because of chewing the veggies. They are also throwing me death glares. I mean, no harm done! They are just sad boys that cant eat their veggies.

They can hate me all for this night.

"At least I am kind enough to put meat on our table," I said to him, and what did I receive? Just a growl.

After that satisfying dinner, we manage to talk about another topic.

The moonlight festival will happen next week, and everyone is busy with that. It is like Christmas for humans. We also celebrate the divinity of our Luna, and also the day of giving thanks to the fruitful bounty and four our safety.

Though it is also the day that my mate will officially announce our relationship in public.