Loving the Beast in you

I stared at my window in teary eyes.Anger,dissapointment and betrayal is all i feel towards him and his family.I felt the pain in my throat as i'm helding back my tears.A lot of questions is bothering me.Inspite my anger there's confusion living in me. Why did he turn out like them? Why did he turn to a man i wished he would never be? Is there real love exist in the both of us all of these times?. Or was it also a bait of his family and him that i should fall into. I felt dissapointed,i felt so betrayed.I hate myself for falling in the bait of the Vanderbilts.I've been fooled.And i can't forgive myself that i dragged my family in this kind of mess.If I only listen to Dad that i should not be involved with them. My family and I wouldn't face this difficulties right now. The reputation of my family is already ruined.And there's no way that they could repay it.There's no way i could fix this mess. I have lot in mind right now.and i'm really tired of crying. I don't know if when could i ever love again ,or will i ever love someone again. I lay at my bed and wishing everything is all a nightmare.But i guess things will not be always fall according to how i wanted. "Caira",called Mom who is knocking at my door. I opened it and she's carrying a tray of breakfast.She sat at the side on my bed.And put the tray aside. "You haven't eat dinner since last night,honey.So I brought you some". "Thanks Mom,but you don't have to be really worried at me.I'm totally fine",i replied while helding my tears back. "You don't have to lie to me,I know you're not.I'm your Mom,you can't lie to me",she worriedly reply. "What happens yesterday,it will just passed Mom.I could get through it.And I know I could deal with it on my own". "Sure I know you could deal with it,but just ask me and your Dad if you need help." "Sure, absolutely",she kissed me in the forehead and she head downstairs. I'm really lucky to have Mom and Dad.They were the most genuine person that I loved.They are not the nagging type of parents but not also the showy type.They are in the middle of everything. Dad didn't scold and get angry at me.Even now that his company is facing a lot of difficulties due to what happen yesterday at the engagement party.Our companies shareholders are pulling out their shares.Due to our stained reputation because of the Vanderbilt's. Instead he really comforted me.And tell me everything would be alright.And I shouldn't have to worry.Because someday I will really met a true and genuine man. My Dad really understand me even he was in the process of losing the company. While my Mom.She really comforted me a lot last night.She even offered to sleep with me,a thing that she didn't usually do.My Mom is not the showy type.But she do really cares for me a lot. Kringgggggggg!Kringggggggg! My alarm already rang. And I have to go out to walk my dog Cazi.I really did realized that I really have to get back on my senses. Crying and being emotional doesn't make everything better.I must go back to my old self.And do what I usually do. I grabbed Cazi's water bottle and leash and go downstairs.I didn't have enough rest.But I really want to go out and get some fresh air. "Caira",called Mom who is at the kitchen making lunch. "No, don't do that.I'll walk the dog after cooking,go get some rest",she said while grabbing Cazi's leash from me. "Mom I'm fine, totally fine.I'll just walked Cazi and get some fresh air and then I'll get back home". "Are you sure?",she asked "Yes". "Okay you say so.",she replied "Be here before lunch okay". "Sure,Mom" I put the leash on Cazi's neck and I go out. It's a little bit slippery here outside.Because it's been raining since yesterday. I walked Cazi near the park.It's been long since we've been in there.I sat at the bench seat and give Cazi a drink. "Hey,Caira,why are you here?",asked Daena who is also walking his husky Sierra. "Well,what do you think i'm doing?",i replied in an insulting way. "Well you know Caira,someone like you doesn't belong here in the Elite villa.Where do you find your Audacity to shamelessly show here after what you do in the engagement party?",she replied Honestly Daena?you really know what happens.Don't play dumb.We both know you are involved in the plot of Vanderbilts against us.I don't know why you are so head over heels about ruining my engagement with Winston". "Well i really hate you for stealing Winston from me.You're a shameless woman." "Oh,is that the real reason you're pestering me?well you can have him for yourself starting now.I always know that you really like to finish my leftovers since in our high school days.But let me tell you that the next time you pester me.You would regret it.You wouln't like if i change my mind right?You know i can steal him easily for you",i replied to her while smirking. I stand up and carry Cazi in my arms. "Hope you have a good day Daena",i smiled at her and left the park. I really like to annoyed her. She really like to ruined my day.But she already stopped when she knows that i really didn't pay attention to her. Well at first we were friends in 7nth grade.Same grade,same sections.But at the next day when i was chosed as the President of our school.She treated me coldly.She even hates me more when Liam courted me in 8th grade.She treats me as her worst enemy just because i surpassed her in all times.There's times that she already stoop so low to ruined me like gossiping to my other schoolmates that they should not vote me as a school president because i steal Liam from her.I could not stop laughing right now as i recall that times.And after that she didn't know that i also spread gossips that she really hates me because we both run for the position of President and it ended up that i have the most votes even i'm not really that famous like her in our school. But all my gossips is based on facts of what really happened.I also spread the gossip that Liam courted me and she was rejected and she was taking it out on me.But everyone believes on me more than her.Because i'm the school president.and now as he gets over Liam now he wants Winston. Kringgggggggggggg!Kringggggggggggg!. "Hello".Caira,i already prepared lunch.Where are you now?". I'm on the way home,Mom". "Okay,honey,i'll wait for you" I hanged up on Mom and stop by in a shop that sells moon tart.My Mom really loves to eat Moontart from this store. I want to buy her one as a thank you for being my emotional support last night.After i buy it,i walk home.Our house is not so far away from our Villa.So it is just a walking distance. After i enter the Villa i went to the villa's garden,the garden is huge and has it's own gardeners.I picked tulip flowers since the gardener is not around .My Dad pleased me to do it last night,so she could give it to Mom since they're anniversary is today.And he's not sure if he can stopped by at the flowershop today.Because he has tons of work needed to finish at the company. He told me that it wouldn't hurt to pick just a few tulips because we're also the ones who are paying the workers.After picking the tulips i walked home.As i got home.I head upstairs and put the flowers in my bed for i had to put designs and organized it.So it's a ready go for tonight's anniversary of Mom and Dad.I walked downstairs.And i really smell the meaty aroma of steak that Mom is grilling.She seems sad because she thinks Dad forgets their anniversary.Because they celebrate it at usual in daytime in a Italian Restaurant. "Hey,Honey",called Mom as she notice that i'm at her back . "I cooked Italian Pasta and steak in there.It's on the table.Go and eat your Lunch". Thanks,mom,i replied while she's still grilling. I sat and cut the steak.And Mom really did cook it in the right way I wanted.I only like to eat Steak if it's medium- rare.and i eat Italian pasta with soft boiled eggs,it seems weird but i really kinda love it.I finished my meal and help Mom do the dishes and then i went upstairs on my room. I lay on my bed as i feel the relief after being exhausted all these times.I decided to take a short nap to energize my body.Because i've really been exhausted this days.I cuddled my pillow as i fall asleep "Caira",called Dad who is knocking at my door. I can"t help to wake up and opened my eyes.I let out a big yawn.I'm really satisfied to get enough sleep today.I picked my phone and it's already 8:00 Pm i really did sleep long.I opened the door.And there's my Dad wearing his clown like smile like telling me if i have already arrange the flower bouquet that she will give to Mom.i leave the door opened and let Dad come in as i head to my Study table. "Here",as i lend him the bouquet as he was sitting in the side of my bed "It's quite Beautiful,he said. "Thanks,by the way get changed,he added.Why?,i asked curiously.They always celebrate their anniversary with just the 2 of them.I'm really confused.I'm expecting a visitor tonight. Who?i asked him. "No more talking",he said as he sticked out his tongue at me and closed my door. I cannot help to think who will be our visitor.Maybe it's his partners again in the company who always join as at our dinner.Or Dad's bestfriend Tito Chad.I really have to stop guessing.I don't really care about them by the way. I decided to take a Hot shower to refresh my body.I really like Hot showers.I spend about 30 mins bathing.And i blowdry my Hair.I decided to wear my Pink fitted above the knee over shoulder dress with laces.I really want to wear it if there's a party held again here in Elite Villa.But since of what happens last few days in the engagement party.I will not be invited at parties anymore.Because the Vanderbilts are always the one who are meant to organize party.I buy it last week at a designer store.But i really want to try it and use it right now.I match it with my Patent Leather platform Sandals by MIU MiU and a minimalist diamond necklace by Harry Winston.I stare at my body length MIRROR.I can't help but to adore how much it looks great at me.As if it was really designed for me.the dress compliments my curves and my collarbones.I really did look great right now.I braided my hair loose fishtail which i always did and i wear a very Light make up.I just put Blush-on and lip gloss nothing more.I"m allergy to too much make up and i"m really not comfortable if my face is so heavy.After i fixed myself I head downstairs.I went to the terrace because it is the usual spot Mom prepared dinner if there's a guest.I see Mom walking through the dining carrying a plate of steak.She really did prepare a lot.I walked to the terrace .I stare at the man who was sitting at the side of Dad .He's having a conversation with Dad as i was standing at the door of the terrace."Caira,come here",called Mom.Dad and the visitor stares at me.I can't help to feel embarassed as Dad's guest looks at me coldly.He bit his lower lip as he stares at me.I can see that he's handsome.His brows was so wild and i can't help to beattracted in his green eyes he somehow looks like Steve Rogers.I avoid our eye contact when i realize we've been staring at each other for too long..I head to my usual place and sit,which is beside Mom.He's at the front of me me and i can't help to look at a different direction.because he"s still staring at me."Meet Mr.Davis,Caira he's my new partner at the Company.He's one of our major shareholders at the company,said Dad.Dad eyes me just like saying that i should greet his visitor.I don't like greeting someone."Ouch",i screamed as Mom steps on me with her stiletto."Greet him",Mom whispers at me."OkayOkay fine",i said to Mom while whispering as i greeted my teeth."I stare at Mr.Davisand he stare at me back like he was waiting for me to greet him."Nice to meet you,Mr.Davis",i said with my very forced smile in a very usual way like how i greet Mom and Dad's visitors.And they're already used to it.I furrowed my brows and rolled my eyes at him."So let's eat,Dad said.We started to eat dinner.Mom prepared Italian pasta,risotto,and Fiorentina steak.We drink red wine after it.I really eat a lot.I'm so full like my tummy is about to burst.I really like to be full because i'm always staying up late.After eating Dinner we moved in the Living room.And there Mom and Dad have a non-stop chat with Mr.davis While i am entertaining myself watching Tv.I drinked a lot of wine and i really felt tipsy right now.I decided to go to the fridge because i'm craving to eat dark chocolates.I grab some and lay my back on the fridge while stacking my mouth a lot of chocolates like i was dying for it.I really like to eat a lot of it as a midnight snack.I spotted Mr.Davis going here in the kitchen towards the comfort room.He probably see me too.because he have to enter the kitchen before going to the comfort room.i didn't pay attention to him and proceeds eating.i don't really care at him at all.I enjoy eating chocolates that's what i'm here for. HEY!,i scream at the top of my lungs as i see Mr.Davis staring at me about 3 meters away here in the kitchen.I was so surprised and literally confused of what he's doing.My heartbeat is going faster now because he is walking towards me 2 meters 1 meters.I'm really now short of breathe.36 inches,24 inches,12 inches.there's already no words coming out of my mouth.he's still walking towards me.6 inches,3 inches,2 inches it feels like i cannot stop estimating the distance between us.he's already in front of me. my heart is getting louder and i'm quite shaking.We're having eyecontact at each other right now.this man really creeps me out.he grabbed my shoulders and he pinned me down in the fridge.oh my gosh is this really happening?he's such a weirdo.i stopped breathing as he kissed my neck.he put my hair in my shoulders at the back and held my neck gently "You smells good",he say in his husky and baritone voice.he still stares at me.And he maintains his eye contact as he get out of the kitchen.i let out a big sigh as he left in the kitchen.It feels like my breathe is out in me for a minute.I should get over it.I just wash my face and my mouth who is full of chocolate right now.and i went in the living room he's still having a conversation with Mom and Dad as if nothing happens.i sit back at the sofa and continues to watch tv ."So you're first name is Nixon.it's a good name",said Mom.He really have a great name though i agree to Mom ."I already met your dad few years ago in a business event in Italy.you really looks so good for an Italian,mom said while chuckling.For me i could really say that he's Italian he really looks so handsome.It must be really hard to handle two big companies at a time right?,asked Dad."yah,he simply replied.Are you the only child?'."No i have a younger brother in Italy".he have his own companies in there"."guess we have to call it a night,you must have something to run at your company.Thank you for having dinner with us,said Dad while lending his hand at Mr.Davis."Don't mention it ",he replied."Let my daughter walk you out",dad replied.i stare at Dad telling him that i don't want to walk him out.But he also stares at me with his death look..So i don't have a choice,i should walk him out even i don't want to."Sure",Mr.Davis replied.I went upstairs and change my high heels into flip flops.After I changed I went downstairs to walk Me.Davis out.I spotted him sitting at the sofa.I guess Mom and Dad already go out to have their anniversary.I heard from Dad that he already book an Italian Restaurant for the Whole night.And here's me left out with this creepy man. "So what are you waiting for?",i asked him while raising my eyebrows.I already walked out of our door and he's already at my back following me as I walk him out.I turned my head as I'm curious what he is doing at my back that he didn't even make a noise.He's just smirking. what a weirdo!But his broad shoulders really catches my attention.He wears a fitted polo that reveals his broad shoulder and a fitted black jeans.He really look good at it.It's not a compliment I'm just stating a fact. We were walking out the gate when I saw Winston walking passed at our house.The pain go back at me again.The memories of the engagement party of how he accused me that I sleep with other man.Even he knows that I didn't.I know that he plots it against my family to ruin our reputation.So we will be kicked out here in the Elite Villa because both of our families are mortal enemies.But I don't know that he will do it to me.Just to ruin my family.I thought that he loves me so I give him all my attention and love that I could have.But it turns out that he and his family are just putting me at their bait.I can't help to be teary right now.I see Winston looking towards me like I'm the worst woman in the world.But I will make him regret what he did.I will play the game that he's playing.I will prove him that I already get over him. "Kiss me,I said while my voice is shaking. I turn my head to Mr.Davis to make eye contact with him.I can see that he's really confused as he furrowed his eyes. "Why?",he said curiously. "I said kiss me, Right now,I said to him in teary eyes he looks at the front of our house and he must definitely see it.We've been silenced for a minute.And here I am finally letting go the first tears that drips my eyes.I'm really so weak when it comes to Winston."Even I know Mr.Davis wouldn't do that for me.I tried to beg to him at the last time"Please,I said with my voice shaking.I can't help to cry.And the next time I felt is the tender lips pushing against my lips.I felt his tongue inside my mouth.He kissed me deeply while his hand is in my neck and the other is helding my waist towards him.I enjoy his lips moving at my mouth.I like how he held my neck and my waist gently.We both enjoyed the long kissed we share before he let go of me.I don't know what should I feel right now.He wipes my tears and walked in his car.I can see Winston walking out as I see him.It's better being pitied by Mr.Davis but I would not tolerate him pitying me.I swear right now Winston Aiden Vanderbilt you would regret everything you did to me.I will let you feel the pit of hell I'm feeling right now.You will pay more than the amount of pain you caused me.