Hers?

The sun wasn't shining for that day, maybe it was tired shining all day without anyone being thankful for it's job. It was time to bag it's rises beacuse the dark was coming, the completely dark, this blinded dark i mean. Someone was walking across the real sun heart, real sun soul that was me,when I say *was* that's mean everything I think, because you understand me everything can change, everything can die for how log it's considered alive.He was the reason of tearing me apart, I didn't expect to be loved on this moment especially from another one who's not me. Always I have been loved by my own, not by my parents, not by my brother, neither my sisters because they already have their own children, their families, but me... what I have had since now?! Only me and my showdow whole of my life. Imagine to be alone as a child , as a teenager, as an already woman...that's me and me. To be sincere i have had all needed things to be grown well, be careful all needed things...yeah,yeah you hearded it well ...thiiiingggss! My parents have costed their life on providing me all material economic part so they were tired to provide me my emotional health,better for me maybe beacuse sometimes it's better to not provide something that you aren't good at, something wrong, and so they did so. He brought me the dark even darker than his eyes, the dark of my life that helped me to understand myself, how to put boundaries, how to value myself, how to accept my mistakes my negative thoughts even my overthinking. To take all in positive ways, to leave the life brings me where I should be, non forced , no pressure on my mind and without worries, just living the day how it was, living the present finding the best version of myself. That seems like a gift to my live, like my inner light. but what about the darkness, what brings me with?? Exactly, that was my darkness the impossibility to have this person on my life, to enjoy his time that was our time , that was we. We were like to twins, similar and like sea and sky that are same blu but never meet together, seems like meet but in reality don't. It was my sunset that lying me with it's beauty grabbed my days. I was mad of him, mad of all this lies that made me believe in such incredible things and build an perfect live on my mind, how I never thought for this details on my own perfect live before built by me. it was him there on our life, you know what, anyone of you that thinks about it's live never changed with mine or another's live. All this beacuse that makes us to be us. So what... we have understood in ourselves that we love our imperfections...are inner we love us...our subconscious love been us...so go on and discover what are you going to love beacuse your way of your life is for sure that you're going to love again... just discover your path this is your responsibility beacuse everything we pass on our life cames to us to fix and to make us better... to be more thankful, to be more confident, to be smarter or maybe to value and to understand the most important think to us. Sometimes life se d to us someone just to take it away after , brings on a right moment without knowing that was the right , and take it away on the right moment just when it's the wrongest for us...without knowing that someday would say it was the time. The only perfect time for us is to live our present beacuse the life has it's own timer.