Alpha and I

What now Pt 2

    I wake to the door being shut as quiet as possible. I was always a light sleeper, which is why I also noticed when he slipped out of the room all sneaky like and was gone for a couple hours. I continue to lay in his bed thinking to myself why in the world that woman told me what she did. Find my true self? What does that even mean?

    Why was I even in his room, sure I might feel closer to him since he marked me, but yet I still feel wary of the whole situation. Seeing that woman tonight didn't help one bit. As I lay in bed I start to feel really warm and decide to take a cold shower.

    I strip down and let the cold water run down me, but to no avail. I was still boiling from the inside out, it was as if my own skin was crawling and my bones wanted to jump out of my skin! I leap out of the shower and barely dry off before sliding on a t shirt with some black sweats.

    I needed to go outside, fresh air was the only thing that could help me now. It was as if I was being suffocated by my own body and every inch of my being wanted to come out to play. I run into the elevator and pressed for the ground floor. 

    I hurry passed a few pack members who have me a few strange looks, but let me go my way. Probably thought I was trying to run away. I didn't care though, I needed to get outside fast! I practically jump out the front door, gasping for the fresh air. I look around and run towards the clearing with the lake, gasping for air until my bones started crackling beneath me and I froze, dropping to the ground in agony.

    I heard a ringing in my ears, and a girl screaming. I felt hands shaking me, and I realize it was me who was screaming. I hear somebody shouting my name and then I hear a loud deep growl from far away. A low howling sound and others talking around me.     

    I could hardly concentrate from the pain that was engulfing my entire being. It felt like I was going to erupt from my bones, but I couldn't control a thing. As I felt like passing out, my body jolted from the electric shocks I had gotten used to, I knew he was back.

    Let me out Melanie, breathe and relax.

    I hear Dean shouting orders next to me and I feel a strong presence in my soul, it wanted out. 

    That's it Mel, release me from your hold, let me out.

    I don't know what is happening, but I do. I relax and imagine my inner being emerging from my soul and I don't feel the pain anymore. It is all gone, I open my eyes, and I am not me anymore. I am looking through the windows of a great being and looking straight into the eyes of-

    "Mate."

    Dean nods towards me, his wide eyes relaxing and a big grin spreading across his face. He has no words for what he is looking at, in a flash he rips through his clothes and shifts into his enormous black wolf before standing by my side and dipping his muzzle into the crook of my neck.

    "How did you do that"

    I hear his voice instantly through the mind link, but I am unsure of what to say. 

    "I'm still trying to figure that out myself."

    He nods and lead me over to the lake, I take a second to admire the muscles and strength his wolf behold. My wolf seemed to enjoy them too, I felt her yipping in happiness of being with her mate. It was strange, it was as if everything about him not felt connected. Like the missing piece was finally added to the puzzle of our relationship and everything now made since.

    I gawk in awe at my reflection in the lake, it was the wolf from my dreams! I was larger than the average wolf, but not bigger than Dean's wolf. My dark black fur was thick and soft with silver tips edging across my mane and tail. Before I know it, him and I are running across the clearing and headed towards the woods. 

    My paws pound against the ground behind his own and I follow closely behind until we stop at a cliff. He surprises me when he shifts back into his human form, if I had skin he would have seen me blush from his nakedness. 

    He looks at me and smiled before saying, "Shift back baby, just relax and tell your wolf so through your mind."  He is probably right though, I should practice shifting back, but will it hurt like last time?

    He shakes his head, "It should be better the second time babe, go ahead shift back."

    My wolf whines, she wanted to run more, but I silently promised her that we would for sure be doing this again soon. She reluctantly agree and I feel my bones crackle and shrink down as my fur was shed from around me.    

    I squeal as I realize I am also now naked, in front of my mate. Which I guess could be worse, but I was still slightly shy. He doesn't seem to mind though, he smiles as he looks me up and down and gazes back into my eyes before adding, "Damn, that was a good idea."

    I hit his shoulder before saying, "Now how do I shift back?"

    He laughs before wrapping his arms around me and laying his hands on the top of my bottom. He looks down at my bare chest and I feel his man hood slowly erecting beneath us. I feel my face redden before I hit him in the shoulder again, "Hello! Eyes up here mister!"

    He laughs lowly before informing me, "Just talk to your wolf, our wolves control that aspect of us. My wolf is what makes it so..hard..to control my..urges." He grumbles while I feel his nether region getting harder until I can't take it anymore and yell at my inner wolf to free herself once again, before backing up and letting her loose once again.    

    Dean followed along as I lead us back to the cabin before shifting back on the porch, he looks at my naked for once again and smiles, but I roll my eyes and head to the closet before pulling on a pair of pajamas. He also found a pair of basket ball shorts and laid face down with his arms spread out on the bed. "f**k, I'm tired."

    "Where'd you go earlier?"

    His head jerks up and looks at me with a confused expression before laying back down and mumbling, "Rogue business."

    I try to trust him as I shut the light out and jump into bed, curling up beside my mate. And who would have thought that word would now feel so common to me. Who would have thought that within only a few hours after finding out I was a were wolf that I would be so calm? 

    It was a strange feeling, I felt stronger, faster, more agile. I also felt powerful, like I had yet to reach my full potential. All of this was something bigger than I knew, but where do I play in all of this. How did that woman know my name? Why had my life changed so drastically and what was I going to do about it now?