Toni For the first time I'm actually scared during a shooting. I'm scared of dying. I've never been scared of dying because I never had something to lose or to live for but since I have Lucille, I can't leave yet. I know she needs me and I can't leave her alone. I need her. We need each other. Although I need to concentrate because I'm going to be shot if I don’t, I just can't stop thinking about her and that makes me crazy. It makes me crazy because I already miss her and being without her is so hard. It's unbearable. It's already late and after this mission we have a meeting with him and he wanted to talk to me. I can't wait until he gets married so I can take over with my princess. He doesn't know about anything yet and I'm not going to tell him because as soon as he's not Pablo any

