Toni
Two weeks later I meet Pablo. Outside of his office. Outside of his house. In his huge backyard.
What I did with Lucille the other day was something I had to do. It was a must. It was the best for us both, though I realized how broken and destroyed she actually is. I never wanted to or planned to call her stupid or something else in any way but I had to do this. I did and said a lot of things I didn’t plan.
I had to do this mostly for myself, so I wouldn't get too close to her, without everything being set.
It would ruin my whole plan because I know I can't control myself when it comes to things. And I have to admit what she said actually hurt me as well. Nobody can ever make me feel like this except my family but she… The things that she said… The fact that she thinks I'm like
