All Night

Karma

Lucille

I look around and start to walk, hoping that I won't look like I'm running away. Although that's exactly what I’m doing.

It feels like the second time and it doesn't feel good but there's nothing that can stop me right now. I have a hundred reasons to do this and I don’t know what will happen after but I will figure out. They all made me do this.. I should go to the police and tell them everything or just back home. I don't know yet.

But I'm actually doing it. I'm finally doing it.

Although it feels like I'm too late and I should've done it earlier, I'm doing it now and I won't go back.

I was afraid of breaking my bones from climbing or falling down but I survived with a few little scratches and that’s probably god’s sign to tell me I’m doing the right thing.

I'm shaking. It's f*****g cold and I'm walking around with a dress and no jacket. I couldn’t think about packing my stuff, when I saw the open window as an opportunity.

This feels weird. It feels unreal. It's been so long since I walked a few steps by my own, without letting red hood lead me.

I'm asking myself how long it'll take him to notice that I'm gone and if he'll look after me. I wish I could actually see how angry he gets, when he sees that I'm not there. It was easier than I thought and although I don't know what I'm doing right now, I'm proud of myself and I don't think about going back.

I regret almost everything but there's no going back or traveling in time.

I look at the tattoos on my legs. They are the only things that I don't regret. I love them. I love how they cover my body and make it look like another layer of skin that tells a lot about me or covers what I don't want to see.

I look at my inner arm.

The moon on my inner arm makes me actually emotional. It makes my heart stop and my feet slow down for a second but I can't let this stop me. Even if it reminds me of him, I can't go back now or ever again. I need to be careful and keep going…

I'm not going to cry…

I don't even want to imagine what would happen, if red hood would catch me. I only hate myself because I didn't do or think about this earlier. I was so blinded by all the things that kept happening all the time. I was so blinded by him… He always kept me there. I don't even know why. It was probably the hope. I should hate that asshole and I do now.

He ruined me.

If he wouldn’t have been, I would’ve been fine.

I would've fought, I would've found a way out, I would've done anything but not let them win or get me.

What did I think I was doing? Who did I think I was? I could punch myself but instead I run my hands through my hair.

The worst thing is that I made out with red hood. It felt so passionate and I actually believed in it. I f*****g believed in it and let someone get to me after such a long time, only to get disappointed again.

Now I'm shaking because of anger. I let them all do this to me, just like I did it with Mason. I can't do anything right.

I can't do s**t right.

I messed up the thing with my mom, I messed up the thing with Mason, I messed up the thing with Romy and Tyler, I messed this up and after this all is over, I'm definitely going to kill my self because I can't live with this past or anything else anymore.

I can't live with these thoughts and I'm so done and tired with red hood always threatening me and telling me he's going to kill me or something. I don't want to live like this or in any other way anymore.

Right now I wish he would've done it. I wish he would've killed me. Someone like me doesn't deserve to live. Someone who doesn’t know how to use their brain like me. I deserve to die... But what did red hood say? I'm strong. I can do this. At least for now.

Some people walk past me... Some are just standing around and making phone calls or waiting for something or someone. It’s not too crowded but I should be quick. There are also some guys in black suits watching me. I don't want to be kidnapped again.

I should've taken a weapon or something with me. Oh my god. I should've taken all the cocaine with me and make him go crazy about that. He would’ve finally exploded, if I would’ve done that...

I don't mind them and keep walking. I realize that I'm already pretty far from the club. That's good. I'm coming forwards very fast.

I turn around a corner and bump into a guy… Who’s also wearing a black suit. He’s really tall, big and mean looking and now I realize that I remember him from somewhere.

I look up at him and he punches me out of nowhere. I trip but don't fall until he punches me again.

Toni

Doing that was easier than I thought. I can't believe what she turned into in such a short time and I don't even know why. I would say that it happened after what I told her about our kiss and us but that's not possible.

It's not like it would affect her that much. She seemed so mature and totally fine with it that I could never believe that this made her so angry.

There must be another reason. I really don't understand what's going on in her head sometimes.

My phone rings and I pick up when I see that it's Pablo.

“Yes?” I ask. I'm definitely going to tell him what happened and that we need to step up or game. She could be dangerous for us with that state of mind. It could be too risky to take her out or let her talk to anybody so I need to ask him what we should do.

“Son…” he sounds angry.

Fuck.

He sounds like he is about to lose his s**t. He probably already knows about what happened.

“Come here. Immediately. You have five minutes.” he says and I raise my eyebrows while he just hangs up.

I run and get into my car.

When I arrive, I hope that I'm not too late and run towards his office. I open the door and my jaw and my heart drop at what I see.

I enter and slowly walk towards them..

Lucille is tied on a chair, trying to free herself, while Pablo is standing in front of her and Hugo next to him.

He's another helper of his.

I swallow. I feel like I can’t breathe.

“How the fu-...” I can't continue my sentence. How the f**k did she come here? Why is she here? Why is she tied and why is she trying to free herself? They taped her mouth shut.

How did she end up here? I don't understand anything right now. Did he send somebody to get her? I'm really overwhelmed right now.

If what I’m thinking about happened, then I'm f****d.

“How the f**k did she come here? How the f**k did we tie her, how the f**k did she manage to escape, how the f**k could you let her out of sight or how the f**k did we find her?” Pablo asks and my jaw drops again. I look at him, eyes wide open.

She escaped and they found her? I'm dead. Nobody can save me. I’m as dead as no one has ever been before, even after getting shot right in the head. Deader than someone who never lived.

“Hugo saw how she was running away, all on her own and brought her to me. How did this happen, son?” he asks, totally calm. I’m sure he'll lose his s**t in a few seconds and break his huge wooden desk on my head.

“I have no idea...” I admit and look at her. Her eyes are red and she her nose is bleeding. Her hair is messy and she has red spots in her face that will turn purple. She cried. They hit her...

I can feel the wave of wrath that's growing inside me and will ruin everything like a tsunami. Especially when she gives me that look...

“Third floor, Lucille! You can't be that stupid to jump!” I say towards her. Her chest is going up and down very fast. I don't know if I have the right to say something but I had to get this off my chest? Otherwise I won’t be able to survive seeing her like this. He wet hair is sticking on her face and she looks done…

God damn, I should've checked on her or done something else. I should've told Pablo about it immediately, I should've locked her windows, I should've tied her onto her bed or her closet. I should've done everything but not nothing.

It was such a simple mistake that I didn't see this coming. I never thought she'd actually try to run away or be that crazy to somehow manage to get down there.

She was doing worse than I thought. How could she do this? Does she even know in what danger she got me with this? Or even herself?

“Capo, I swear to god, I-…” I don't even know how to explain this. He raises a brow at me and I feel the heat and my blood pumping very fast… I get nervous, when he looks at me like this.

“Do you know what could've happened, if Hugo wouldn't have found her? Where have you been, huh?” he asks and I can see that he's trying to stay calm. I shouldn't make this old man angry… Nobody wants to see what he’s capable of.

“I mean… Nothing could've happened. We have people everywhere. She wouldn't get too far…” I say, glancing over at her. I can already hear how she's cussing me out on the inside of her head but I'm the one who's mad here... I'm only keeping my s**t together because of him. Otherwise, if we would be alone…

What she did was stupid. She should've never done this. It was such a huge mistake, she can't even imagine. This can change everything…

“I don't care. Where have you been?” he asks and I lick my lips and give her the 'wait until we're alone' glance.

I explain him everything that happened tonight. Nothing about what happened on the beach. Only that I told her we should keep a distance and that I can't be with her. That we need to stay away from each other and stuff. Good, I lied but that's it…

I'll never lie for her or myself again. If I have to get punished for what I've done, then that's fine. I'm not a p***y. I'm going to tell him everything, with every single detail soon but it's too early. I know he trusts me. He is all I have and I don't want to lose this. Lucille is just a girl. Girls come and go. I won't miss out on anything. I realize that now because it's getting serious and f****d up.

This all is so much more important than her. How did I allow myself to make such an easy mistake? Dealing with her is more difficult than I thought. She's not the first one who tried to run away but she's still different. Even from the way Pablo is treating her.

He sighs and walks towards her.

Before I can even blink he slaps her. Ooff. My heart.

I look at the ground and bite my tongue. I fold my hands, tightly, holding onto myself to not jump him and shoot everybody in this room except her.

It's been a while since the last time I've seen him slap anybody. She deserved this to realize who she actually is f*****g with but still… it kinda hurt and wasn’t necessary at all...

He walks over to his chair. He sits down and looks at her. “I thought we had a deal, young lady. You would make this easy and do what we say and we wouldn't hurt anybody…” he says with furrowed eyebrows.

Lucille

If I wouldn't be tied right now, I would kick red hood so hard into his balls that he wouldn't be able to stand or feel his legs ever again.

That bastard didn't tell him everything. He didn’t tell him the whole truth about last night.

He's a fraud.

He made it look like it's my fault and I'm a stupid teen girl who is in love with him and got mad because he wanted us to stay away from each other... Isn't it like that? No, it's not.

Of course I shouldn't have trusted him. Damn, I was so close. I should've pulled over a cab or something and left. It was so f*****g easy. I couldn't even get this done.

I was so good with Pablo once and look at me now. I'm back at the beginning.

“You made a mistake. Means we have to punish you. Means someone is going to get hurt…” wasn't it enough that he slapped me? I can still feel my cheek pulsating...

I hate how red hood is looking at me.

Pablo turns his computer around so I can see the display and I can recognize my own house. My room. Tyler's room, dad's room, the kitchen, the living room and every other god damn corner of that house...

My heart starts beating too fast and a tear escapes my eyes, which are filled with hatred and anger. How and when did he manage to get cameras into our house? That f*****g bastard. I'm going to f*****g kill him soon...

Is it live? These could be old scenes. He could try to play with me. He told me we would be done with this but there's a date in the corner of every little window… It’s live…

“I think we should let you decide…” he says and I shake my head. Unfortunately I can't talk but I can look. “Tyler, daddy or… Romy?” he asks and I immediately look at red hood.

That b***h. He told him about Romy. How could he do this? Everything was a lie. Deep conversations at the beach, late night drives and tattoos together, everything was a damn lie. He told him everything that we talked about...

Now I really hate him. I don’t need to lie to myself or convince myself anymore.

I should've known it. Well now I know everything but it’s too late. He did all he did on purpose… It hurts. This is exactly why I am never going to trust anybody again. If I’ll still live after this….

I shake my head again.

“Oh, you don't want us to hurt anybody?” he asks, raising both of his eyebrows. I shake my head again, breathing heavily through my nose. This is how it's going to be, if I break the rules.

Seeing the real face of those who I've learned to love. When I think about how I didn't know anything about red hood’s existence and how I've accepted my love for him after getting to know him… It’s crazy.

Suddenly he hits his fist on the flag surface of the table and I wince. I think we all do.

“Then don't act like a stupid teen!” I am a stupid teen.

“Do what we tell you and be a good girl again!” a good girl again… If he wants a good girl, then he'll get it, as long as he leaves my family alone.

“Did you think we wouldn't catch you? What were you going to do? Where you planning to go back to your family and say 'hey, I'm not dead!' or were you planning on going to the police?” he asks, knowing exactly that I can't answer.

I hate it and it makes me angry that he's threatening me with my family again. I thought we'd be done with this... I was even more naive than I thought.

As soon as they'll free me, I'm going to punch myself. I should've known that he would come up with this. Means he's still counting every single move that I make.

“Oh, look… Tyler is leaving the house.” he says, with a big smile, making the frame that shows our front porch bigger. My heart starts beating faster and I start shaking when he calls someone... I start crying hysterically.

“Is everything ready?” he asks the person on the other end of the line and I think I'm going to implode. I scream through the sticky tape but I know they won’t hear me...

“Good.” he says and hangs up. He opens another frame. while more tears roll down my cheek.

Tyler... I haven't seen him for so long. My heart starts aching and I feel homesick…

He's walking down the street. I miss him so much. I send prayers to god, hoping he will protect him. I can only pray that Tyler goes back in.

Please go back...

I can't do s**t and that frustrates me a lot.

Suddenly something changes…

Tyler

I couldn't sleep so I called Grayson and we decided to meet. I'm so glad he's back. He's a really good friend and he always knows how to distract me. He's always there for me whenever I need him and he's really polite.

Sometimes I feel like he's the only one I can tell everything. I can talk to him about everything.

Dad told me to take care. He's not the same anymore and neither am I but walking a little bit makes me feel a lot better. It's been a while since the last time I've been up and out at this time...

I keep walking until I suddenly hear a car behind me and see the lights. I turn around and see a black car. Well I don't really see it. It's too dark and the lights are blinding me... So I start walking a little faster and wait for it to pass me but I hear how it keeps hitting the gas…

I turn around again and see how it's coming towards me. I back off and take a step to the side but it keeps coming towards me. I panic but don’t know what to do. What is going on?

Before I can even decide what to do, the car hits me…

Lucille

I scream as loud as I can, through the sticky tape. My whole body is aching and I feel like I'm going to faint. My whole body is standing in flames. These assholes. Son of a b***h.

He hurt him. He really did it. He hit him…

I swear to god, if he's dead…

My whole body is shaking and I'm crying hysterically and trying to free myself by stomping my food and moving but it won't help. I'm losing my mind.

I didn't think he would actually do this. I didn't think he would do something so bad. This is my first mistake and he already attempts in killing Tyler. Now he gained my respect, attention and anxiety but I will spend the rest of my life with fighting against him and destroying him.

My head starts spinning. I think I'm actually going to pass out. I let my head fall back.

Good. I give up. I'll give him whatever he wants. I'll be a good girl, I'll listen to him, I'll do whatever he says.

Pablo stands up and walks towards me. He roughly grabs my hair and makes me look at him. My eyelids are fluttering.

“This… was nothing, my dear. Don't worry, he'll survive but next time you'll have to watch how our lions eat him…” he says and slaps me again.

My whole face hurts. I'm actually praying that he'll get this all back. That karma will hit him. I could beg god to do worse things to him but all I can think of right now is Tyler...

“I hope you've learned something tonight. Now leave. Hugo, you're taking over. Son, you're staying.” he says and I give red hood a last look that tells him how much I hate him and how much of value he has lost for me, before Hugo takes me away from here…