Challenge For Love (Coming Soon)

Annoying and making someone angry at you are some of the many ways to make someone notice you. Cliche right? But you have to admit that in some ways everyone did something cliche. I am one of the people who ride the cliche bandwagon. I always feel a different kind of satisfaction whenever he looks at me with an annoyed face. And I love the fact that I am the only one who can make him lose his temper. It feels great to push him to the edge, to challenge him to his limit. But despite that, kahit nanggagalaiti na siya, kahit gahibla na lang ang kanyang pagtitimpi, hindi niya pa din ako pinapatulan. In the end, he will just look at me with a knotted forehead and a blank expression and then fixed the mess I made much to my dismay. Laging ganun ang scenario sa pagitan naming dalawa. Until it become a habit and it developed for something more. Unfortunately, it was just me. Ako lang pala ang unti-unting nahuhulog ang loob sa kanya, eventually falling in love. At gaya din ng mga alam na nating cliche scene sa isang kwento, I made a move. I confessed. Expecting that my love will be returned but no, I was blatantly rejected. With a blank look, emotionless face he said, "No, I am not in love with you!" I asked him, "Why?" and he replied, "because it's you." My world stop and everything stands still. Matagal bago tuluyang na proseso ng utak ko ang ibig niyang sabihin. I was hurt and heartbroken but more than that my pride was severely damaged. Did you think I did stop because I was rejected? You're wrong, I am a brat after all. I won't stop until I get what I want. I was challenged by the rejection and embarked on a journey to make him fall in love with me. It was already proven to be difficult even before I started. But it gets more and more difficult as time passes. I was confident, with every tactic and scheme a girl has, he will surely fall for it at some point, right? But I miscalculated something, I totally forgot that he's no ordinary guy, that he is far different. As a last resort, as most girls came up with to tie the guy they love, I became a temptress and seduce him. But then again, I never put into account that he is different. I'm not your average girl, I am confident with my looks, in myself overall. Still, for the second time and much worst, I was again rejected. Apart from being rejected, I was scolded and threatened. He threatened me that he will tell my parents and my uncle, his adopted father, of what I've been doing. I can face my parents if it comes to that but not my uncle, he is intimidating and I cower in fear just by the thought of him getting angry. I lay low for a while, letting what happened died down then I will start again. This time I promise not to mess things up. But everything did not turn in my favor. When I was ready for the challenge again, just one scene made me stop on track and other things keep coming up, one after another. With the last straw, I retreated, accepting defeat that whatever I do, he will not love me. Not because I am a brat nor I am not lovable, but because I am Jazzmine Kaye Davies Pierre. That doesn't mean that I stop loving him, I can't because he's the only one that makes my heart, beat. Being content with the news and checking him out from time to time, I live my life away from him and from everyone. Never in my wildest dream that I thought I'll be able to live again with him being close to me after many years. We both don't have a choice as it seems that my life is in danger. He knows how bratty and stubborn I was thus he can't entrust me to his subordinate. There's no one that can put me off, aside from the men in the family. It's fine with me as I can be with him again, though he's near yet so far. But the danger with my life is not the only thing that I should think about. Secret and lies will be discovered at some point, and I'm full of it. It feels like I'm a ticking time bomb, with every move will tick and the secrets might explode any moment. I have to stay away from him or else he will know what's I've been keeping and I don't want the things that will probably happen next. I may ask him something that this time, he can no longer reject and he will do it even if it's out of character for the sake of me. "Nakatingin ka na naman sa malayo at lumilipad na ang isip mo," puna ni Athena sa akin. "Iniisip mo na naman siya kaya ka nalulungkot." It was a statement and not a question. She sigh and sit beside me, "With your situation, chum, I don't think someone will disagree with you. You want Zander, right? Then, why don't you ask for him if that's what makes you happy?" Bumaling ako sa kanya at malungkot na ngumiti. "You're right, chum. I can definitely do that," I agreed with what she said. "Pero alam mo, mula ng malaman ko ang sitwasyon ko, na saglit na lang ang nalalabi kong oras dito sa mundo. I realized that I don't want to take something by force. Ako lang din ang masasaktan kapag gagawin ko ang sinabi mo. Alam ko na hindi siya makakatanggi. But I don't want to see him giving me a blank look and wearing an emotionless face. Sa mga huling sandali ko sa mundong ito, hangad ko na sana ay magawa niya along tingnan ng puno ng emosyon ang kanyang mga mata, ng buong pagmamahal at pagsuyo." I diverted my eyes from her and look up, a sad smile is still plastered on my lips. In a quivering and quiet voice, I added, "Alam nating pareho na malabo ang bagay na hinihangad ko kahit pa pagpapanggap, hindi ang katulad niya. Hindi si Zander." A tear fell from my eye. Naramdaman ko ang pagkabig sa akin ni Athena upang yakapin. With a faint sob, I continued, "I didn't simply want, Zander, I want his love. Something I can't get. It's better to be this way. I can't be that selfish. Besides, I can't hurt myself more. It's hard but I decided to face the reality in my remaining days." Kasabay ng pag-agos ng mga luha sa mga mata ay ramdam ko din ang pag-iyak ni Athena. Iyak para sa akin. As the time of saying goodbye for good is fast approaching, I refused to steep so low more than what I did before. Even if that means leaving with a broken heart and not winning the challenge for love. At least, I did what's best for us or so I thought.