Ryder
My heart pounds as I pace around my room.
The feeling of her lips flashes through my mind for the millionth time.
How am I even alive right now?
Sure she punched me in my stomach when we got home but... I mean... I'm so f*****g whipped.
I want her now. I want to go crawl in her bed right now and spoon her, while we snuggle.
What the f**k did she do to me?
I'm THE gang leader, ruthless, merciless, if you f**k with me you die. Period.
And yet I'm over here thinking of snuggling, f*****g snuggling.
Who am I even?
They felt so soft. Her lips. I just want to take her somewhere where she can't run away and leave me.
My mood takes a turn for the worst.
She...left.
I came back to an empty house, and I felt so angry.
I didn't realize she mattered to me this much.
I sit on my
