One week later...
I stared out in front of me as the whip with the sharp ends hit against my skin. We have been doing this for a whole week and I think Blayne wanted to give up on the idea, but just as he got more frustrated we had a break through, sure it got better everyday, but today is the first day I've successfully not shown my pain. I guess my body just got tired, tired of all of it.
It feels weird, I see him raising his hand I see the whip going back and in me I know I should shy away, then I see it being flared at my exposed skin, then it hits me and I feel nothing, sure the pain is there, but in a way I don't feel it. It's a let down. Everyone in life wants to feel something even if it is just pain. In a way it's a positive development as well, since I won't be able to feel hi
