Twenty six hours has passed more or less and as soon as my mechanical door opens I have to go to Blayne. I hardly slept I was to worried about what's going to happen to me next. He clearly won't do anything in his office right? He could, he wouldn't take in account that one's virginity is special and losing it is a big thing. I feel sick, but I'll get through this. This will be the one lesson I fail, I’m not just going to take it. I don't think he'll kill my father for one disobedience - if he does he'll have nothing left to control me with, I really hope he doesn't kill him. I'm not naive I know there will be some sort of punishment for rejecting him. There always is a punishment for rejecting him; it's one of the things he made clear never to do. This is why I hardly slept, because I’m
