BRIAR’S POV
I fade in and out of consciousness, walking aimlessly and reliving the last moments of the argument with Eli against my will.
Each replay in my mind is pure torture, my thoughts mocking me for ruining everything, hurting Eli, and breaking his trust.
I wish I could take it all back. I would do anything to retrace my steps and stop myself from giving in to temptation. But I can’t; all I can do is live with the guilt.
I hate it so much.
I try to bury it deep within my mind as I always do, attempting to justify it until it no longer hurts, but nothing works. The pain only intensifies.
I despise myself for ruining every good thing that has come my way. What’s wrong with me?
Cursing myself, I pause and realize that I’ve somehow made my way back to the servants' quarters, st
