Rejection is unforgivable

I woke up to the sounds of thundering upstairs in the kitchen "where is she" the alpha of the pack said "where is that damn woman" I was half asleep as the alpha and beta Miles and Erin had barged into my room "are you going to make food anytime this morning will do" miles said angrily, All I wanted to do was sleep after yesterdays beatings I could hardly stand up and yet they wanted me to make them breakfast I was tired and half asleep and I wanted to get up but I couldn't. I am the only omega in my pack I am the lowest of the low and they think that I am no better than the trash outside I am slowly dying but the only thing that is keeping me hear is the chance that I will find my mate one day the chance to find my true love but I think he will reject me anyway because I am considered trash. The next day it was very cold outside I had gotten up early and prepared breakfast for the whole pack they don't like to see my face on a morning I don't know why so I get to start my daily chores around the pack house going from. One room to another then I smelled a scent of grass and herbs so I went from room to room till I found that scent and I got to miles room the alpha to be and opened the door what I saw made my heart break into tiny pieces the miles and a woman who I didn't know naked on the bed when he turned to see me he knew what had happened. I ran as fast as I could down the stairs and out of the pack house into the woods where nobody could find me because if I went back to the house I would surely get a beating for it so I shifted into my white and blue lunareon wolf I felt so powerful my wolf and I could control water and do lots of interesting stuff but I was too dangerous and trash to become the luna or a mate of the pack so I knew that he would reject me when he found me, As I ran for some time I felt myself go into another wolfs territory and I was scared, I was scared of the territory and also I was angry for what I saw I felt like dying. You know I never knew my real family they abandoned me when I was a baby and the pack decided to bring me up and help me grow up into a woman but I never had the family bond with my family.