The thoughts of an 18 year old

Okay, so you readers out there might ask, “Why would this random 18-year-old unknown girl who wants to be an author write something like this at first?” Let me tell you. One day I was watching a video and I heard someone say the most inspiring and relatable thing I’ve ever heard. He said“ Remember when you were a little kid, and you would look up at the clouds in the sky as the sunlight bounced off them, and something that simple would make you feel apart of everything, but all alone at the same time. And that feelings not something you can ever put into words, so you spend your whole life chasing it, making music, taking pictures, painting or whatever, in the hopes that other people will understand that sense or feeling. As creative entities, we look for signs outside ourselves, for a connection to alleviate the sense of solitude. That’s why we do what we do. Whether we know ourselves or not”. That one thing made me realize why I wanted to do this, why I wanted to do things like write, though I will also say it’s also because I want to create a world, a place for myself where I’m not myself. Well, I’m myself, but I’m not where I usually am. I’m wherever I want to be in any place, time, with any person I want. But for the most part, that paragraph I quoted is the reason I’m doing this right now. I’ve always felt off, and I wanted to write about it, in the hopes other off-feeling people, especially ones my age, will understand, and relate maybe, because at the end of the day, I think that’s what everyone wants. To be understood for what they are, who they are, how they are, not judged, allowed to be cringey, and free and liberated, and happy, and whimsical, allowed to feel off, or weird, or odd, but not have it be a bad thing. So I hope you enjoy and relate, you weirdos, freaks, and geeks.