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Chapter Fourty

ETHAN'S POV

We was all in the middle of toasting Sid, When we all heard the music stop. I heard Siennas voice. Everyone stopped as we turned in the direction to look at the DJ booth utterly stunned.

"When did Sienna come back?" Harry says

"How did she get in here unnoticed by any of us" I say shocked.

"Why are you all stood there. I will admit I didn't know Sienna was coming home today but clearly she is ready to see you all again. Go" Sue says we don't need asking again as we all start running for the DJ booth.

"I don't know weather to tell her off or hug her and never let her go" Charlie says and Sid says "I'm gonna lock her up so she can't ever run off again" making Harry chuckle as he says "We can take turns. I'm glad she came back I didn't think she would ever come back".

We reach the Dj booth as we all try to squeeze in and the first person to reach Sienna is Sid as he lifts her up spinning her around just as the birthday song finished.

"Jen, sorry to squash you. we won't stay long we just came to collect our long lost princess" Harry says as Sid starts crying saying "You came home then?" Then he puts Sienna down on the floor but doesn't let her go..

"You don't hate me then?" We hear Sienna say as the club starts cheering at the sight before them. Sienna hold the mic out in one arm nearly knocking Charlie out as she hugs Sid back. Jen takes the mic from her.

"No, I'd never hate you. Your my sister or did you forget that?" Sid says

"No, I just had to be by myself for a while. But I'm back now and will stay if your okay with that" We hear Sienna say

"For real this time?" Sid says moving back to look at Sienna and she says "Yes, for real. I can honestly say I've found peace. I'm back working again, Even starting a job in the local hospital in a few weeks time" Sienna says as she wipes away Sids tears.

"I'm so happy, this is the best birthday present ever" Sid says.

Sienna then looks around at all us and says "And what about you lot? Am I forgiven? Or do I have making up to do?"

"Come here" Charlie says first holding his arms out for Sienna to hug him and then Harry says "Totally forgiven so long as you unblock us" and we hear Sienna laughing as she says "I unblocked you all whislt on my the flight home" then she goes to Hug Harry but looks at me a little worried.

"Alls forgiven" I say not wanting to upset anyone. But I have so many questions to ask.

I decided I would head on back to the VIP section and I heard everyone chatting away behind me as they followed suit.

"So where did you go?" Sid asks and I listen wanting to know myself.

"Ireland, it was definitely what I needed. The people out there are so nice but I tell you what they can sure can drink" Sienna says.

"So you were this close all long and didn't even come back for a visit?" Charlie says

"Actually after the first few months I started flying back once a month would stay one night and then fly back" Sienna says

I stop in my tracks turn around and say "So you have come home at least once a month and didn't think to come say hi to any of us, Give us a chance to correct anything?" I say looking at Sienna dead in the eye before up and down again to make sure i wasn't dreaming and I notice there are no rings on her wedding finger as she looks at me and says "Ethan, I am sorry for that. But I had to do what was best for me. I had to make sure I found myself again" Sienna says

"So it didn't matter we were all going stir crazy with worry. No? The only information we could find out from your parents was that you were alive. We didn't get anything else. We didn't think we would ever see you again" I say as I feel the anger build up in me.

"Ethan, now isnt the time" Harry says patting my back.

"No, when will be the time? Each of us went through hell, spent countless sleepless nights worrying. We even hired a private detective that found nothing" I say

"We know, but didn't we also agree that when Sienna did come back we would let her explain" Charlie says

"No, its fine. I didn't expect you all to forgive me, I had to be selfish and selfish isn't an attact thing on anyone. But then again, I realised I had never been selfish in my life before. I was to focused worrying about everyone else that I completely lost who I was. I had to be selfish and if you really want to know the truth Ethan, I know if I'd stayed it wouldn't of taken much more else for me to not be here but in my grave. And you know what else, If you want the honest truth the day that trail came to a end and he was sentenced I was all ready to take my own life. Thats how bad, I was mentally, I sat there looking at the tablets before me and the only reason I didn't take them tablets is because I knew I owed it to everybody back home to come out the other end. So yeah, I was selfish but I worked hard on making sure I could come back home one day and say I'm sorry, I left how I did. Weather you all want me in your lifes or not that's your choice. But I assure you weather you do or not, I'm not leaving town again. I'm going to stay and continue building the life I deserve. If any of you want me to stay a stranger to you, I will respect that. But I won't be sorry for having to turn selfish because I now stand here before you all stronger than the weak broken mess I left in" Sienna says

"You didn't even give us a fair chance to try help you though" I say.

"Yeah, but you all thought it would be easy, that you could all fix me. As if it was some kid at school you could just beat up. Or a simple put a plaster on the wound and give me ice cream to fix it, oh I wish it had been that simple.. I know you all wish you could of picked up all the pieces and put me back together but the truth is I was the one who needed to fix my self" Sienna says then she walks past me like she is done with this conversation.

"Running away again when the going gets hard I see" I say turning around to follow Sienna and she whips around and takes a step closer to me as she pokes me repeatedly in the chest she says without breaking eyes contact "No, I'm not running away. I was going to say hi to my mum and let you cool down. But since you want to thrash it out why don't you get in the office and we can thrash this out. Like Harry said this is not the time or place so the least we can do is let Sid enjoy his party whilst we thrash it out in the office".

Then Sienna turns to look at Harry as she says "Thats okay with you isn't it Harry? We can borrow your office?".

"Yeah, go ahead" Harry says Sienna then looks back at me again once again not breaking eye contact as she says "Well what are you stood there for? I thought you had a lot to say let's go Mr" then she points in the direction of the offices

"Why on earth are you accepting being spoken to like that by some women. If I demanded such stuff you would be pissed off" I hear Lola say and right on cue every single one of us turn to look at lola as me, Sid, Harry and Charlie say "Because she is and always will be our princess" Then lola looks surprised as I continue "We maybe at odds right now but no matter what we always have each others back. Even if that person doesn't want it" As I say the last part I look back at Sienna and she raise her eyes at me like well are we thrashing this out or not.

"Trust me, this is just a silly argument. They all love each other really.. Only Sienna can keep them all in check" Maria says and i was distracted as I kept the staring contest with Sienna until she took my hand and lead me away from everyone else.

We both didn't say a word until we reached Harry's office.

Sienna closed the door and turned to look at me for a moment before she said "Well go on then. Say what you got to say.. It seems you had plenty to say out there but now the cat has your tongue?" and she looks at me with daring eyes.

She doesn't looks like she has demons anymore she looks ready to conquer the world and even though I'm still pretty mad I'm a little turned on with how hot as hell Sienna looks right now owning the world. I'm even proud to at how fearless she looks.

Even that dress screams I'm not to me messed with. But I find my tongue as lean back perching myself on the desk crossing my arms saying "It's been two years and in that time you couldn't send any one of us a text, even if you blocked us straight away after just one text to say "I'm okay!" I say

"Don't make out you wasn't warned I'd be silent until I was ready to come back. I know damn well my mum passed on my messages" Sienna says with a hand on her hip as she pointed at me like she wasn't taking that statement at all.

"Oh the message with also involved we should all just get on with our lifes and I should go find someone that wasn't damaged! Nah, that was bullshit. None of us moved on with our lifes. Yes each day came and went but we didn't forget that you ran off. We didn't stop worrying and I sure as hell didn't go find any other women to f**k around with when I knew the only person who actually had my heart had run off. Was somewhere out there broken and there was nothing I could do to fix it or try to help. I didn't know what you was doing, if you were okay. None of us did" I say

"Well more fool you all, because after a certain amount of time you should of realised I ment all them words. I wanted you all to happy whilst I learned to be happy in this world again. I wasn't going to hold you back none of you" Sienna says

"Then maybe you still don't get it. Maybe you don't realise that we would all do anything for you. Hell we would give up our own lifes to know your okay and happy. I think the very least we deserved as your friends was a simple text to know you were alive" I say

"You said it yourself my parents told you I was alive so you knew. Dont try that s**t with me.. You don't think, I didn't think about you all? You don't think I wanted to pick up the phone or come back home sooner? You don't think I wouldn't lay down my life for any one of you all either? Well I would. I was holding you all back, I was a burden broken women you all desperately wanted to fix. I couldn't bare holding you all back. I couldn't bare the fact that I woke up everyday trying to smile when I felt so sad. I did it because, I wanted you all to be happy. But it wasn't working, I knew it. I knew I needed you all but I realised I needed to fix myself on my own first. I knew you all ment well and I kept you all in mind everyday, you all and my parents where the only reason I didn't continue spiraling down the black hole of suicide. And if you don't believe that then that's fine. If your not ready to forgive me that's fine. Go live your life knowing im home safe and well. You don't have to worry about me anymore. As you can see, I'm doing just fine. I won't hold it against you. I will just wish you well in everything in life" Sienna says with that she turns around to open the door and I move like a flash of light to close the door holding my hand above Siennas head to keep it closed whilst pulling her back flush with my body.

"I've waited two years for you to come back. Two years of hell and you still dare tell me to go live my life as if I didn't just tell you your the only women who has ever had my heart. You tell me right now you don't still love me and I will let you walk out that door. But you don't ignore that fact" I say and I hear Siennas breathing hitch a little but she doesn't struggle or say anything.

"Now who's cat has there tongue?" I say

"I can't tell you I don't love you because that wouldn't be true" Sienna says quietly that I just about heard it. My own heartbeat speeds up and none of us attempt to say anything for a few minutes but Sienna does break the silence first as she says "I have to go say hi to my mum now. Let me know when your ready to forgive me Ethan".

Then Sienna goes to open the door again but I spin her around and claim her mouth within a few seconds. Not wanting to wait enougher moment to show Sienna that I'd forgive her no matter what.. and not wanting to wait any longer to claim what I've wanted all these years. She wouldn't escape again now she was home. She would be mine like it was always ment to be.. the kiss is full of need as if our lifes depended on it and Sienna seems to be wanting it just as much as she wraps her arms around my neck hands instantly running through my hair. I use the hand that was on the door to cup back of Siennas head before pinning Sienna against the door so she doesn't whack her head.

I hear Sienna moan and my its like the time didn't pass us by as my c**k instantly hardens at the beautiful sound coming from Sienna.