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Chapter Thirty-Six

SIENNA'S POV

"I'm sorry I took so long at the grave" I say while we wait for our drinks to be made at the drive through.

"Dont be silly, I was getting worried though after you took so long. I could tell you were crying as well" Sid says.

"I domt know why git harder at the grave today, when it came.to leaving I just felt like it was alot harder to walk away. I don't like it and usually I feel ready after a while being there. Today it just hurt more" I say.

"Thats okay, I'm sure your going to get them days when it feels more worse than others. I'm sure your still probably having bad days as well in general. Your probably just not showing it as well as you use to" Sid says.

"I'm okay" I say then our drinks get handed to us as the women say "Have a nice day".

"Thankyou" Sid says taking the drinks.. he passes them to me and I put them in the cup holders as Sid starts to drive again and says "You know you can talk to me on them bad days, I will always have time for you of you need me"

"Yeah, of course I know that. Honestly though I'm okay now" I say not wanting to ruin the weekend plans ahead for anyone. I'm annoyed I've woken up feeling it more today when I just wanted to enjoy the weekend myself.

"Okay, then continue to fake it until you make it. But know I'm onto you and you can't fake smile around me without me noticing it" Sid says.

"You heard me talking to myself this morning.ong didn't you?" I ask

"Maybe" Sid says.

"I just want to have a good weekend. I hate feeling upset over what that thing done. Its really started bothering me more since I had the court date though. But I don't want to talk about it. Id rather just try ignoring it for now anyway" I say feeling myself feeling emotional just thinking about it again.

"Don't be so hard on yourself.. we all know how much your trying to move on. We also know your going to still have bad days and we are all still here for you.. you don't have to bottle it all up anymore" Sid says.

"And what if I'm sad forever? Your all get bored of it. I wish.i wasn't sad so much. I feel like I have a few good days and then boom I wake up feeling awful even yhougj I know I had a good day. I hate it and I wouldn't blame anyone thinking now its about time to get over it" I say

"Get over it, it's not that easy.. no one thinks that. Jesus you went through hell and back in so many ways. I don't know how your functioning. If it was me I domt think od of ever got out of bed. I wouldn't want to be alive anymore" Sid says.

"I wouldn't let you suffer alone... and I know I'm not alone. I will be okay though. let's just have a good weekend" I say.

"Okay, but at any point you feel sad and just need a moment its okay, just give me a nid and I will hug you until you feel better. Or we can take few minutes out together weather you want to talk or not.. you won't ever be alone ever again" Sid says.

"I know" I say we pull up to Ethans and he is already stood outside waiting for us. Ethan locks all the doors putting a finger up to Ethan indicating one minute before he turns to face me.

"Just because I have Maria and Jordan now it doesn't mean I've stopped being your big brother or best friend. We said as children no matter what we wouldn't ever not be there for each other.. We were inseparable until you went off to meds school then moved to the states. Hell I thought we were Still really close as we spoke practically everyday. If there is one thing I've learnt though is your very good at hiding the bad stuff away from me.. it seemed after we both got married you thought we would lead our own lifes. You forgot that I'd still go to the end of earth to make sure your okay forever and always. Yeah we have all these guys as our best friends but tour always be my ultimate best friend and I want to still be yours. Just remember no matter how we move forward in life no one can come between us if he don't let them. I even want to know about the chappy stuff" Sid says then he leans over to hug me and I hug him back as I say "I know, your always be my ultimate best friend as well"

"Good, now quickly tell me did you enjoy your date last night?" Sid says and laugh at how quickly he changed the subject.

"Yeah, I did. Talking of which you gonna let Ethan in or what he must be cold stood out there" I say

"Yeah, he can drive im bored of driving now" Sid says grabbing his drink as he then unlocks the door.

"More like you want to drink a hot drink in peace without driving or it going cold because you have to see to Jordan" I say as Sid opens the car.

"Ah, got me there. Your driving" Sid says getting out the car to get in the back.

"I am?" Ethan says looking confused.

"Yeah, you are. I'm bored of driving. Sorry we took a moment to let you get in the car though. I needed a few extra minutes with the princess" Sid says as Ethan passes Sid his bag and then he replys "Thats alright, put this in the back with you then please since I'm driving".

They both then get into the car and Ethan says "Afternoon princess" as he leans over to kiss my cheek and then sits back to put the seatbelt on.

"Afternoon, you have a good a day?" I say.

"I did, I'm looking forward to the weekend with everyone what about you?" Ethan asks taking my hand as he starts the car.

"Yeah, I can't wait. I think it will be fun, just need to get Maria and Jordan then we will be on our way" I say.

"Yeah I'm just messaging Maria to say we are on our way now" Sid says

ETHAN'S POV

When we arrived at Harry's Charlie was already there and they already started on the drinks. Food smelled amazing.

"Whats everyone drinking?" Harry says rushing in from the kitchen hearing us all arrive.. "First can I set up the travel cot for Jordan?" Maria says followed by "Yeah, let us put our stuff in our rooms then we will have a drink. You know what I like yhougu of you want to get on making them" Sienna says

"Okay, Sid you and Maria are nearest the stairs incase you need to get up during the night with Jordan. I thought it might be easier. Charlie opted for the one next to there. Obviously I'm in the middle as opposite the bathroom. Therefore that leaves the other rooms for Ethan and Sienna to choose from" Harry says.

"Thanks" I say followed by Sienna and Sid and myself grabbing our bags as Sid says "I will set the travel cot love".

"Okay, I will help Sienna then, If Charlie doesn't mind watch Jordan. I want a girly catch up with Sienna quickly".

"Everything okay?" Sienna asks as we all start to go to put our stuff in the rooms.

"Yeah, I just wanted to speak with you without all the lads" Maria says

"Okay, thata good then. You had me worried for a second" Sienna says

"Why would you be worried?" Maria asks.

"Well lately our catch ups have been more heart to hearts. I just thought... you know what ut doesn't matter" Sienna say.

"Okay, well we can have one of them as well of needed but this is proper girl talk. If your lucky I may even do your make up whislt we have our girly catch up, I've still to do mine anyway" Maria says as Sid heads into the first room.

"What bedroom do you want?" I ask Sienna.

"I don't mind. you go ahead and pick first" Sienna say smiling at me and I think id rather we were sharing a room but then again she will probably end up with me anyway of she can't sleep.

"Okay then help me decide because I can't decide" I say smiling back.

"Juat spin around and point to one" Sienna says jokingly.

"Okay" I say spinning around a few times then I raise my arm and it lands as I stop both Maria and Sienna start laughing as I see I stopped pointing towards the bathroom.

"Bath tub it is" Sienna say laughing still.

"I don't think so. I only get into the bath tub nude and I can't see that going down well" I say smiling myself.

"Well Sienna may appreciate it" Maria says laughing

"I'm sure she would" I say as Sienna says "Alright, just take the one next to Charlie and I shall take the one opposite. See it wasn't that hard was it".

"Not now it isn't" I say followed by a wink at Sienna then I go to go into the room Sienna suggest and I can hear Maria laughing even harder. Sienna looked a little flushed as I open the door Sienna says "Seems the bath tub might just be what you need to cool off then" I turn to look at Sienna and she smirks before adding "Then again you may need a helping hand. I hear Charlie likes doing that" and Sienna laughs as she walks into the bedroom next to without stopping as I say "I think you would fit that role so much better though" whilst a little stunned that she wants to banter back in such a way.

"What have I missed?" Maria asks following Sienna.

"I can hear everything you know. Thats my little sister your going to make my ears bleed" Sid shouts out and I laugh whilst saying "Sorry I forgot you were in there".

"Please find a different way to make her smile without resorting to such talk around me" Sod shouts out.

"I shall try" I shout back then put my bag down on the bedside cabinet deciding there's not much point in unpacking before going to see if Sid needs a hand with the travel cot.

"Hey, I thought I'd seeif you need a hand" I say walking in to see Sid in the middle if setting up the travel cot.

"Hey, I'm good. I'm actually glad you came in though. I wanted a word without Sienna around" Sid says.

"Sure, everything okay?" I ask

"No, I'm concerned. Sienna is struggling to as finding out the court case date seems to be getting to her. I over heard Sienna talking to herself well more like trying to talking herself into believing she is okay this morning. She didn't realise I had turned up. She stated though in what I overheard that she had a good night last night and is sure the weekend with us will all be good so why does she still feel sad. She proceeded to remind herself that its okay to have bad just fake it until she wins it. It made me wonder how much she has been faking since coming vack from Scotland and even before going out there. I'm also annoyed o didn't notice it really beforehand" Sid says as he finishes with setting up the travel cot.

"I wonder myself sometimes. I'm also worried about unless she is sat or layed next to me she doesn't seem to be sleeping" I say.

"Me to, maybe you two should share rooms this weekend so she can get some decent sleep.. never thought I'd see the day of encourage someone to sleep with mh sister. I mean literally sleep though" Sid says.

"Don't worry, it will be literally just sleep. She needs to sleep more.. plus I don't think Sienna is ready for that stage yet and I won't push my luck" I say

"Good, let's go head on down for a drink. I asked Maria to do Siannes make up and hair to see of that will help Sienna feel.more better today. Don't tell Sienna I did that though" Sid says

"Don't worry I won't, besides I think your right it may help cheer her up.. I'm glad to know she fun had last night though. Even though I could tell she loved it, its still nice to hear it" I say

"Yeah, it seems you know how to make her smile the most. Not sure how you do it, im little jealous she prefers you over me now. You need to stop trying to steal my best friend" Sid says laughing.

"Don't worry she can Still be your best friend I'm aiming to gain a wife" I say opening the door to head downstairs but we See Sienna turn around from where she was clearly about to go into the bathroom. She looks at me surprised before turning around and quickly entering the bathroom.. "Oh jeez, I wonder if Sienna took that as a marriage proposal" Sid says looking at me a little amused but also looks a little worried.

"I hope not, that wouldn't be a good proposal for starters. I will talk to her later about it" I say now a little worried myself but I decided to continue on out down stairs and deal with it later.