Unthinkable Second Chance Mate

Chapter 14 Panic Attack

Brendon had been trying nonstop to get me to accept him as my mate. He even got me new clothes and all the books I had wanted. He even went so far as to get me art supplies to put in my room. I was still in the collar and having to sleep with the chain attached to my collar at night. Brandon was still indifferent towards me. He would talk to me and tease me, but he didn't have much of an interest in me. The twins did let me off my leash outside though, they were finally convinced I wouldn't run away.

"Hey, what's for supper?" Brendon pulled me out of my thoughts.

"I was thinking about frying some chicken and making some fries to go with it." I responded.

"That sounds really good. How long will it take for you to cook it? I'm starving." He asked again.

"It won't take too long but I will start it here in just a little bit." I said after checking the time.

"Fine, I'll wait." Brendon pouted and then he kissed the top of my head.

Brendon had been trying to be sweeter to me and had grown more affectionate even though I still wasn't allowed to call him by his name. I felt as if he wanted me to accept being his slave and not just his mate. If I was to accept being his mate and he was already using me as his slave, then it was like I was saying I would agree to be his slave for the rest of my life. I didn't want to clean up after him and his brother forever, I wanted to be able to do things I enjoyed doing too. They still teased me unmercifully every day and made it very hard for me to concentrate on anything. I had almost accepted Brendon's request a few times just so that I could finally get what they wanted to constantly deny me.

I walked to the kitchen to start preparing supper and Brendon followed quickly behind me. I didn't feel as awkward in front of them since Brendon had gotten me new clothes. My clothes weren't as revealing as the ones Brandon had picked out for me. I started working on cooking in silence. I didn't mind the quiet, it gave me time to think about everything. Brendon seemed to watch every move I made until everything was done and he helped me carry it all to the dining room. Brandon ran to the kitchen to grab all the plates and silverware as soon as he saw the chicken on the table.

Brendon pulled a chair out and gestured for me to sit down. Brandon walked in with the plates and silverware as soon as Brendon sat down. Everyone sat and ate in silence. The expressions they wore as they ate all their food was almost hysterical. They loved everything so much that they even filled their plates up again. I was full after the first plate, so I sat there and watched them eat. They acted like they were starving. Wolves typically tend to eat a lot, but they ate a lot, even for a wolf. When they finally finished their second plate of food, they leaned back in their chairs and sighed contentedly. I smiled and started to gather up all the dirty dishes.

Brandon gathered the leftovers as I was gathering the dishes and he followed me into the kitchen. Brendon put all the leftover chicken in Tupperware bowls before he put it in the fridge. As soon as all of the leftovers were all put in the bowls, he put the dirty dishes on the counter by the sink. I kept cleaning the dishes as he leaned up against the counter to watch me. He pulled his phone out and started to scroll through something I couldn't see. He didn't talk to me the entire time I was cleaning up. When I had finished cleaning up, we walked into the living room to find Brendon sitting on the couch.

"Do you two want to watch a movie with me tonight?" Brendon asked as we walked in.

"I don't, I want to go for a walk before bed. My belly got so full that I feel like if I don't walk off some of that food I may get fat." Brandon chuckled as he walked towards the door.

"I will watch something with you." I smiled and looked over to see Brandon rubbing his stomach.

"At least I will have a little company." Brendon pouted and sat down on the couch.

I laughed and sat down on the couch beside Brendon as Brandon walked out the front door. I have no idea what we watched because my mind drifted off. This was something I had grown used to, just sitting in the evenings and watching TV with Brendon, if not with both of them. I didn't always know what we watched but it was nice to get to sit down in the evenings and relax for a while. Brendon was entranced by the TV and wasn't paying attention to anything else. I let a contented sigh slip past my lips and looked back over towards Brendon.

"Are you wanting to have another conversation?" Brendon asked as he paused the movie.

"No, not right now." I smiled at him.

I looked back at the TV and waited for him to press play. He picked up the remote and pressed the button. The movie started playing again. I looked over at him out of the corner of my eye and he was watching the movie intently. My mind strayed back to the conversation we had the last time we had watched a movie together. He had asked me to consider him as my mate and I was still sure that I didn't want him to be my mate. I had fallen into comfort with him and Brandon, but I still wanted to be able to escape from them.

Brandon walked in about half way through the movie and sat down on the other side of me on the couch. Brendon had his arm around my shoulders, so Brandon quickly picked my feet up and set them in his lap. I wasn't sure what to do so I just sat there with Brendon's arm around me and Brandon holding my feet. They were both staring intently at the screen, so I continued to watch it too. I knew someone was running on the screen but I didn't know why because I wasn't paying close attention. The two of them were relaxed but I had way too much on my mind. All of a sudden, Brandon's phone went off.

"Who wants to go on a trip?" Brandon asked after he set his phone back down.

"Where to?" Brendon questioned back.

"Aunt Agatha would like us to visit. She says she wants to see Amelia and make sure she is adapting good." Brandon explained.

"Well, tell her we will come see her this weekend then. We have some business to wrap up before we can leave." Brendon was agreeing to this impromptu trip.

"I will text her after the movie. How about you, Amelia? Are you up for a last minute trip to your old pack?" Brandon asked my permission now.

I nodded slightly because I wasn't sure if I really wanted to make the trip. I didn't want to risk running into Cade while we were there. The twins would protect me, but Cade could still easily hurt me easily with his words. Fear started to engulf my heart and I started to feel myself panicking. Breathing became difficult for me and I was starting to hyperventilate. Brendon quickly pushed me up to a sitting position and crouched in front of me. I squeezed my eyes shut and I felt my nails start digging into my legs. Brandon quickly started to rub my back and Brendon grabbed my hands.

The two of them sat there with me and tried to coax me back into a regulated breathing pattern. Brandon made me open my eyes and look at him as he was walking me through some breathing exercises. Brandon was still rubbing small circles on my back and eventually my breathing evened out. Tears filled my eyes and my body started to tremble. I had never experienced a panic attack before and I wasn't sure what to do. Both of the twins wrapped their arms around me and let me cry for a while. By the time I got done crying I felt so drained that I wanted to go straight to bed. The twins helped me up the stairs and into bed. It was the first night I got to sleep chain free.