Beautiful Confession (Vol II)

Chapter Eighteen

Zara slowly opened the door and came out from her room then started walking. It had been a few days since that incident and they had not talk to each other since then. He was giving her silence treatment which was getting little annoying for Zara. She stopped in front of  huge door and sighed. Then gaining courage in herself she moved her hand and knocked on it. Then she opened the door and slowly entered inside the room. Vincent looked up towards her from the file which he was reading while sitting on his study table which was located at a side of his room. She looked at him then slowly walked towards him. She stopped in front of him while he looked away back towards the file with blank face. She fiddles with her fingers while looking at him and they stayed still on their place in the silence.

'What do you want Zara?' Vincent asked while breaking the silence and first time they looked up towards each other.

'I was thinking to start working from home.' Zara said and Vincent closed away the file

'Why?' Vincent  asked .

'I don't know. I am just suddenly really annoyed and don't want to work anymore. The reason I start working was to forget the past......' Zara was saying but she stopped while biting down on her tongue whereas that got Vincent attention. He stayed still while waited for her to continued

'I am just bored of it. I don't want to work. So I will try to work from home if I could.' Zara said while changing the topic whereas Vincent disappointed sighed for her changing the topic.

'Okay. That is fine with me. I will find your replacement soon.' Vincent said while opening back the file and she looked towards him

'You mean you will hire someone else on my place.' Zara said and he looked up towards him.

'Yeah....we called that Replacement.' Vincent said like a something really simple whereas she was seriously looking at him.

'No....you can't replace me in your life. So don't use the word replacement.' Zara said whereas Vincent looked at her then closed the file in his hand. Throw it with a bang on a table and stood up.

'I can replace you in my life. Why you think I can't?' Vincent asked coldly while looking at her and she sighed

'I know you can but I don't want you to.' Zara said and Vincent looked at her then looked away

'If you are done you can go.' Vincent said while turning over when she spoke up

'Are still upset over what happen few days back? For God Sake Vincent it was just a kiss.' Zara screamed getting annoyed because she was sick and annoyed from his silence treatment.

'Kiss was not a problem Zara but your behaviour is.' Vincent screamed while turning over towards her and she jumped over her place while he was glaring at her.

'One second you are fine and nothing is wrong between us but then not second you act like we are strangers. I don't get it what is it that you want.' Vincent screamed

'Nothing is wrong with my behaviour. All I want you is to stick with your contact....stick with your promise.' Zara screamed back while they both were looking dead in each other eyes.

'Okay, Fine if that is your choice then you will get it. I won't ever will try to make our marriage work again.' Vincent said while trying away to other side while Zara also sighed

'You can go now.' Vincent said after few seconds and she nodded her head then without a word turned over to walk out when Vincent spoke up.

'I am going on a business trip. Be ready you are going with me.' Vincent asked while stopping her and they both looked back at each other.

'I marry you to give you protection. So I will do just that now. Be ready.' Vincent said blankly then turned over and sat down on his chair back whereas Zara stared at him intensely.

'You no need to be so harsh with me.' Zara commented while looking at him but he stayed quite again looking towards the file. Here you go he was back to his silent treatment. Zara frustrated sighed then walked and stopped next to him.

'Are you giving me silent treatment again?' Zara asked while getting annoyed but he stayed still completely ignoring her. She annoyed sighed while looking at him.

'Give me one reason why you want this marriage Vincent? Just one valid reason?' Zara asked next annoyed.

'Because I like you.' He gave answered next second then slowly looked up towards her who felt her heart has dropped in her stomach while she was dumbfounded looking at him She never excepted this clear answer from him. She was shocked looking at him when he stood back up.

'Is I am not allow? Why you are so shocked?' Vincent asked next and she came back in her senses 

'Then stop liking me.' Zara said simply while her heart was beating rapidly inside her chest. After saying that she turned over to walk when he spoke up.

'Why?' Vincent asked and she slowly turned over looking towards him.

'Because....it will just cause you pain.' Zara said while looking dead in his eyes

'So? It will be my one sided love...nothing to do with you, right?' Vincent said next and she was just looking at him. Her heart was pounded so loudly inside her. She wanted to say something but nothing came out from her mouth.

'Say something.' Vincent said when he saw her standing all quite so she slowly spoke up.

'But....still remember....we are friends so I don't want you to suffer.' Zara said and he took few store towards him while closing the distance between them. They were only few inches away from each other while her eyes widen with shock and she suddenly started feeling nervous from their closeness.

'Then stop worrying about me.' Vincent said coldly while looking at her then he was about to turn when she spoke up.

'You just stop your feeling for me. I don't care just stop your feeling to develop for me.' Zara said more like a order and he looked towards her. At a same moment the window of his room was open the fast wind passed causing the curtain to move and causing a loud sound in a room. A sound echo in the room and on the sudden sound Zara got startled and lose her balance. He quickly moved putting hand around her waist while stopping her from falling down and she looked up towards him.

'You don't want the marriage, you choice. You don't want me or accept me then your choice but who I will like, who I will love it's all my choice. That is my right and no body can take it away from me not even you.' Vincent said and her eyes widen with shock while he moved away his hand from her waist and turned away.

'Just go Zara.' Vincent said and she came back in her senses

'You are just talking Vincent because you knew nothing. You are save because you don't know the truth of my life.' Zara said heartbroken and turned over when he turned over while holding her hand and pulled her toward him.

'Then I want to be in risk but I want to know your truth. Tell me....I don't want to stay save.' Vincent said while looking dead in her eyes and she quickly shook her head

'No....you will regret saying that. Whatever happen with me I don't blame myself. You are nice man Vincent but even if you will accept me you will get tired while waiting for my wound and scars to heal because they are too many and too deep.' Zara said while tears started forming in her eyes while he still was holding her hand

'I will not wait for your wound to heal but I will heal them myself...I will heal your wound just tell me everything....just tell me what happen to you. Just tell me your and that man relation?' Vincent asked more like pleaded helplessly while she stared at him. Then their was dead silence between them.

'I was his mistress.' Zara said while breaking the silence and when her words reaches to his ear they hit hard over him. Slowly his grip over her hand loses while he was shocked looking at her. He felt the whole world had stopped around them. He took few steps away from her while rapidly shook his head and she was just looking at him.

'I was young that time and it happen.....' Zara started saying but he cut her off

'Stop it.' Vincent said in unbelievable tone

'Why? You said you want to know the truth. I am telling you. You said not to hide from you.' Zara said while looking at him

'I don't believe it.' Vincent said whereas she sarcastically smiled

'Nothing will change if you say that. Truth is always truth....Now tell me do you still like me? Are you still ready to accept me as your wife. Are you brave enough to give statute of someone's mistress to be your wife?' Zara asked while looking dead in his eyes whereas Vincent quickly put hand over his ears

'Stop it.' Vincent screamed while turning away from her whereas she sighed while controlling her tears.

'There is still more.' Zara said

'Just go away from here.' Vincent said broken while not looking towards her

'I was madly in love with him even with a huge age difference. He was my father's friend. Married to someone. I broke their home and we secretly started our relation. I am shameless home wrecker. Do you still will accept me?' Zara said and he turned over towards her

'Stop it. You are lying.' Vincent screamed with red eyes while she blankly stared at him.

'I was in physically relationship with him? Do you still except me?' Zara asked next while looking at him.

'Shut up.....Just shut up.' Vincent screamed angrily while throwing kick the chair making it falling down on the ground angrily whereas she stayed still.

'I still can not forget him. I might in future will cheat on you with him? I might will have extra marital affair with him? Do you still accept me?' Zara asked next totally ignoring his anger and pain whereas he slowly turned over towards her.

'You are harsh....really really harsh.' Vincent whispered said while hurtfully looking at her.

'I know. But that's a reality. I am not a good person anyway.' Zara said with expressionless face

'Get lost...Get out from here.' Vincent screamed next and she stayed still when he angrily got hold of her hand then walked pushed her out. He was about to closed the door when she put hand on the door while stopping him. He looked up towards her

'Do you still don't hate me? Do you still want this marriage with me?' Zara asked and he glared at her then pushed her away and closed the door. Zara sighed while looking at closed door then she heard the sound of things falling from inside. She knew he was hurt and angry. She sighed then turned over and walked towards her room. She opened the door while entering inside then straight went into the restroom. She stopped under the shower then turned it on while wet herself still wearing her clothes. She put hand over the wall while painfully clenched her fist and angrily glaring at the wall.

'I was his mistress.' Her own words rang in her head while she increase the pressure of water standing still under cold water

I was madly in love with him even with a huge age difference.' Her others words rang in her head while she closed her eyes. Then she moved and leaned her head on the wall and her while tears stared mixing up in the water.

'I was in physically relationship with him.' Her words rang again in her head when she frustrated screamed while started hitting her fists angrily and hardly on the wall.

'Disgusting....Disgusting....Disgusting.....' Zara screamed repeatedly while tears were flowing from her eyes

'I hate him more then nothing in this world. I am disgusted on myself for even fake describing my relation with him like this......Darn....Damn......' Zara screamed frustrated then slowly slide down on the ground while leaning on a wall. The shower was still on and her whole body was wet with the water and it was cold like a ice but right not her body was her last concern. She helplessly sat on a floor while crying.

'Less painful lie is better then extreme painful truth. It will be better if you will start hating me Vincent because my truth is way bigger then your imagination. Just hate me Vincent.... just hate me.... because I won't let you be in pain because of me. That incident cause pain in so many people's live many years ago I can't add one more in it.' Zara said broken then moved her legs up to her chest and put her head over her knees and kept crying.

'Just hate me Vincent....please just hate me because I can't see the man I am in love to be in pain.' Zara confessed first time with shaky tongue then leaned back her head over the wall. 'That damn kiss was cause of everything. It changes everything. The minute his lips contacted with her she knew she was falling in deep trouble. The minute he started kissing her she knew she never wanted him to stop. The minute they closed their eyes she knew she never wanted to open them back. The minute he finished kissing her she knew she wanted it again. And the minute after kissing she looked into his eyes she knew she was in love with him.' She confessed and she closed her eyes as she leaned back while a painful smile spread across her face. 

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