In Between Glances

Paano kapag nakita mo iyong organic crush mo? I was so mesmerize at this moment because night before I sleep. Nagsulat ako ng letter sa kaniya. I have this notebook na ginawa ko siyang diary kung saan sinusulat ko iyong mga thoughts and feelings ko about him. Lalo na kapag na m-miss ko siya. And then now makikita ko siya dito sa loob ng University. Damn. I was walking by the Aviation building with my classmates because our department head asked us to borrow extra chairs for an event tomorrow. At first, I thought I was hallucinating when I saw Haris, he was a classmate of mine in high school, and I developed a crush on him in college, although I hadn't seen him since. It took me a while to realize it was really him. I stared at him for a bit before it sink in to me. Nagtama ang mga mata naming dalawa kaya agad akong nag-iwas ng tingin. Kumunot ang noo niya habang tinignan ako. Sa huli naramdaman ko na nakilala niya ako, kaya lang his hesitant kung ako ba iyon or hindi. Mabilis akong naglakad at sumunod sa mga na unang kung kaklase. Nag-init ang aking mukha bigla. Gusto ko siyang titigan ng matagal pero hindi ko kaya nanghihina ako. After two f*****g years makikita ko ulit siya. Kung kailan feeling ko hindi ako presentable tignan. Halos tatlong araw na kaming walang maayos na tulog tanging kape lamang ang bumubuhay sa amin. "Are you okay Giy?" tanong sakin ng kaibigan kong si Nica " Yes, I'm fine " tipid kung sagot saka nagpunas ng noo dahil sa namumuong pawis. Ibang klase ang effect ng isang Haris sakin Binalingan ko ulit ang gawi ni Haris. s**t, nakatitig pa siya sa akin. "Are you sure that you are fine? because for me your not. Ang pula ng mukha mo" Bumalik lang ako sa wisyo ng nagsalita ulit si Nica. "I'm really okay promise" I pulled her towards the room where the available chairs were. I was afraid that she might notice I was staring at Haris, I didn't want Nica to say something and cause an issue. As she tends to notice even the smallest things and give them a wrong assumetion. Not to mention, she's also quite sharp tongued. Pagdating sa storage room agad akong kumuha ng upuan. Inabot ko ito sa kaniya. Limang bangko ang kinuha ko dahil hindi naman siya kabigatan. Monoblock lang kasi ito. While Nica, napakamot nalang ako sa ulo. Isa lang kinuha panay nagreklamo pa. "Ayaw ko na I'm tried already" I ignored what she said because I'm still nervous until now." "Shitt... dadaan na naman ako doon" bulong ko sa sarili. Nang marealized ko. "Huh? Anong sabi mo Giy hindi ko narinig mahina" Aniya at lumapit sa akin "Sabi ko may short cut ba dito iyong diretso sa hall?" "I'm sorry to say this but walang cut patungo sa hall and ang tamad mo naman" aniya "Ayy wow" saad ko at iniwan na siya She rolled her eyes on me. Coming from her na kanina pa nagreklamo. Dahil sanay na ako sa kaibigan hinayaan ko nalang siya. Inirapan niya ulit ako pagkatapos ko siyang tawanan. Maarteng niya kinuha ang kaniyang panyo sa bulsa para punasan ang kamay. " Arte talaga. Mabuti nalang mayaman" bulong ko na siguradong hindi niya maririnig "Giy, my hands is dirty na it's so maalikabok here" "What do you expect. Simpre storage room 'to" I let her complain. I didn't have any choice but to accept his drama. I joined my classmates who were gather together. I planned to hide behind them when they passed by Haris group. Haris, was still sitting where I saw him earlier. Was the mango tree their favorite spot? It did look like a comfortable hangout spot, with the tree blocking the sunlight. But why were there more people now? There were girls in the same uniform sitting with them, and they were all really beautiful. Even though I was taken a back by their beauty, my eyes couldn't help but notice one girl wrapping her arms around Haris arm. The two of them locked eyes, and based on their gaze, it seemed like there was something between them." May relasyon kaya sila? Ang kaninang kaba at excitement ko ay napalitan ng bitterness. Kahit pala dito may kalandian siya or mas malala dito. Basta wag ka lang magseryoso Haris hintayin mo ko. Ngayon bumaba na ang kaninang enerhiya ko wala na akong pakialam kung makita niya ako or hindi basta nilagpasan ko na lang sila. Nalunod na ako ng lungkot buong araw. "After I got to the dorm, I showered and cooked dinner. As I ate, I couldn't help but think about what I saw earlier. I was thrilled to have finally seen him, but that feeling was short lived. Seeing him with someone else really brought me down, and it hurt to realize I was nothing to him." "Anong laban ko don ang ganda, matangkad, mukhang matalino higit sa lahat same course sila. Tiyak magkakasundo sila" tinusok tusok ko ang beef loaf na ulam, doon binuhos ang sama ng loob sa nakita ko ngayon araw Binalingan ko ang pagkain ko " Sana hindi masarap ulam nilang dalawa" I said it in a bitter way.