My Celebrity Boyfriend

Gulf's POV. Semestral break is a pain for me. I had nothing to do and was too tired to do anything. I'm torn, a retard and lazy, I know it. I mostly spend the entire day scrolling through f*******:, Twitter, IG, YouTube and t****k but sometimes I do online shopping too, since it's not a hobby of mine to go out just to buy stuff that I can easily order and have it delivered to me. Yes, that's my everyday life, a boring life. I rarely go out, and I don't socialize that much with other people. I can't tolerate their shits and I have a lot going on in me. I don't like someone invading my personal space and privacy, and I'm not comfortable meeting new people either. In short, I am an introvert, but it's a work in progress. I work in the BPO industry meaning, I get to talk to a lot of customers or people over the phone. Yup, I'm an introvert, but I'm really doing well with my work and this is the best practice for me to communicate with other people, relay my thoughts and insights as well as share my opinion. I might as well add that I can freely express myself without caring about another person's reaction. Though I can clearly hear and picture out what they feel or their emotions, I don't give a damn. As I lay down in my bed scrolling through IG, I viewed the story of every artist that I follow, then immediately leave comments on their status that was just posted. I sighed and smiled to myself, even though it wasn't that much, I get to interact with them and even though they don't reply, but the thought that they may have read my comments or messages already means a lot to me and it makes me happy. I immediately go to the search section and tap on Mew's name. He is on my top search, which is expected, since that is what I always do. I have a huge crush on this idol and been crushing on him for more than a year now. I saw his newly posted picture, he is so hot, I couldn't help myself but to leave a comment "You're so handsome phi. I want to meet you soonest", I typed then I hit 'enter' to make sure my comment posted. I smiled to myself creating scenarios that would never ever gonna happen and making delusions. I'm hopeless, I know. I live here in the Philippines, and he is in Thailand. He doesn't even know I exist, but it's fine. I thought that my emotions were numb and I wouldn't be able to fall for someone else's until I saw him. I got a huge crush on him right away, like who wouldn't? That huge and big build of his, those strong looking veiny hands and his beautiful standing, he is really the definition of Adonis. *Ding* notification sound and it's from IG. I hurriedly and checked to know what it is. "'Mew Suppasit' has requested to follow you." I almost jumped when I saw the notification. I tried rubbing my eyes as I might just be hallucinating but I am not. I immediately checked if he also followed other fans, yes he does but he only followed few of them. Like why? How? As far as I know if you want to follow someone on IG it's either their profile shows on the suggested persons or you go to their profile and take note! My account is private so if you follow me you have to actually send a request. Like really, why? Am I just imagining things? I accepted the request without hesitation. Once done, I visited my own profile and checked the people who followed me and tadaaa~ he is one of them. I am so happy, I feel so excited, he is the first celebrity who followed me on social media! And who would've thought that it'll be my crush? I can't stop myself from giggling and grinning. Mew you're making me crazy. He doesn't update or post pictures everyday to his timeline but he updates his IG stories, always and once they're up, I always watch them without a fail. "You're so cute P, fighting! Will support you always" I replied to one of his stories. No reply, not even sure if he sees it, but well, I'm used to it. He has a lot of fans that for sure that messages him every time and I am just one of those fans. Most of his fans are girls and pretty ones, those who are sophisticated-looking ones. Everyday, whenever I see his stories or whenever he upload pictures I either leave a comment or reply to it. I am shameless, I know but who cares right? I love the man! *Months, weeks and days passed* My life is pretty much the same. No change. *Ding* I got notification again on IG, someone replied to my DMs "Thank you". My heart almost dropped, yes I know that it's just 'thank you' but if someone popular replied to your messages, won't you feel so happy? If your crush replied to you, what would you feel? The chance that he will reply to my messages is close to zero but here he is replying to my message. I'm screaming and if you won't, then I don't know. "No problem P, How are you? Are you tired P? Get some rest" I replied to him. I'm acting so composed but in reality I. AM. NOT. I am so happy, really. I stare at it for a while and close the App, I know he won't reply again. *ding* "Tired but I'm fine, thank you" while reading this my heart just dropped, it literally did. Does he normally reply to his fans like this? Oh dear! "I see, get some rest P. Su su na khub ?" I replied. Okay, I'm acting and trying not be excited at all but you don't know what I feel. The butterflies in my stomach are getting wild. He just 'liked' the reply I sent. It doesn't matter since he replied to my DMs so I'm all good and happy. I was so happy that night, I imagined things that are impossible and I didn't noticed the time and it's already morning.