Maybe This Time

Chapter 9

"you're here again" said Phukan,

"to help you" Cirrus

"well, I don't need your help, anyways have you signed the divorce papers?" asked Phukan

"Phu look, I know I wasn't a good husband to you before, but I'm here now, because, because I want to make it up for you, I won't sign those papers, let's make things out Phu, I promise I'll be a better husband to you, I will do everything just for you, I won't hurt you again, I won't let you be in pain again, just, just let me love you, please don't break up with me" Cirrus begged

"why? why are you doing this Cirrus?" Phukan asked

"Phu, you see, I know it's too late for me to realize this but I think I like you, no, I love you so much, and I don't want to lose you, so please, please let's fix this, give me a second chance and I'll make everything right" Cirrus begged

"I know I was wrong, I did a lot of wrong to you before and I know the word forgiveness is not enough to make up for everything but I'm here to fix it, so please, let me love you, let's fix this" Cirrus added, as tears slowly fell from his eyes,

Phukan couldn't believe what he was seeing, Cirrus was crying in front of him and that was the first time he had seen him cry in front of him, but Phukan wouldn't give in, because of the pain Cirrus had given him before.

"I don't know if I should believe you Cirrus, after what you did to me before" Phukan said

"I know I hurt you and it's my fault, I admit I didn't treat you right but now I'm ready to change everything, I won't let you go to someone else, I'm scared, I'm scared that I might lose you completely" Cirrus said

"Tell me, yesterday, did you see me with Achi?" Phukan asked

"huh?"

"you're not afraid of losing me Cirrus, because if you were really afraid of losing me you would have treated me right then, you knew this would happen, that's why I don't believe you're afraid of losing me, do you know what you're afraid of? in reality, you're afraid of accepting that the person you thought would stay by your side will leave you, you're afraid of accepting that you haven't been a good husband, you don't want to blame yourself because you know you'll get hurt, you're just afraid of being outdone Cirrus, you really don't want to lose, that's the truth" after Phukan said that he left Cirrus

Cirrus had nothing to do but just let Phukan go, Cirrus also admitted that the pain he had given Phukan before was too much so he couldn't blame him for why he was treating him like this now,

Cirrus was now walking in the void, thinking about the past, blaming himself if he had only loved Phukan, this wouldn't have happened, now he just had to think about losing him was completely in pain, and he knew that it would happen soon, after what he had seen yesterday, it was not unlikely that the young man would not leave him.

Flashback....

Yesterday, Cirrus went to the hotel where Phukan was staying when he saw Phukan and Achi together, the two of them were so happy while chatting outside the hotel, so Cirrus did nothing else all day except follow the two of them,

Achi and Phukan went to a park, to take a walk, to walk, and Cirrus saw how happy Phukan was those days, and that's when he realized that he had never seen Phukan so happy,

Cirrus realized that he had never done anything to make Phukan happy while Achi was the one who made Phukan happy, Phukan and Achi were just happily teasing each other in the park while Cirrus watched them both from a corner, after they walked in the park, the two went to the mall to watch a movie, and Cirrus felt annoyed and angry again, because even small details about his husband he had no idea, his last favorite Cirrus doesn't know about Phukan's show, but Achi knows everything about Phukan, he knows what can make Phukan happy, something Cirrus has never done.

End of Flashback....

Achi is kinder, loving and caring, he has always seen how Achi takes care of Phukan, and when they stay together Cirrus knows that Achi will never hurt Phukan.

'But I won't let it, I should be, I should be the one by your side, I should be the one who makes you happy Phukan, it should be just me and no one else'

'I know he can do it better but I will do everything, just forgive me'

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