THE MISTRESS ?

Dominant

**Selena's pov**

I look at my clock and realize that it is 11pm. I can't believe that it is already night time. I am seated on the floor drinking wine and drowning in my misery.

I wonder to myself what exactly is wrong with me. All of the horrible words Evan said to me keeps on coming to my mind.

But what stuck to my mind was that he called me a" demanding and controlling bitch." He isn't the first guy that would label me a controlling person.

All of my former relationships failed because of this same reason. They keep on saying that I am a woman and should learn my place in a relationship.

I don't feel that there is anything bad in those sort of relationships but I am different. I want to be in charge and would love a guy to submit to my wishes but it seems like God has a different plan for me.

I remember so many times that I and Evan fought simply because we both wanted to be in control. Now that I think of it,it isn't his fault that our relationship didn't work out.We are not meant for each other.

I never really loved Evan. I just loved and desired the idea of marriage. I wanted a man I could spoil with love but I guess that is impossible.

I stand up and walk to the table. I open my laptop and decide to search on Google "Why do I love controlling my partners in a relationship."

To my surprise,an answer popped up. It said that it is one of the main characteristics of a dominant person . As a female,I am a dominant woman. A dominant woman loves to take control of the relationship. In such relationship,there would be a submissive man who consents to it.

I am completely blown away by this. Now it finally clicks in my mind that what I need is a submissive man.

All these years,I have always chased after successful and strong headed men who are well known dominants in every aspect of their life. How could I really have expected such relationships to work. It is going to be hard for a relationship involving two dominants to work out.

I start reading more on dominants and submissive. I am more and more shocked by what I discover. It makes me wonder how I never heard anyone talk about things like this.

All of the relationships I see,it is usually the man who is in charge or they share the responsibilities. I am able to understand better that my dad is a dominant man while my mom is a submissive woman. My dad is a successful owner of his own furniture company while my mom has always been an housewife.

Growing up,I have always wondered why my mom would always do everything to please my dad and why it usually gives her so much happiness. I and my father are always at loggerheads with each other despite the fact that I am his only child.

I am so engrossed by all the discoveries I am making that I don't notice that hours have passed. My alarm clock rings at 5:30 am and brings me back to reality.

It seems like I have read enough for today. I sigh as I close my laptop and go to the shower to have my bath. I have a long day ahead.