Invisible

      The nights air is soothing against my rugged skin I risk a pause in my guided walk to take a deep breath in as I lift my face to the sky. The last remaining rays of the sun hit my face in its doomed promise of lasting comfort. I’m suddenly jolted forward as I feel my wrist burn against the solid silver shackles. The guards voice invades my ears with disgust “move b***h”. “Aw you think your words effect me” as my thought passes my lips slide to an uncontrollable smile as my eyes change from their normal shade to it’s primal shade. I scream “STOP IT” in my head “why can’t you just leave me alone?” I began sobbing in my mind as I feel a single tear slide down my cheek. Her voice takes a genuine affectionate side as her attention turns to me.  “I never meant to harm you nor to abandon you for we are one”  I shot back with such pain “it’s your fault all your fault and now there will be nothing for us.” “I never wanted this and I never want anything to do with you again!” I hear her whimper as I feel her pain from I’ve just said then she dose something I never would have expected. “This will be the last thing I do for us then you’ll never have to worry again.” Before I get the chance to question her a deep thundering voice shook me from my conversation. My head snaps up to see him standing at the border of the forest with guards standing nearby him. My blood runs cold as my body begins to Trimble at his gaze.  My feet plant theirselves on the sharp rocks beneath my bare feet refusing to budge any further. His gaze narrows from my actions. His voice is deep and raspy “Come” damn my body for it’s traitorous ways. I longed for many things but no more greater than to escape from this monster. “Would you really defy your father?” His question shattered me because I already knew that he saw you the answer within my broken self. Minutes pass without a reply from me and I can since his anger surfacing. Without turning his head he bellows his demands to his guards “TAKE HER TO THE DUNGEONS!”  At that moment something snapped within me and I lost what control I had left as thought the tiniest string was what was keeping it intact is no longer existent. She takes complete control over me screaming no breaking free from the solid silver shackles wrapped around my wrists. “No more shall I be your slave, no more shall I be invisible as though I am nothing.” “I Rose Will no longer bow to you” my fathers grin turns evil as his beast emerges. I hadn’t realized the guard that was holding onto my chains has steeped away with shock and horror plastered across his face stepping away ever so slowly in attempt to not gain my attention. “Is that a challenge?” My eyes are still fixed on my father as my words flow out with pride  “I Rose reject you Michael as my alpha” for the first time in my life I saw fear stricken his feathers he roars with rage and pain “NNNNNOOOOOOOO WHAT HAVE YOU DONE” I step back alien to his new found emotions. His face immediately shoots to the sky as the moon has almost hit its peek in the sky. “Rose..... ROSE...... what have we done!” I feel myself taking back control of my body as another tear slides down my cheek. “If we are to be a prisoner then let us be on free from him in our own hell.” Wait what my voice comes out as a horse whisperer. My father stands but mere inches from me and he envelopes me in a hug “oh my child have I been so cruel to you all these years for you to seek this?” I can’t contain my sobs any longer his embrace tightens around my once healthy body reduced to a frail frame. “Don’t give up my child. If you refuse me as you’re alpha then promise me to fight for your humanity in not for me then for your mother?” Why would I be fighting for my humanity father?  He pulls away to reveal his tear stricken face to me. “Your a prisoner to the moon until you’ve joined another pack and can become lost within your wolf til the day you die.” I stumble away from my father to fall backwards onto the rocks as his words sink in. “No this can’t be Rose what have you done to us” “promise me?” My face lifts to his as I answer him honestly I can’t because I have nothing left to live for. My father falls to his knees defeated by his own demons from his past.  I brake the long agonizing silence.  You and your men should leave before it’s too late. He shackles his head vigorously no before speaking “I will not leave you never again my child and I will search the far conners of the earth to get you back.” We lay our forehands together. I forgive you father. I couldn’t focus on any one thing after I said that.  The pull of the moon was becoming overwhelming I scooted further back away from my father in fear of harming him. Rose began snarling and snapping in my head as I could feel her becoming more and more to the surface to take control. My body is shacking as I fight with all my might to prevent us going feral. I scream out as pain shoots through my body. I curl up in a ball as more pain hits me in my stomach. I can’t think of anything coherently but what I did know was this was like the first change and God knows I wish to never have to go through that again but life has a funny way of saying surprise doesn’t it? I can feel my bones begin braking and joints popping as well as muscles stretching.  I force myself to my knees and hands as the shift becomes prominent. My tattered dingy dress for the first time in forever is filled with my growing body. My screams change to animalistic groans and growls. My dress tears with each passing second my fingers stretch then shrink forming a paw I can also feel my feet and legs as they change them a tail sprouting from behind. My jaw pops as I feel the bones brake then get longer as my snot stretches and my teeth lengthen to a point then my ears grow pointing to the sky. The last thing I remember was my blonde fur growing as the change came to an end then I blacked out as Rose took complete control. A distant voice calls to me “Leigh.....Are you there?” I know this voice but how and why is this voice laced with concern?  “Leigh I can’t lose you fight I don’t care if you take control but don’t give up this can’t be the end for us.” Take control what why would I do that when it’s so peaceful where i am now. “LEIGH NOO DONT YOUR GONNA DIE IF YOU DONT FIGHT!” I hear a animal Yelp as pain registers in my mind. Why do I feel pain? I start to panic afraid of why I’m feeling pain yet not knowing where it’s coming from. It’s like I’m consumed in utter darkness with no light to guide my way. I hear a whimper as more pain is coursing through me and that’s when all of my memories crash down upon me being shackled, my father, and going rogue. “Yes Leigh that’s right open your eyes because I need you now take control.” I force myself to take control as a menacing growl escapes shacking my head I take in my surroundings. My eyes change back from sky blue to hazel. I winch feeling a burning sensation around my neck and round my ankles. I’m chained to trees and my once shinny blond fur is now dirty and matted. There is large stones around me as fear creeps up upon me realizing I know this place and what kind of place this is. I try to naw at one of the shackles around my ankles only to irritate the already raw flesh. I begin to move frantically regardless of the pain I’m self inflicting because if I don’t get away soon then there’ll be no more anything for me. This place is where feral rogues are as you’d say put down. My body freezes on hearing a conversation “it’s truly a pity she must be put down I mean she would have became a fantastic alpha or even mate” one man states. “I know it would of even been fine if her mate could have saved her” the second man says then the first man responds “apparently she never found her mate and her father has spent so long fighting to keep her safe that others took advantage of it and assassinated him” tears fell uncontrollably.  No he’s not gone he can’t be gone this isn’t right.... father I’ll fight for you and mother til my last breath. “No Leigh til our last breath” yes our..........now let us get out of here shall we? I could feel Rose agreeing with me I shook the stones as I jerked against the chains which anchored themselves to the circular ground around me. The two men raced towards me with shock as to the unrelenting force I displayed. “Hurry call the others!” I release a heart braking howl to morn for my loss. Stones standing around us crumble with each forceful jolt against the chains until one finally snaps.  “YES LEIAH KEEP GOING!” One down four to go. With my front right leg free it gave me more room to work with. “she’s getting free call Alex now!” Oh s**t not him. “Then get us out of here Leigh” “you don’t have to tell me twice Rose” with adrenaline coursing through my veins another chain snaps. Rear left now my front left, rear right and neck.  With another jerk goes the front left. “She’s almost free!!!! Where’s the wolfsbane?” Like hell your gonna use that on us. With another forceful jerk the back right chain gives. I can hear the ponding of multiple feet rushing towards me and with everything I’ve got I charge forward to hear the chain braking from a stone. Without hesitation I sore over one of the two me talking from earlier and race further away from my death. I keep running refusing to slow in fear of my immediate doom behind me as I zoom through the forest leaping over any fallen trees. “Leigh you can stop running now we’ve lost them” “Leigh! It’s night now and we lost them over a state ago” must keep running can’t risk it was all that ran through my mind as I neared a river with a log laying in my path so I leap over it. As I’m in the air part of the chain connecting to the shackle around my neck catches onto the log causing me to get pulled back to the ground landing in apart of the rivers shallow stream. I turn to my side panting finally giving myself a chance to breathe then drink some water. I struggle to get the chain free huffing my irritation and plop down to rest a little. “Maybe after some well needed rest we can get free right Rose?” “I think so Leigh” I lay my head on my crossed front paws drifting to sleep. I wake to hearing a click jumping up searching for the reason of the sound stopping on a human man aiming a rifle at me. I step back not wanting to give the man a reason to fire. The chain keeping me from retreating any further releasing whimpers tugging against the chain wanting to get away safely.  The man slowly lowers his rifle seeing the chains and shackles with a soothing and calming tone he props the rifle against the log and raises a hand midway to his body in front of him. “Alrighty I’m just gonna get those off of ya you hear?” I lower myself down laying there to show no threat to him. “I’ll be you can understand me can’t ya?” “Now what’s a pretty thing like ya doing out here with these on ya?” I whimper knowing I have no one left, knowing I am invisible to my people. The man kneels beside me and eases his hand to my snot.  “Imma touch you now so I can get these here off okay?” I nudge his hand with my head anxiously waiting to be free of these bonds. For the next couple of hours he works on the shackles. Once I’m free I can feel my body healing slowly since it was caused by silver. I lick the man grateful for his generosity and kindness. I raise up to my paws sniffing the air smelling Venice my moth waters. “Ya be safe now on”  before he has a chance to leave I chase down a large buck and drag it back to him. “Well be looks like I found be a sweet thing, thank ya pretty lady” I blush hearing him call me pretty no one has ever called me pretty or even looked my way. I leave him to search for my own meal. “Rose? Are you there?” “I’m here” “how am I in control?”  “Because the full moon has past” “do that mean we can change form?” “I’m afraid not Leigh at least not until we join another pack” “oh......Rose” “yes Leigh?” “I know father wasn’t all that good to us but I....I miss him and mother too”  “I know Leigh and I do too they were our parents no matter what” “thank you Rose” “your welcome Leigh” the sky was turning dark with gray and black clouds and since a bad storm approaching fast I picked up my pace to a light jog in search for a cave to carry our meal to. As rain begins its downpour I stumble across a cave and cautiously ease into it making sure there’s no residents to disturb which thankfully isn’t. I carry my deer to the center of the cave to enjoy. After my meal I plop down listening to the storm quickly drifting off to sleep. I wake up refreshed from a long night sleep and stretch my limbs as I get ready to leave when the most unusual thing occurred. Men rush to the entrance of the cave and I can smell that they’re not human. Rose surfaces enough for a warning growl. I snap and snarl at the unwanted intruders. A man from the back walks to the line of men blocking me an two of the me form the line step aside for him to pass. The closer he gets the more I can feel a authoritative power radiate off him. His voice reminds me of my fathers deep raspy one. “I’m Alex, and you must be the unforeseen problem” he stops at the entrance of the cave “don’t Conner her or she’ll attack” he orders his men “but sir aren’t we supposed.......” Alex cuts off one of his men “DONT QUESTION ME AND DO AS I SAY!” All of his me flinch and I tilt my head to the side wondering why his command didn’t effect me in any way. “So you’ve got alpha blood running in your veins don’t you?” I node my head enough to answer yes. “And it seems your humanity is still intact as well yet I’ve Never met a wolf let alone an alpha to keep their humanity intact past three days so tell me little lady how is it you’ve lasted months?”  “M m...months?” I step back with shock plastered across my face unsure if I actually heard Alex correctly. “You didn’t know did you little wolf?” Curiosity lacing his voice. I answer shacking my head no. I can see the wheels turning as Alex thinks “leave us and stand guard outside until I call” fear starts to creeps it’s ugly head “but sir...” “NOW!” Alex men cower backwards out of the entrance obeying his command. Alex steps closer to me “it’s just use and I’d like to talk to you if your ok with that?” My eyes go between Alex and the entrance of the cave until I finally relent laying down showing him I’ll talk. Pleased with my reaction he walks up to me then sits in front of me. “You’ll be able to respond in anyway once I touch you” I tilt my head to the side because I’ve never heard of a werewolf having this ability. “The moon goddess blessed me when I was appointed my position” “ok here goes” after saying that Alex places his hand on my head and we close our eyes. “What is your name little wolf?” “Ok you’ve got to stop with the little wolf I’m not little and my name is Leigh my wolf is Rose”  “Leigh.... and Rose what beautiful names” I blush for he’s the second man in my life to complement me. Rose: oh shut up he complimented us not just you. Leigh: true “what happened to you Leigh?” I lower my face a little not wanting to answer his question but if I wish to live I guess I have no choice. “Its easier to show you” I say with sorrow then open my mind up further to allow him to see my memories. Mommy mommy let’s go I wanna play please mommy? Oh my dearest Leigh calm your sweet soul we shall play but it must be near the pack house. YEAY let’s go mommy I say pulling on my mothers sleeve guiding her out the pack house. Ruth where are you and Leigh going my father questions stepping out the door closer to us. I’m taking Leigh to play we will not be far don’t worry Seth my mother says in such a soothing tone. My father embraces mother and says I always worry Ruth just stay inside the boundaries. Daddy why can’t you play with us?  I ask my father releases my mother then kneels to grab me and lifts me into the air ah there’s my little flower and look at how your blooming. I can’t help but giggle. Now Leigh I’ll play with you once you return with your mother and don’t forget to listen to your mother ok little flower? Ok daddy and we hug. Father then place me back on the ground before leaving us he kisses mother. Me and mother head to our spot to play. We play for some time in our little garden enjoying ourselves. It’s close to dawn when we freeze from hearing a fierce growl Leigh slowly come to mommy baby.  Trembling with tears streaming down my checks I slowly advance towards my mother and just as I’m within her reach I am torn away by a massive body slamming against mine. NNNNNOOOOO LEIGH MY BABY! My mother screams as I collide into a concrete statue then everything goes black. Once I open my eyes again I’m in my bed and my head is throbbing with pain. The door to my room fly open as father races in. Is she alright and where Ruth my father demands of one of his men and the nurse I didn’t notice in the room with me. Leigh will have a concussion but should be fine within a month the nurse states. My father turns to a man on the other side of the room and of Ruth?  He asks alpha Luna Ruth fought to protect Leigh, sir. the man begins WHERE IS SHE! My father’s voice booms through the room the nurse steps near father. she is in critical condition alpha she is in the medical wing sir and we don’t know if she’ll survive. My father races out the room then everything goes black once again. I wake screaming for my mother only to be answered by a nurse as she races into my room straight to a machine I’m hooked up to. Darkness welcomes me once again into nothingness surrounds me. I don’t know if she should stay here if Luna doesn’t survive a voice says. No she should not stay here if Luna doesn’t survive, alpha will blame her and he’ll no longer see her as a child let alone his child but we have no power over this so quite down before anyone hears us another voice states. I force my eyes open to see two forms leaving my room. I sit upon my bed. Throw my blankets off my body then pull the needle from my arm. I stand beside my bed just to fall back onto it dizzy. I take a few deep breaths then try again and steady myself as I ease my self to stand without support.  I sneak out of my room to the medical wing sniffing the air for mother’s vanilla and spice scent every so often using the walls for support when I get dizzy. I rounded a Conner to stop at a room. I stepped closer to the door and open it to see mother in the bed with all kinds of tubs and machines hooked up to her. As I walk in tears fall from my face mommy wh...why didn’t you run? My knees buckle beneath me hitting the floor as I reach just before her bed. The door swings open behind me as a foreign smell drifts to my nose as dose father’s scent which smells like mother. He stumbles in a couple of steps then smashes a glass bottle against my head it’s your fault she’s leave it’s all your fault why couldn’t it have been you instead?  I hold onto my gashing head curled up crying daddy please stop don’t hit me only to have him hit me again and again until I black out from the pain. Instead of waking up in a cozy room I wake in a dark and damp room with bars in front of me then stone walls behind me. I sit on a metal makeshift bed attached from the stone wall. As I sat up I noticed a shackle on my right ankle. Why am I here what did I do to be here? “Father is angry with us Leigh he blames us for mother leaving” no mother isn’t leaving don’t say that I scream aloud.  “She already has” sobs brake free and I cry for a while. I jump to A door flying open as father walks in uneasily swaying side to side stumbling in the process. Staring at me with hatred you’ll stay down here for the rest of your life for taking her away form me and you’ll suffer my pain daily starting now. Guard my father yells. Yes alpha the guard says he turns to him the commands start the torture and don’t stop until she passes out. The guard face shows multiple emotions battling within. Year after year since the age of six years old losing mother father kept his vow. From morning til night I was tortured and by the time I was a teen I slipped a knife during being tortured and waited til the guards left me alone to get the knife out. I begin to cut my left arm in hopes of ending the pain then hid the knife when a guard would race in to stop me. They’d search my cell from top to bottom never able to find anything. By my fourteenth birthday I cut my arm as deep as I possibly could and used silver from the bars to prevent from healing quickly. I ended up passing out from losing so much blood. I wake to hear machines groaning with disappointment. Your not gonna get away that easily for what you’ve done my father says with such venom lacing his words. I never once glance at him “Leigh I can help us escape but we must wait