Manual of the Monster in City

84 The Cruel World

When she returned to school the next day, Zhuang Yan found that she still had to face...this fact.

    After all, in reality, Zhou Ming had broken up with her, and he proposed it that day.

    Zhuang Yan didn't know what she had done wrong, she was obviously the one who kept giving silently in that relationship. Zhou Ming enjoyed her contribution but didn't care.

    Now... but a lightly sentence from him erased all the definitions of happiness.

    Therefore, Zhuang Yan did not try to retain Zhou Ming this time, even if she really felt heartbroken, she still had to bite her teeth to maintain her current appearance. She always believes that Zhou Ming will come back, because she has been so kind to him...he will always be unaccustomed to the days of separation, he will definitely come to her... will realize that she is...

    But that scene never happened.

    The dreamland made Zhuang Yan taste the real sweetness. There is a world where there is no need to deliberately please others.

    In reality, however, the opposite is bloody. These days, she felt sad, as if even her mind had begun to betray her, she was always dizzy, as if it was soaked in water.

    Everything the teacher said on the podium seemed too far away to hear clearly.

    The text and number symbols in the exercise book seem to float away from the book, and weirdly merge and reorganize in front of the eyes.

    Some so-called friends quickly discovered her depressed state, and even when her mind was turned upside down and forced to give them a topic, laughed at her and said: "So our college bullies are so confused?"

    Such words sounded like very sharp irony, in a relaxed tone, like a needle hidden in the cotton, poking blood holes in her heart.

    But she couldn't have a seizure, because in this way, the other party didn't say anything. Once she had a seizure, she indirectly admitted that she appeared to be small.

    During the afternoon self-study class, the teacher arranged quizzes. The quizzes arranged at this time were obviously practice questions for the unified exam a few weeks later.

    But after she got the test papers, she couldn't concentrate. The test questions that seemed to be very simple on weekdays seemed to be distorting the original image on the paper, like a bent mouth, in a dazzling white Laughing on the paper, laughing at her weakness.

    Zhuang Yan had to lie that she was unwell, asked her teacher for leave, and left the classroom early to avoid the quiz.

    When she got an amnesty from the teacher and walked out of the classroom, she seemed to feel a lot of gazes, and those gazes contained some kind of lively elements...

    Although the teacher just showed a very caring look and told her that she must take a good rest, there will be a big exam soon, so don't delay for other things.

    But those classmates who chased after the wind and shadows seemed to have seen through her disguise, as if they all knew that she could no longer solve the problem, knew that her brain was in a mess because of the previous things, so they escaped like this...

    Soon it’s going to the third-grade exam. At that time, the paper can’t keep the fire down anyway...

    Zhuang Yan returned home in advance. On the way, she went to a special supply store to buy the simplest small incense burner, mainly for convenience and not to be discovered by the family.

    That day, she lit the incense again, her eyes followed the butterflies flying in the white smoke, and she soon returned to the dreamland, that beautiful world...

    She found that in that false world, something in her heart was aroused.

    Perhaps, that is exactly what the shopkeeper Miss Bai Ling said...

    Desire hidden deep in her subconscious.

    Zhuang Yan began to refuse and refused the requests of her classmates that she usually hated to ask her to talk about topics. She even began to openly express that she hated certain people, and blatantly abused certain people in front of her classmates. Began to show hostility without concealment.

    If it were in the real world, she felt that the self who had been treating others with gentleness would become a broken image, and be criticized by everyone, but this is a dreamland, and a dreamland dominated by herself, where she is the master of everything. .

    All the classmates in this dream world naturally stood on her side, helping her scold those classmates she hated, and helping her isolate them...

    It really feels like a princess in a fairy tale world, she thought.

    She doesn't have to have something she likes in her heart like before, she has to get a better grade in the exam, and then ask her parents for...

    Sometimes, she has met the requirements of her parents, but she will not be satisfied with what she wants. Because later, her grades got better and better, and she always stayed first in the school. As a result, her parents seem to be used to her excellence.

    Little did she know that she got it through hard work.

    Relying on the glorious position obtained through hard work, and then being accustomed to it as natural by others, it was regarded as a position she must desperately maintain.

    So even though Zhuang Yan has always been the best student, she is always in fear every time she delivers results. If she does not maintain the first place, then the whole world might collapse.

    In this world, she doesn't need to please anyone, she can buy and own the things she likes without hesitation. She wants to date Zhou Ming and can hang out together at any time, even if she skips class, she won't have any problems at all. She also tried makeup, tried to buy beautiful dresses, and would not be preached by her parents, who said seriously that she is not the age of dressing at all.

    In this world, and only in this world... there is freedom that she dreams of but is never found in the real world.

    Those who have been added to the box indicate the freedom that can only be exchanged with the rising price. It can be obtained for free here, because she is the master of this world.

    And...this world feels...very real, isn't it?

    The touch of the object, the heat of the sun on the skin at different times, the taste stimulated when the food is ingested, and the feeling of fullness in the stomach when the food is slowly digested...

    Everything is extremely real.

    If what the shopkeeper Bai Ling said is true and the dream is another world, then she would rather stay in the dream forever.

    However, the good times always seem to be particularly short. After spending a few days of happy time in the dream world, she once again saw the scene before her distorted and destroyed, and finally disappeared before her eyes.

    When she woke up, she was exhausted physically and mentally.

    Zhuang Yan has...don't want to return to this world.

    So after school every day, she went to Shell Road to look for the shop where her wish came true.

    No. 221 Shell Road, Stealing Heaven Pavilion.

    But there seemed to have disappeared. The road leading to Stealing Heaven Pavilion, the dark narrow alley, was empty except for the trash can at the entrance, and I passed through the alley without going too far. We arrived at the street behind the shop on Shell Road.

    Zhuang Yan stared at the bustling crowd on the street, desperately trying to cry.

    Only when such a desperate mood lasts for many days can she find the mysterious road in a daze one day by accident, and finally reach the door of the three-story ancient building of the stealing sky.

    It's not that she found it deliberately.

    It is a mysterious shop hidden in the city. Only when the obsession is strong enough, when the ferocious trapped beast in the heart falls into violent moments, it will emerge from the mist. The shop owner, Miss Bai Ling, seemed to give her only one portion every time, no matter how she begged, and said that she could visit next time.

    Fortunately, she gradually realized that the time interval between finding the Stealing Pavilion was getting shorter and shorter.

    It may take a week at the beginning to happen to reach the Stole Heaven Pavilion, but gradually, it only takes four or five days, and it gradually becomes two or three days.

    Every time she took the incense from Miss Bai Ling, she would immediately go home to light it and enter a dream.

    She found that she could not do without this dream world.

    Yes, if there are really two worlds, the one that is truly wrong, the one that is truly false... the one that truly betrays her efforts and expectations... is the real world instead.

    Such thoughts slowly formed in Zhuang Yan's heart, and her life became increasingly full of decadence and barrenness.

    Her performance in school tends to be more and more self-enclosed, and she no longer cares about other students.

    During class time, those once-familiar calculations and solutions became more and more unfamiliar, she just watched blankly. The teacher didn't notice that there was something wrong with her, but only thought that she was a good student, so she was a good student, so she was distracted.

    When she scribbled in the book, the teacher would think that she was a good student. It would be boring to listen to what ordinary students had learned, so she just let her do it.

    The day is finally approaching...

    Legend has it, the first unified exam for the third grade.

    Before that day, Zhuang Yan finally couldn't help her feelings of anxiety, and after working hard to review all night, she felt a sense of imminent disaster in her heart.

    However, this kind of review had little effect. When I was sitting in the examination room the next day, facing those test papers, although I could find some "feelings before", I always felt something was wrong.

    Review questions and answer.

    After reading the paper roughly for the first time, she felt that her heart was cold...

    She hoped it was in a dream and hoped that it would be the same as a dream, like a ballpoint pen with Dingdong that can answer by himself, and can write the answer naturally.

    However, this is not the case in reality.

    After the exam that day, Zhuang Yan was able to find Stealing Heaven Pavilion again. Her nervous mood, only the incense can make her experience the best escape... can she slightly alleviate the feeling of imminent disaster.

    She stayed in the dream world longer and longer, but everything here seemed more real and warmer.

    The more painful and anxious she is in the outside world, in this dream, she becomes more and more vicious and willful, and she can sever all relations between Zhou Ming and Lin Ting, the sports student she has always hated. She even found a teacher in charge of training sports specialties and asked him to expel Lin Ting from the track team.

    Everything went well surprisingly.

    She watched Zhou Ming and Lin Ting break off diplomatic ties with her own eyes. She didn't interact with each other. Even when she saw her, Zhou Ming would look like a disgusting fly.

    She watched Lin Ting's training results get worse and worse, until she was expelled from the school team by her physical education teacher, and she was disqualified from sports specialties.

    She got a despicable sense of happiness from these.

    Every day she holds Zhou Ming's hand and enjoys the meticulous care of her handsome and sunny boyfriend. People she hates will get their due end, like the villain in the story.

    But... the dream will end after all.

    Gradually, she found that when the dream was over, she couldn't help crying sadly.

    That day came, as if it was the judgment day in myth. When the results came out, the bright red list was dazzling, and the black ink characters seemed to constantly exude choking smoke.

    The glorious position of the first place is no longer her.

    It was the classmate who was always second and always under her. She often pretended to ask her questions, and often asked her to go to the canteen and the like, but Zhuang Yan could see her hidden evil intentions every time. She is waiting for this day... to step herself under the foot on the bright red list...

    But...second place, third place...still did not see her name.

    Until the very bottom...very dazzling position...

    "37: Zhuang Yan."

    As if it were a depth bomb, she felt her ears humming. The comments made by the classmates who watched the big list all around seemed to be talking about her...talking about her plummeting grades this time...their comments were full of ridicule and regret. Although she could not hear clearly, she subconsciously Think that everyone is hostile to themselves.

    Such a thing...impossible.

Sure enough... this world is fake.