Fight for me

Chapter Twelve

The next few days passed in a blur, between driving and sleeping in crappy motel rooms the days just seamed to roll into each other. It had been 4? Maybe 5 days since Rosa and I escaped Christopher, I called Natasha and informed her of what had happened as soon as Rosa fell asleep that first night, but she hadn't been prepared to relocate both of us. She had pulled a lot of strings getting us both relocated the first time that she was unable to do it again so soon. All we could do was run and prey they didn't catch up to us, but I was hopeful, they didn't seem to bring to many man with them this time, but I knew the allies they had all over the world. Anyone could be our enemy. 

Everyday Rosa woke up and put on a brave face, but I could tell she was struggling inside. She wouldn't tell me about the nightmares that she had, and every night she woke up clammy and struggling to breath. I deducted that she was having panic attacks but she constantly tried to convince me that she was fine.

I sat on the lid of the motels toilet as I watched her shower. She had bags under her eyes from lack of sleep and already she had lost weight. It wasn't much, definitely not noticeable to someone who didn't know her body as well as I did, but it was enough to make me worry. 

On her hips were the nail marks I had scarred into her skin, they were almost healed now but had left shiny white scares, a constant reminder of how I hurt her. I felt sick when Nikolai asked how often I inflicted pain on her, but she used to crave it, and the darkness inside of me loved doing it. We had only slept together twice since our escape and it was silly of me but it felt as if I was loosing her. She wasn't her bubbly, horny self and I hoped beyond all else that she just needed time to heal, she had even stopped calling me daddy. 

I heard the stream of the shower stop and refocused my gaze to her face, her eyes looked concerned as she studied me 

"Are you okay?" She asked. I stood up and wrapped my bare arms around her waist, kissing her forehead 

"Yeah baby girl" I tried to reassure her. "I was thinking, what if we only drive a few hours today. Get a nicer hotel, one with a restaurant? Maybe a spa bath" I remembered how excited she got when seeing the one I had at the gym. I would do anything to see her face light up in genuine happiness again. Instead, her brows furrowed together 

"Is that safe?" She asked. I sighed not the response I was hoping for, she was so happy and excited when we escaped, even while sitting in that tiny bath tub crying she still seamed so full of hope. It had to be the nightmares plaguing her mind with doubt and worry. 

"We will find a small town, just big enough for a decent place to stay and eat. We will be safe, I'll never leave your side. I promise" I said caressing her cheek. 

She gave me a weak smile "Okay, sounds nice" we quickly packed up our things and hopped back in the car. We had stopped at a car yard the day before to trade in for a different one.

An hour or so into our trip I noticed Rosa had dozed off. She looked so peaceful a carefree when she was asleep, until her eyes squinted up tight. f**k, no, she was having another nightmare. I moved my hand to rest on her thighs, lighting rubbing trying my hardest to sooth her but it was no use. She jumped awake gasping for air, instantly she grabbed my hand and squeezed it tight 

"Baby it's okay, I'm here. Everything is okay" I repeated, just like I did every other time she woke from a nightmare. She closed her eyes, breathing heavily as she settled. 

"Do you want to talk about?" I asked, praying that she would. I just wanted to know what was going on inside her head, I felt so useless not being able to help her, but she shook her head. 

"It's not too much longer" I said seeing a sign that we were getting close to town. She remained silent for the trip, and I was at a loss for words. I didn't know what to say to comfort her or even to distract her from her thoughts. We pulled up outside a two story building, it was a beautiful stone built structure with ivy growing up the walls. There was a huge mahogany sign out the front with gold cursive letters 'La Vie En Rose, hotel and restaurant' it read.

 I pulled our bags out of the back and walked around to help Rosa out. We walked in and we're immediately greeted by the man at the front desk. We booked a room and made our way to the elevators. I glanced over at Rosa, who was rubbing her eyes, she looked so exhausted my heart ached for her. We found our room and walked in. 

In the middle of the room there was a huge King sized bed, it looked so soft and beautiful with it's white pillows that looked like clouds and the white and gold tread doona. To our right was a large window with a spectacular view of what seamed to be a forest and to our left a wooden door that was open and in clear view was a large spa bath. I dropped our bags on the floor and closed the door behind us. 

I walked over to Rosa and wrapped my arms around her from behind. She rested her head against my chest and sighed into me 

"It's beautiful" she said 

"Definitely better then what were used to" I said kissing the top of her head. 

I let go of her waist and took her hand in mine "Come on, spa time" I said and she gave me a small smile 

"If you insist" she said and I smiled back at her. 

We walked into the bathroom and I quickly turned on the taps, it would take a little while to fill up so I turned to Rosa who was eyeing the steady stream of water. I caressed her cheek and lent in to kiss her, I tried to pour all my love and strength into it, wishing I could take away her pain. I moved my hands to cup the hem of her shirt and slowly started removing it. I pulled it over her head and discarded it to the floor. She cast her eyes to the ground and let out a small sigh 

"What is it baby?" I asked 

"I'm..I'm sorry I haven't been able to give you what you need these last few days" she almost whispered. 

My heart broke even more, how could she be thinking about me right now? I used my hand to lift her chin so I could look into her eyes. She had tears starting to form and in that moment she looked so vulnerable. 

"You, you are what I need" 

She gave me another weak smile but remained silent 

"I need you to tell me. Tell me what's going on in your head Rosa. I can't bare to see you like this anymore. Not when I could be doing something to help" I pulled her into me, holding her as tight as I could "I'm here, tell me" I begged, but she remained silent, only shaking her head. 

I thought of what I could do, of any way to get her to open up. She was holding onto her pain and letting it eat her up inside. I knew what it felt like, after my first kill I had struggled beyond belief, unable to open up about how I was feeling or what was going through my head. I stopped caring about myself or anyone around me and it wasn't until Nikolai confronted me about it that I finally opened up. Ever since our parents died he hated when people skimmed the truth, he was so young that no body wanted to tell him what happened. One day he confronted me and I told him the truth and everyday after he treated me with so much respect and loyalty. 

When he confronted me he reminded me of that moment, he told me that no matter how hard to truth may have been, i still believed in him and he felt stronger knowing he would always have someone their to support and trust in him. He also punched me a few times trying to get his words to sink in, but we did that often.

 It was then I realised what I needed to do, but it was risky. I needed her submission, her full submission. We just barely skimmed the surface of D/S  in our relationship and for this to work she had to commit fully, i needed her to see that i could be her strength, that she could trust me with every part of her, even the bad. 

"Tell me something" I said as my finger traced around her collar bone "When you ask my permission to c*m, do you do it because you can't c*m without it, or do you do it because you think it will make me happy?" I asked. 

She looked confused "What? Why are you.." she began to say 

"Answer me" I commanded, making her jump a little. 

"I..At first it was for you, but now, now it's hard for me to c*m without your permission" 

"So your body's trained to listen to my commands?" I asked trailing my finger down her chest to her bare breast. Her n*****s hardened under my light touch and she swallowed nervously 

"I.. I guess so, yes" 

"What about when I f**k you. Do you get more pleasure riding my c**k? or when I'm pounding it into you in whatever position I choose?" I asked as my finger started travelling down, circling her belly button, her breathing quickened as I went. 

"I like both" she breathed. 

My lips tilted in a small smile, "But which do you prefer?" I asked. 

She hesitated for a moment before saying "I.. prefer you" she said, her face still looking so confused. 

"So you trust me to know what your body needs? What you need?" I asked as my finger reached the top of her sweat pants. 

"Y-yes" she stuttered. 

"Good" I said as I dropped to my knees. 

I tucked my fingers into either side of her waist band and pulled them down, revealing her black cotton panties. I removed her legs from her pants and slowly started to trace my finger around her ankle. 

"I need you to do something for me now baby" I said as I traced my finger up her calf, goosebumps formed on her skin and a soft moan escaped her lips 

"Anything" she panted. 

"Submit to me, Fully. I can't stand only having half of you. I need all of you" I said casually but I was desperate for her to say yes. I continued tracing up her legs until I got to her thigh. My body filled with rage as I seen the scabs left behind from my brother's touch on her. I tilted my head forward and opened her legs to allow me full access. I kissed each and every mark that piece of s**t left on her. She moaned but it was filled with pain, I licked along the trail of kisses I had just left before placing a wet kiss through her panties, I could already taste her arousal. 

"James I.. I can't do that" she finally said. "I don't want to burden you with it" 

Anger hit me at her choice of words, I grabbed hold of her panties and ripped them off her in one, hard pull. She cried out at my sudden burst and I jumped to my feet, grabbing hold of the back of her neck while my thumb rest on her cheek. I pulled her to me and placed a hard kiss on her lips. I slid my free hand down and circled her entrance. She was just wet enough for me to slide two fingers inside of her, I started curling and massaging inside as she moaned into my mouth, she was getting close and I broke our kiss still holding her face tight

"Who's p***y is this?" I asked, breathing hard. 

"Yours" she moaned. 

I removed my fingers to hold her breast "And who's body is this?" 

"Yours" she cried. 

I pushed myself into her making her stumble back hitting the wall. I forced my tongue into her mouth, licking into her as my lips sealed around hers 

"And who's f*****g soul is this?" I demanded 

"Yours" she screamed through tears. 

I let out a deep breath "And who told me that?" I asked. 

She was sobbing now "I.. I did" she said. 

"You did" l repeated "but this isn't you, what ever is eating you up inside, it's pulling you away from me and I won't let that happen! Submit to me Rosa, let me bring you back. Let me help you" I begged. 

When she didn't say anything I ripped my clothes off and picked her up to straddle me. I stepped over the ledge of the tub and suck us both into the hot water, It wasn't completely filled but it was slowly rising. 

I kissed her again as I slid three of my fingers inside her body, she groaned into me and I grabbed her hip with my free hand to hold her in place. She was wound up so tightly from the stress and lack of sleep, I needed her compliant and sated, I needed her to c*m. 

I worked my fingers inside of her, I was rough and fast eager to get her we're she needed. She gripped my shoulders as she moaned into my mouth 

"Come on baby, c*m for me, I know you can" I said, my words filled with need. 

Her body obeyed me and she exploded around my fingers, throwing her head back as she moaned through her release. I removed my fingers and replaced them with my hard c**k, thrusting hard inside of her, she gasped in a breath of air. I held her hips and stilled my movements, I was as deep inside of her as I could get 

"Do you feel that baby girl?" I asked as I slowly rocked myself inside of her 

"Yes, yes" she moaned 

"I'm real, I'm here and I will never let anyone hurt you ever again" I said as I pulled almost all the way out of her then thrust hard back inside "Submit to me Rosa, don't let your demons win. Feel me, I'm real" I kept thrusting, speeding up my rhythm as my need grew "I'm real, what's in your head can never happen, I won't let it happen. Trust me, feel me baby. I'm all yours, you own me. Now give yourself to me Rosa, submit to me. Submit" 

"Yes" she screamed "yes, I submit. Please"  

I let go of her hips and wrapped my arms around her, pushing her down and deeper onto me. She buried her face in my neck as she cried 

"I'm here Rosa, tell me, please" 

"I..I die. Every dream I have I die and you don't save me. I..I'm back in the wear house, tied to that chair and your brothers there and.. and you plead with him to let me go. I call out to you and I cry for you but you never move you just beg him to stop and when I look over to him, his holding a gun to my head and.. and I die, every time" she sobbed and my heart broke. 

It was just like the story I had told her about the girl I couldn't save "shhh" I tried to soothe, holding her tighter "I will never let that happen to you. I will always protect you" 

She continued to hold me and cry, a few minutes went by and the bath was starting to get close to full. I shifted us around to turn the taps off and turn on the jet streams. Not long after, Rosa lifted her head wiping at her face. I reached up and gently took her hands in mine, kissing them both 

"Thank you for telling me" I said and she let out a breathy almost laugh. 

"Thank you for making me. I.. I feel better getting it off my chest" 

I tucked a stray stand if hair behind her ear  "Your burdens are my burdens angel, never feel like you have to hide them from me. I will forever be here for you, to hold you and care for you and protect you from every threat we face" I said. 

She lent forward and placed a light kiss on my lips "I know you will daddy" she said as she started rocking her hips forward, even when I was soft I still stayed firmly inside her tight opening. She rocked her hips again and I felt myself growing 

"Take care of me now daddy" she said. 

It felt so good hearing her call me that, it had been too long "With pleasure baby girl" I said as I started pumping myself inside of her. 

I f****d her through 4 spectacular orgasms and two of my own. 

We lay breathless on the bed that was as comfy as it looked. 

"Are.. are you hungry angel?" I asked through my laboured breathing. 

"I could go another round" she said looking over to me and giggling, the sound so sweet, it had been days since I heard it. I forced my heaving body over and on top of her, kissing down her neck 

"For food you nympho" I joked 

"Absolutely starving daddy" she said as she moaned from my touch. 

"Good. Your going to need your strength. We've got a few days to make up for" 

She laughed as I rolled over and dialled the number for room service. I ordered enough for 10 people and we sat on the bed surrounded by food. 

She eyed me with amusement "Really?" She asked. 

"I didn't know what you felt like" I shrugged. 

We talked and laughed and ate way to much and it felt nice to have her back with me. It felt like a lifetime since I had the carefree Rosa with me and I soaked it up as much as I could. 

We lay on the bed suffering from the worst kind of food coma, she groaned as she rolled over to face me 

"Rain check on that hot hot lovin' daddy?"

I laughed at her "Hot hot lovin'?" 

She smiled at me "Would dirty f**k sesh work better?" 

I laughed so hard I almost forgot the pain my stomach was in "That would definitely work better baby girl and yes, rain check, one hundred percent" 

She giggled as she pulled herself over to cuddle into me "I love you" she said as she kissed my chest 

"I love you too baby girl" I said kissing the top of her head. 

We flicked through the channels of the TV that sat on a cabinet to the left of the bed and Rosa fell asleep almost instantly. I kissed the top of her head one more time "Goodnight baby" 

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I woke to Rosa tossing in her sleep, I looked over at the bedsides alarm clock and seen it was almost 4 in the morning. She had slept a solid 9 hours before having a nightmare, usually she got 2 maybe 3 so this was definitely a good sign. I cuddled her into me trying to soothe her as I hushed her back to sleep, but she shot up from the bed breathless again 

"I'm right here. No one's going to hurt you. I'm right here" I reassured

"Daddy?" She looked over to me 

"I'm here baby" 

"I'm okay" she said with a smile "I'm okay" she said again as she jumped on top of me "I need you" she said as stripped of her top and underwear. 

She lent down and placed a needy kiss to my lips, trailing her hands down my body to free me. She started pulling at me, her movements harsh and aggressive. I grabbed her hand, removing it from my hardening c**k and flipped her onto her back 

"What's got you so worked up?" I asked trailing kisses down her neck 

"You do" she panted as she tried grabbing me again. I gripped her wrist in my hand and held it above her head, I reached for her free hand and placed it with the other, holding both her wrists in one hand. I sucked her n****e into my mouth and she moaned 

"Please daddy" 

"So needy angel" I said releasing her n****e, but only to suck on her other one. "Tell me baby" I said as I lined the head of my hard c**k up to her entrance, when she didn't speak I moved my free hand to grip my shaft and started rubbing my head up and down her folds "Rosa" I said urgently 

"I..I was back in the wear house" she began and I slid my c**k inside causing her to gasp out. I didn't move, imploring her to keep talking "but..but this time I was reliving what Nikolai was doing to me" she panted and I slowly started to move in and out of her 

"That's whats got you worked up?" I asked, worried that it was my brother turning her on in her head and not me 

"N..no. wh.." she groaned as I increased the speed of my c**k inside of her "it.. it kept flashing between you and him, doing it to me. I was filled with panic. But then I heard your voice soothing me and I opened my eyes to see you pinching my n*****s and the fear was replaced with need,  but every time I closed my eyes it would switch between the two of you.. I.. woke up when you dug your nails into my thigh a..and I felt myself cumming" 

I smiled into her neck, my touch was replacing all the bad that Nikolai had done. I trusted myself into her harder 

"Thank you baby girl" I praised her for opening up to me. 

I moved my free hand up to join hers, we were now face to face and I made love to her mouth as I plunged myself inside of her, over and over again until she was begging for her release 

"c*m baby" I commanded as I stroked my c**k inside of her and rubbed at her aching core. She exploded with so much violence it shook me, her beautiful cunt milking me of every last drop. I collapsed on top of her, our breathing heavy. She wrapped her arms and legs around me holding me tight to her. 

As our breathing steadied I tilted my head up, "I have something for you" I said 

"Yeah you do daddy" she giggled as she wriggled her hips, me still inside if her. 

I smiled at her "Don't move" I said as I slowly pulled out of her and walked over to our bags. I pulled out the little red box that housed the ring I had brought her and walked back over to the bed. I lay back down between her legs resting my chest on her stomach 

"I wasn't going to give it to you, if I hadn't stopped to buy it then I would have been home earlier, I would have been able to protect you, and I hated it. But now, now I think it represents how strong and brave you are.You fought so hard and I couldn't have been more proud of you and every time you look at it I want you to remember that. Your the bravest person I have ever met" I said as I placed the box on her chest and opened it. 

She moved to rest on her elbows, looking at the ring inside "Daddy, it's beautiful" she said as a tear escaped down her cheek. 

I picked it up and she held out her left hand for me, i slowly slid it down her ring finger and she eyed it with a smile. 

"Daddy?" she asked

"Yeah baby" 

"Take me, all of me" 

My eyes shot to hers "No baby, it will hurt and I don't want to cause you any more pain" 

"I need you too. I need the pain. Before all of this, the pain was what gave me pleasure, I don't know why but it's always been something I needed and then, well the last few days pain terrified me. I need you to bring me back, I need you to replace their pain with ours. Please" 

I was silent for a moment, thinking. "Are you sure that's what you want?" I asked, not knowing if it was what she truly needed right now. I'd always been able to read her, to know what her body needed but in this moment i just couldn't. 

"Yes daddy, please" 

My body reacted before my mind had time to process, I jumped up her body and kissed her, thinking about taking her anal virginity made me as hard as a rock. I'd own all of her, I'd be the only man to ever claim her. I positioned the head of my c**k at her entrance, jamming inside her tight p***y. 

"Is that really what you want right now angel" I said as I pumped inside of her. 

She moaned so loud at my sudden intrusion "Yes, please daddy, please. I..I want it in..in" 

She couldn't finish her sentence I squeezed her n****e hard and she cried out 

"Are you sure your ready for more pain angel?" I asked. 

I noticed tears streaming her face but I didn't stop my c**k from penetrating her. 

"Y..yes I..I'm ready" she stuttered but it didn't sound convincing. 

"Then c*m for me, c*m for like this like you've never c*m before angel and I'll f**k your ass. But you need to convince me your ready" I panted out, as I moved my other hand down to pinch both her n*****s simultaneously. 

She cried out a sound of both pleasure and pain 

"I give you permission to c*m baby girl, now do it. Do it for me" 

She almost screamed as I moved my hand down to pinch her c**t and within seconds she was cumming hard.  Her p***y gripping my c**k brought me undone and I came inside of her, filling her to the brim 

"Please daddy" she panted "Please" 

I pulled my c**k from inside of her and rolled to my side. I slid two fingers inside her p***y and curled them before removing them. Using both our arousal I rubbed them over the bundle of nerves that housed her back entrance and slowly slid my fingers inside. 

She groaned as I fingered her, slowly pulling them in and out. I watched as her hole opened for me and swallowed them. I removed my fingers to gather more of her wetness, now coating three of my fingers and placed them at her back entrance. I pushed them them inside of her, arching her back she gasped in air 

"Now daddy, please do it, please" she moaned. 

I moved myself on top of her once again only this time I rubbed my head around her soaking wet p***y gathering all the wetness I could to lube myself up. I moved myself down to her foreign entrance 

"Do you remember your safe word?" I asked 

"Yes daddy, it's.. it's Paris, please" she groaned. 

I pushed slightly inside of her, just enough for my head to enter. She cried out, the sound foreign, needy but pained. I slowly started to ease myself inside but she screamed out in pain. I was so conflicted, my c**k wanting nothing more then to claim her, to trust inside of her until she was screaming out her pained pleasure but my mind didn't want to hurt her 

"Baby?" I said and I'm not sure if it was a question or a release of pleasure 

"Faster daddy, please it hurts so much. Please" she begged and my c**k took over. 

I thrust myself deep inside of her and she screamed out. I was barely able to still my movements, she was tighter then I ever could have imagined, my c**k wanting to take control but I tried desperately to steady myself 

"Are you okay angel?" I asked, buried inside of her from root to tip. 

"Y...yes daddy" she sobbed.

I lent down and kissed along her jaw line and down her neck, giving her time to adjust to me. 

"K..keep going" she breathed and it was all the encouragement my c**k needed. 

I slowly started to pump inside of her, taking my time, letting her accommodate me comfortably but as my need grew I couldn't control the force of my hips. 

She was crying out so loudly, i didnt know what to do. Do I stop? Or do I keep inflicting the pain she so desperately wants? My c**k made the decision to keep on thrusting, I moved my hand down to rub at her c**t and she screamed out louder. 

"Yes daddy, please, that's it's" 

I kept rubbing but it didn't feel like enough, I moved my fingers down to enter her sopping wet cunt and I slid my fingers inside of her, massaging at  the spot I knew would get her off. I moved my thumb to circle her c**t and she let out I sound I had never heard before, it was needy but mixed with an animistic pain. 

"c*m baby, c*m now. I'm about to fill your ass with everything I have" I panted out. 

She exploded around my around my fingers. She exploded so hard I could feel her cunt milking me from her ass. I filled her full, every last drop I had went into her and her screams turned to that of passion, of pure pleasure. 

There was no more pain, no more fear. It was just us, us in our glory, us doing what we do best and making ourselves feel euphoric. I collapsed into her, panting and unable to come down. She had given me all of her. Everything she had to offer and I only wished I could do the same for her. I pulled myself out of her I moved to cuddle her from behind 

"Baby girl, are you okay? How do you feel?" I asked, worried I may have taken it too far. She didn't speak for a moment, catching her breath she said 

"W..we have to do that again" 

I chucked as I pulled her closer to me. "Your mine baby girl. Forever, never forget that" I whispered into her ear 

"Forever daddy, you own me"