THE GIRL BOOK I

Book I, Chapter 2

The woman stares out in the distance. In the night sky, she was thinking about what she wants to do in life. Her ex-boyfriend already had a girlfriend. But for her; she was having a hard time. She was fighting for the feelings she had for her Scorpio male friend. However, can she move on?

There are a lot of questions. Questions that are left unanswered. Why was she born? Why was she given a second chance? Why did she survive death once but two times? She experienced death three times during her childhood. How is it possible? She’s not a miracle baby.

She applied for jobs for two years. And no one hired her. Is it because of her lack of work experience? Was it because she has no skills at all? Was it because she’s fat and ugly? Those are all those negative thoughts in her mind. She hates the men who pretend to be friends with her ex boyfriend. And the second guy is a friend of hers.

The man was done working. Because, the time was 9:15pm in the evening. He didn’t come out. Since he was doing his job as always. He was counting the money. And whatever duties he had. As for the women, she was talking to her dead daughter.

Can you guess what the woman's name was? It was a beautiful name. It means beautiful Queen. The baby was the queen to her. The woman wasn’t in the right place. Because she wasn’t strong enough. Since she wasn’t able to save her daughter. It was her and her child against the world. But the world was against her.

She fell into a deep depression. No one was able to understand her. Nor could they make her happy. It was as if the woman was a lifeless body. Except she could still function. She wondered why the father of the child stayed with her for two years. When he told her, he didn't want a child. But I made one by mistake. That’s what she remembers him telling her.

A mistake?! A woman scoffed at what he said to her. It wasn’t a mistake. The women literally ask him if he wants to put on a condom. Because she knew it was a dangerous day. She could feel it. But, the man was an i***t. He wanted to feel her p***y. The one that squeezes him so tightly. That even more tightly his rod would fall off.

She remembered everything this man told her from day one. She waited until this man fell in love with her. He was the one who told her to wait for him. Did you know what he did instead? One of his guy friends introduced him to the ex-girlfriend of his friend. And they f**k like rabbits.

Why does he say to the women to wait for him when he just f**k other women? She doesn’t understand. She wasted two years. And nothing hasn’t changed. She could tell the man just pretends not to remember what he told her. Because he doesn’t want to get in trouble. He has a habit of lying.

She just wishes that everything ends. She has negative thoughts. She has given up hope already. She remembers everything her mom says to her. All the things that her mom downgraded her to do.

She slightly chuckled. She tries her best not to cry. Because she remembers every word the men told her two years ago. It hurts when he lies. It hurts knowing that the man had s*x with another woman. When he was already in a relationship with her and her boyfriend back then.

She remembers. And when she gets to know him more. She tries to communicate with her. She remembers that he won’t abandon the women who would have his child. She knew in her mind. But she didn’t say a word. And on her thirty three birthday she found out she was pregnant. She even communicated with him about children too. Yet he didn’t take her seriously.

She went to go to the doctor appointment in Palo Alto, California. It was confirmed that she was pregnant. She didn’t want to show proof. Because she knew how he would react. But he found out the truth. When he found out the truth, he ghost her for about a month or so. While he ghosts her, she could feel that he was having s*x with the same woman. The woman who already had a boyfriend.

She couldn’t believe that he called her paranoid. But, she felt the pain. She knew he wasn’t faithful towards her. She knew the man was emotionally cheating on her. Even though she knew that he and her weren’t dating each other. Because he didn’t ask her out officially. Why does it hurt?

She could tell that the man she fell in love with was with another woman at his work. She knew he had feelings for her. The young girl was nineteen years old. She had blonde hair. He asked her out but got rejected. And yet after that she made it look like they are nothing but work friends. But the women knew it was an act.

She listens to sad music on her phone. It was the only way to keep her emotions in control. There’s no point anyways. She’s single. She tries to communicate with this man. But what did he do? He threw her feelings under the bus. She was sad. However; he didn’t care how he felt. How could he do this to her?

She cries inside. She hopes that he will have feelings for her. She tries to read the body language from him. And he confuses her even more. She tries so hard to be the woman that the man will love. She tries to understand his hobbies. Even though she didn’t like it. She was by far afraid of it.

She knew she felt strongly for this man. But she’s afraid. Afraid that she would get rejected. So, she stayed quiet. She never plays mind games if she loves a person. Her actions speak louder than words. She was the only one who could handle him. But now she had to find out from others how he felt towards her. She remembers it. As if it has already happened.