Milkshake girl

Chapter thirteen - Going back to my old school

Olivia's POV:

Nate keeps asking about my old school. I know that I should tell him, but I don't feel ready for this. I don't know what his reaction will be. Moreover, I don't want him to feel sorry for me. I won't lie that I felt bad when he told me that he likes a girl. Well, I knew that it'll never be me, but I was hoping that one day things can change. Now, I have lost all my chances. I can tell him the truth, but this won't change anything. He already has a girl in his mind. All I can do is to be close with him as a friend. I don't know what else to do. Maybe that is better. I am not his type. Not like I know what type of girls he likes, but I'm sure that I am not one of them. Maybe one day I can find someone too, but this won't help me. Nate always will be in my head. Just like now. Since the day we met, I can't think about anything else. I don't know who is his girl, but she is very lucky. I hope that she won't break his heart. He doesn't deserve this. Nate is the nicest person that I know and I am sure that he will treat her well. If she doesn’t know how to appreciate it, it's her loss. 

In the morning, I woke up and checked my phone. It was 8 am. We don't have school today. I received an email, but it didn't say why. It's not that important. What I care about is that today I can go to work. I haven't been on a full day since the beginning of the school year. I am trying to go as much as possible, but it's not that easy. I don't have that much time. Maybe around the holidays, I will have more time. All I can think about now is Nate and his girl. I don't know why it's bothering me so much. It can be because I like him. This just hurts me in a way that I can't explain. 

Finally, I decided to get out of bed. I'm not in the mood to do anything. I walked downstairs for breakfast and saw my parents. Emma and James were there too. They didn't look pleased to see me. Well, they still own me money. Anyways, I don't want to think about this. I looked at my parents and they gave me sad smile. I feel like something is going on, but I'm not sure will they tell me. 

- Mom, is there a problem? Why are you looking at me like that?

- We have to tell you something, but you won't like it. 

- What is going on?

- The principal from your old school called us. You have to go and pick some documents. 

- What!? There is no way that I am going back there. Can't you go there and take them?

- We asked, but he said that you have to do it.

- Fine, I will go today. 

- It has to be until lunchtime. 

- You have to be kidding me. 

My parents were about to say something when the doorbell rang. Who is here? I went to open the door and left frozen when I saw who the person was. He was standing in front of me with a smile on his face. A smile for which I am falling every single time. Just like I did now.

- Nate, what are you doing here?

- Well, since we don't have to go to school today, I decide that you might want to go out with me. 

- I would love to, but I can't. I have to pick up some stupid documents from my old school until lunchtime. I can call you after that. 

- Do you want me to come with you?

- I don't think that it's a good idea. 

- You know that I won't give up. Maybe you won't tell me today, but one day you have to.

- Ok, you can come with me, but on one condition. 

- What is it?

- We go there, get what I have to, and walk away. No stoppings or talking with anyone. 

- Deal. Let's go now. 

- Come in. I have to take my things. 

This is the first time when I let Nate into my house. I quickly introduced him to my parents and went to take my things. I guess that he made a good impression since dad was laughing. In that moment, the thoughts about his girl came and my mood changed in seconds. Nate looked at me and I smiled at him. 

- Are you ready? - he asked me

- Yes, we can go if you want. 

Both of us walked out. I won't lie that I was nervous and the fact that Nate is with me makes it worse. No one was talking. I started feeling uneasy. I guess that Nate noticed that because he grabbed my hand. We looked at each other for a while. He smiled at me and I returned it. Soon we arrived and I let go of his hand. He gave me a confused look, but I didn't say anything. I told him to wait for me in the hall why I go to the principal's office. I knocked on the door and he let me in. 

- Hey, principal Adams. You have called my parents. 

- Yes, I need you to sign a couple of forms and take these documents with you. 

- Ok, I will do that. 

These were just forms about why I have moved. Basically, to not sue the school for bullying. It's not I will do it. I don't want to mess with that. When I was done with everything, I walked out. I walked up to Nate and we were about to go when I heard a voice. Great. This is the last thing that I want. That's why I didn't want to go back to this school. I turned around to face Veronica. 

- Well, well, well. If that is not Olivia Brown. 

- No, this is Skelly Brown. - one girl said and she laughed

- What do you want from me?

- I haven't seen you in a while. Basically, since you left us. 

- You know why I left. 

- We didn't do anything to you. 

- Yeah, for sure. First, I was Fatty Brown. Now, I am Skelly Brown. Don't you want to add anything else?

- Except the fact that you still don't wear make-up. 

The worst thing of all is that Nate has to watch this. I don't know how I have to explain to him that this was chasing me for four years. I smiled at him, but he understood what I meant by that.

- Girls, let's do a make-over. Bring the make-up. 

With that, the girls started throwing make-up at me. I received some lip-gloss, mascara, and even fake lashes. I tried my best to hold myself. Soon the boys appeared as well. Great. This is officially my worst day ever. 

- Oooh, Skelly Brown is back. Did you miss us?

- Neither a little bit. What do you want Jordan?

- Calm down. I just want to talk with Skelly. 

- Stop calling me like that!

- Have you seen yourself? You look like a skeleton. 

- You and the whole school made me do it. When I was eating normally, I was fat. Then I stopped eating and now I am a skeleton. No matter what I was doing, I was always the bad one. None of you cared about me. All you did was make fun of me. Like I am a person with no feelings. You have no idea by how many things I went through just because of this school. Four years you were treating me like crap. I might not look pretty, but this was my choice. I don't see why you cared so much about what I was doing. 

- Some people fit in, some don't. 

- You never gave me a chance. Since the beginning, I was the odd one. 

- Don't be mad. We did it for you own well. 

- That's not true. This didn't help me. It actually made me worse. I started doubting what I was doing and myself. I was thinking about everything. My weight, the way I dress, what I do, and much more. People here broke me and didn't even care about this. That's why I ran away. I couldn't stay here anymore. 

That's for keeping calm. I don't care that Nate is here. I can't hold myself anymore. These people deserve to know that what they did to me, hurt me. I am not a ghost or a punching bag. I am a person and deserve to be treated well. I already had tears in my eyes but didn't care. 

- It's not our fault that you are a loser. 

I was about to say something, but Nate stepped in and started talking. 

- The only loser here is you. None of you knows the real Olivia. She is one very nice girl who treats people with respect. All of you missed the opportunity to be friends with one amazing person. 

- I don't know what magic she has done to you but open your eyes. This girl can't give you anything. 

- That's what you think. I think that she is amazing. - Nate said and grabbed my hand

I looked at him and he smiled at me. Not that smile again. 

- Let me tell you something. She was obsessed with one boy. All the time she was checking his i********:. It's not like he noticed her. Poor girl. She always likes boys who are not for her. - Jordan laughed

How does he know about this? I haven't told anyone. I hope that he doesn't know who is the boy. Otherwise, I am dead. I don't want to tell Nate. Not now. When the right time comes, I will tell him everything. For now, it's better if he doesn't know. 

- I don't see anything wrong to like someone. You just want to change my mind, but you won't. Olivia is my friend and I am happy with that. If you aren't, that's not my problem. Now, we are getting out of here. - Nate said and pulled me away 

I saw that he was angry or at least mad. I'm sorry that he had to understand that way. This wasn't how it was supposed to go, but now he will believe me. There was a chance that he will think that I am lying to him and that none of this is real. Both of us were walking in silence. Nate was still holding my hand. I don't know how I feel about this. I mean that I like it, but I see that he is hurt. I don't want him to feel sorry for me, but I know that he will. I don't even know where we are going. He didn't tell me anything. Soon we arrived in one park. Nate made to sit next to him on one bench. I wanted to say something, but I didn't know what. 

- Look, I...

- Don't say anything. 

- Are you mad at me?

- What? Of course not. 

- Then why you are so mad?

- Because these people are awful. They have no idea how good you are. You don't deserve any of this. 

- Can I know why do you care? Shouldn't you be more worried about your girl?

- What girl?

- The one that you told me about. Don't you remember? You said that you like someone. 

- Oh, yeah. I am worried for her, but now I am mad. Not at you. 

- Don't think about this. It's already in the past. 

- But these people...

- Don't deserve you to waste your time and nerves on them. Will you forget it? For me. 

- Fine, but this doesn't mean that I can't be mad. 

- Nate. Don't be like that. 

- But I...

Before he could finish, I grabbed his hands and made him look at me, which was a big mistake. I quickly get lost in his eyes. They are so pretty just like him. No matter how hard I try, I will never be able to forget him. He always will be my first crush. 

- Can I ask you something?

- Sure. Go on. 

- Is it true that you liked a boy?

The one thing that I wished he hasn't asked me. Well, I will be honest and tell him the truth. Except who is the boy. He doesn't need to know that. 

- Yes and I still do. He was the first boy who I have ever liked. 

- What happened?

- We have been together in middle school. I started liking him in seventh grade but didn't pay much attention. I was a kid back then. We were separated in high school and I thought that this is the end, but no. I started checking him on social media to see what is he doing. You might think that I was a stalker, but this was the only way that I could see him. I was too shy to send him a message. Moreover, he had an amazing glow up. I was nothing compared to him. Until today I haven't told him anything. I just can't. 

- If you really like him, go and tell him before it's too late. Except, if he doesn't have a girlfriend. 

- No, he doesn't, or at least he hasn't posted anything about it. 

- I think that you should send him a message. If I was at his place, I would be happy to receive one from such a beautiful person like you. - he said with a smile

If you know that I am talking about you. Anyways, I don't think that I will tell him. I just can't. I want to, but I am scared that he won't like me. I feel so insecure about myself that no matter what people tell me, I think that they do it only to make me feel better. Not like it's helping. At least Nate is with me. Maybe we can't be anything more than friends, but I will enjoy the time, which we spend together. After all, I don't want to stop him to go and tell everything to his girl. This is not the type of friend I want to be. 

- Hey, do you want us to watch a movie at home? Friends do that. - I said

- I would love it. Well, if your parents don't mind. 

- Don't worry. I haven't been with a friend at home so they will be happy about it. 

- I'm sad and happy at the same time. 

- Why?

- I'm sad because you didn't have friends before me, but happy, because I have the honor to be your first one. 

- If you say so. - I said chuckling

- Let's go then. 

Like that, both of us walked home. My mom was out, but dad was at home. I even invited him to join us, but he said that he has some things to do. I played the movie, which we chose, and sat next to Nate on the couch. Soon he wrapped his hand around me and pulled me for a hug. Probably I am blushing right now, but I don't care. I have never felt this way with anyone. With my parents, it's different. I looked at him and he smiled at me. I wish that I had such a pretty smile. Nate is just perfect. 

Somehow, I pleased him to stay for dinner. Emma and James were out so it was only my parents and us. I'm glad that they liked Nate. Well, he told them that we are only friends, but my parents know everything. I haven't said it directly, but I think that somehow, they understood about this. After all, I have been checking him for years. It's not my fault that he looks like that. During the dinner, one of his hands went under the table to take mine. I think that he felt that I was a little bit nervous. My parents asked about school and he told them everything. I wasn't pleased with that, but I shouldn't hide something like this from them. Anyways, I don't want to think about this. Right now, I will enjoy the company of my parents and my friend.