Words That Can't Be Written

I am busy building my own empire because my family told me so. I am the only child, and I think the pressure they give me is valid. I need to be perfect in everything, I need to have a high standard in life, I need to win all the competition, I need to be an academic achiever, and I must build my own name. Others say I'm perfect. While I am not. My life is perfect. When, in fact, I am broken inside. Everything is perfect. But actually, not. I just need to be perfect to have a complete family I am striving. I need to hide my parents' flaws, their cheating issue, conflicts in life, addiction, and abusive side. When will I have someone I can call real family? I'm tired of being perfect for them, but I think... Is it still valid because I am only child? It is still valid for them... Because they only have me. Can I once break their rule? Can I act according to my will this time? I am just trying to look for real love. Is it worth it to risk, risk everything that I treasure? Will be this time is called true love? Hoping for a better life may turn to despair.