The Nightmare of my Dreams

Venus pov   Night drizzles poured down in heavy thuds on the people of New york city. The sidewalk was shadowed with people wrapped in Jade coats. My boots were hell for me and  I hurried my aching legs, almost screaming as I limped my way to the store. I muttered a curse towards Lucian. She had earlier made me lend her my boots when she unexpectedly crashed at my apartment because her date intentionally left her at a closeby diner, she couldn't use her Gucci heels to walk through New York City under the morning rain so I had lent her the only perfect boots I had and she hadn't returned it for days. Now here I was, wearing my old boots from the last three years, it was small, old, and ached my big toe. I  could say I was really having a bad week, none of my articles were approved by The Pensmiths and I was totally losing my mind. They had rejected all six of my articles on Climate Change,  leaving me entirely clueless about what to write. My writer's block was lingering and it was so bad that I haven't put down anything in days. My head and feet ached, I needed a drink and I needed one hell of an umbrella.     The store was full. Babies, mums, young ladies, men. They were everywhere. I imagined Gabriel being there with me. He would laugh and tell me he knew I wished for anything to just disappear. He had understood the Claustrophobia I always experienced around people and he had been a dear boyfriend to fix dates at quiet places to avoid me not losing my mind. I sighed and pressed my forehead as I hurriedly grabbed eggs, toilet rolls, pads, milk, frozen beef, and some cans of sparkling water. I sighed as I grabbed the water, my faucets in my apartment were currently in repair since the water rushing seemed to be a bit colored. Of everything, I really wanted Gabriel to be here, my week has been straining and I craved a warm hug. Sadly, Gabriel was away in Milan for work purposes. I wanted to scream. I did. I opened my mouth and screamed a silent scream that seemed to help. "Someone is having a bad day" I spun around. The first thing I noticed was everything in his shopping basket was booze, rum, whiskey, and beer. "Guess am not the only one" "Obviously" That was when I stared at his face. He had the perfect face angle and his lips screamed warmth. He was handsome, not perhaps in the conventional sense, but he had that appearance that could make him stand out in any crowd. He was fair, almost pale white. His unfathomable, golden brown eyes contrasted exceptionally with his light-toned face. His eyes were fierce and arrogant. Like he wanted everyone to instantly f**k off and let him be. He was wearing an obsidian coat and a simple white shirt tucked into black trousers. It was like someone had thrown an angel right in front of me. I suddenly wanted everyone to disappear to leave me alone with this stranger so I could tell him how my week has been and he could stare at me with those brown eyes and tell me it was fine. I would be fine. Fuck, Venus, you staring too long. I was so pathetic, I wanted to throw up at myself. He was staring at me intensely now and I almost shuddered. His gaze was fierce. "I'm  sorry" He smirked, looked me up and down, and walked away. s**t. Even his walk was model-like. I wondered what he saw when he looked me over. Probably a s*x-starved woman with small boots and a bad fashion sense. I sighed and walked to the counter to pay. The crowd in the store seemed to reduce, I checked my watch, it was past twelve. He was at the counter. I paid for my items and couldn't help but feel his gaze lingering on my neck. It was so strong that I could almost feel his touch. I stared back at him and he didn't even attempt to stop staring. He gave a sad smirk again and walked out of the store majestically. "Wow,"  The red-haired sales girl said.  I sighed. ************ Gabriel called me immediately after I entered my apartment. "I miss you" I sat. "I know" "They ain't giving me breaks over here. I'm going to speed up and come back to you. Love you Ven. "Yeah". He hung up. I flung my cabinet open and searched for any alcohol. An image of the store model instantly flashed in my head. Why did he shop for so much alcohol? Is he drunk? and Why did his eyes affect me so much? I was pretty certain I had seen him somewhere before, my past life maybe. He was just so handsome in a sad way he didn't mean to be handsome but he just had to go with it. I wondered what he thought about me and I was pretty sure my trousers and green turtleneck were not appealing in any way. I somehow wished I had worn something better. Like my Christmas present from Gabriel, a red cotton turtlenecked gown that wrapped my curves in the right places.  What was my problem? It's a f*****g stranger Ven. I slept off with my trousers and turtleneck. I woke up the next morning with a face staring deeply at me. I shrieked and bolted up. "Luc damn!!" "Do you always leave your backdoor open?" "Really?" I stared. She laughed " I'm sorry, called your line a thousand times and I was passing by your house " I rubbed my eyes and tried to bounce back to reality.  "Brought your boots love, do you always sleep with your outing clothes?, someone is shattered, Gabriel is gonna come back Ven, you don't have to look so disorganized" My head hurt terribly. "This is not about Gabriel, my week is just really not going well "  It was a lie, I missed Gabriel terribly and I wasn't even sure it was because I loved him. I was pretty lonely and I needed someone. My dad called me selfish, that I needed people only when I felt lonely. Dad was never fully convinced I loved Gabriel and truthfully I wasn't convinced too. Lucian gave me a knowing look and went to the kitchen. She was putting my takeouts away and making coffee. I stared at her thankfully. Lucian was my only friend since college and even with my numerous phases and my introvertish nature, she had remained beside me. She acted like the mum I never had and ignored the fact that we were two different people. I sometimes detested myself for not doing enough for her and I gladly loved her for understanding every part of me. We have been friends for years and she hardly knew anything about me. I was a closed book and she had learned to love the covers she could see.  I kept asking myself why I couldn't let her move in with me. Because you are a loner and can't live with anyone.  Lucian handed me a cup of coffee. "You're the best" "I know" She winked. "You look terrible" "I know"  A text came in from Gabriel. "I love you, will be back tomorrow" ******* I moaned into Gabriel's ears as he gently withdrew from me and went on to look for his clothes. I was surprised at how he pulled out so instantly but I was still in after the warmth of orgasm to care. When he started looking for his keys, I spoke. "Are you okay?" "You are a cold-hearted b***h and  I don't think I can do this anymore"