Aaron
"Love is asking for forgiveness"
How often was it that the girl of my dreams was home when I was home? I avoided being at home as often as I could. But seeing as I had no choice but to go into hiding for awhile here I was back home.
Normally I did not worry about Brenda being back home. But here she was. Fate was it? Maybe. I was used to getting whatever woman I wanted into my bed. Not like my old days during high school. Now I never had been able to land Brenda in my bed. Or in her heart. She was always out of my league.
I was heartbroken when she chose to go far away to New York. I had considered following her to go to college where she was. Then I was about ready to just give up. It had been years since I tried and tried to win her over. I saw it was never going to work.
I might as well move on. Get on with my life. But truly I never got over the one who got away. Maybe I never would. Seeing her again here brought back so many memories for me. Painful ones. Happy ones. One's that my heart held onto all this time.
Somethings even money could not buy. Love was one of those things. I sigh as I glance over at her window next door. She was at work. She would not know I was looking. I look away. She was right about one thing.
Change. My room here at home was just the same as it was during my high school days. Maybe I should change it. Maybe it would help me stop thinking of her so damn much. Brenda was home. Making a new life for herself. She even had dates already lined up. Reminding me that a geek like me did not belong in her world.
For one stunning moment I got to hold her in my arms. Feel her kiss on my lips. I was craving more of her. I knew not to over step my boundaries' with her.
But I wanted to. I was not sure what came over me that past afternoon. Something came over me. I wanted her to see how much pain she caused my heart over the years. She never would understand the pain. Never. She did not care. That was clear.
The phone rings. I grab it. It was my coworker. Maybe they had an update on Kerrigan. Seeing as she stole my work from my company. I should have known that gold digger was not into me. That she had been up to something that whole entire time.
But I was blind sided by her. She was not as perfect as Brenda in anyway. But she had made me forget the pain of the past for a few moments in my life. All she had been doing the whole time was using me. She managed to do a great job in that to.
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"Hey Charles. Any word on getting those blue prints back from the cobra?" I ask him when I answer the phone.
"She is asking for half a million dollars. That is a lot of money she wants to take from the company. Just so she can get her share. She will break us. Our employees depend on that money. On our funds Aaron" grumbles a worried Charles Goodrich.
"No, I do not plan on giving her a dime of my cash. Or the company profit" I warn him.
"Well she wants it or she plans on selling the blue prints to get the money either way" he warns me.
"I know. I know" I mutter as I rub my temples. A headache was coming on now.
Stress. I could not handle so much stress. That was another reason I had come home. Hoping to keep my mind of so many worries. It was not working. Between Kerrigan and Brenda. Women troubles were going to ruin me. I was sure of that.
"Dude, you know we have your best interest at heart is all here Aaron. But we have to find out where she got those to be able to prove she stole those from us. Then once we do that Clara can go and make her move to attack back on Kerrigan" points out Charles.
"I have been over the security footage a dozen times already! We all have! Kerrigan has to have someone working with her. She had inside help. She is not a hacker. She knows someone who can help her get the cash. All she is in this is for the money. We need to find out who else was with her. Watch her every move" I point out.
"Want me to hire a detective?" offers Charles.
"Yes, get Clara on that right away" I demand.
Clara was my personal lawyer. Had been hired for a few years now. She was one of the best there was.
"I am on it boss. We can do this. Before that sale goes through" promises Charles.
"Keep me updated. I will go over things again" I remind him. "I brought my work here at home"
"Alright boss. We will be in touch" Charles tells me before hanging up.
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I sigh as I sit on my bed. My neck was tense. Killing me. The pain was intense. Stress was eating away at my soul. I just had come up with new software to sell out to the world. Now a crook was going to take away all my hard work.
It was for nothing.
I was going to lose my business. All I worked so hard for. My parents were going to be so upset. I hated to make them upset with me. I groan as I rub my temples and close my eyes.
"Knock, knock" I hear her say. My head snaps up. I glance over to see Brenda smiling curiously at me.
"Mother made me come over to check on you. She had me bring some left overs" she tells me as she sets a Tupperware container on my desk.
"Thank you so much. I have forgotten to eat today. Working on this crap" I sigh.
"You look like you are in pain Aaron" she worries as those beautiful eyes look over at me with concern.
"Because of stress. I have the worst migraines. I forgot my meds back home in my penthouse" I mutter. I try to rub the back of my neck. It did no good. Maybe in town I could get a massage some place.
"Here let me" she offers.
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She sits behind me on the bed. She begins to rub my neck. Just feeling her tender touch on my flesh, I close my eyes. Enjoying the moment. My heart aches for her. She was so close. I wanted to be closer. I waited it. She would not want me to be closer to her.
Her fingers work magic on me. I feel her body heat inches from mine. My ears feel a warmth shoot to the tips of them. My groin throbs as I try to hide it from her seeing.
God, she was good. My head began to feel better. Stress was washing away with her being near me. I wanted her so badly it hurt. Her touch was taring me apart at the seams. She made me feel so weak.
"Thank you!" I mutter as I back away. I stand up.
"I was not done. I can do some more if you want? You are so tense" she offers.
"No, no that is okay. You did fine. I feel amazing already" that much was true. She smiles.
"So, you excited about that date this weekend?" I have to ask. It flies out of my mouth.
"I guess" she mutters as she shrugs. "Aaron?"
"Yes?"
"Can we talk? About us a little?" she offers. She smiles sadly at me.
"What about us?" I wonder.
"I miss being your friend. When I moved it was not to hurt you in anyway. Things were hard out there in New York. I was failing at everything I did. I know what an enormous success you became. I was ashamed to come see you. Or call" she admits.
I feel a lump in my throat.
"I tried. Tried again. But I ended up back here. The less we talked the harder it became to talk again. Do you miss talking? What we had?" she has to ask me.
"I do" I admit. I nod. I look at the ground.
"I miss you so much. I mean maybe we can build that friendship again. I want that so much" she asks me. Friendship. That was what she always wanted from me. When would she ever see I wanted more than friendship? I wanted her to love me as much as I had always loved her. It just was not meant to be.
"Seeing as we are both in town. We have to find common ground. Right? Why not. Friends?" I say as I make myself smile. I stick my hand out to her. She shakes my hand.
"Friends" she agrees with me. "Did I say something wrong? You looked upset?"
"Nothing. Worried about my company" I lie.
"What is going on?" she asks me. "we are pals. I will not tell anyone"
"That woman Kerrigan wants half the money the company has to buy back the new software plans I created. We have no proof to back up that she stole them from the office. We are considering that. I hired a detective. So, we will go from there. If she does manage to sell the new product I made she will make millions this other company will make millions. And it will might ruin my company" I explain. "I cannot let that happen. I worked so hard to get here"
"Aaron that is awful. I am so sorry, I do know you worked really hard to get where you are. You are not the same Aaron I once knew" she admits with a shy smile.
"What do you mean?" I have to ask.
"Well you know. The Aaron I knew was shy. With the curly messy hair. Always giving into others when they wanted something from him. Willing to make others happy before you" she points out. "Now you are a shark, a business shark out there. You do not take orders from others. Let them push you around. Truthfully a part of me misses the old sweet Aaron I knew for years of my life. This Aaron, I will have to get to know"
She smiles.
Before I knew what comes over me. I pulls her in my arms.
"Seeing as I am not your good old Aaron he would have never have done this.... would he?" I challenge her.
My lips fly to hers. Meshing together. She moans softly along my lips in a tender lip lock. My groin was aware of her female body pressed along mine. She felt so damn good being there in my embrace. She belonged there.
My heartaches as she returns each kiss. So many things I longed to say to her. Make her understand me.
She breaks free. She is breathless from the kiss as she looks at me a bit startled by my move. Trying to figure me out.
"You are right about one thing, my old Aaron was never a play boy type who thought he could get his way with any woman he wanted" she states angrily before taking off. I sigh.