Another Day Without You

Chapter 3: everyday

It's been another extremely long day.always the same thing wake up go to work come home late and maybe have some time to watch a series or maybe read a book . However tonight I'm sitting in my bed contemplating and overthinking every little detail of this f****d up thing called life for what feels like the thousandth time this week.I honestly can't stand some of the people I'm surrounded by and those i can tolerate are the ones I see less than I would like to. Seriously when did my life become this endless loop of a s**t show.

That thought sparks another wormhole of my recent failure.Im now nonexistent relationship. As you can probably guess, I'm single again and with that comes the constant reminder for my loved ones that ill be turning 25 soon and that i should start settling down with someone. Like I haven’t been trying that in the first place.

Give a girl a break its not my fault I live in a generation with men that care more about their hookup than actually building a life with someone. Granted for some reason I can't keep a man to save my life, Its not like I don't know my flaws its that I'm overly aware of them so my standards are on quite the high side these days. Can you blame me though i mean at least I know what I want .I guess I'm just the one everyone dates before finding their soulmate. Mine probably died a long time ago because if he does exist somewhere it definitely isn't in the same universe I'm living in.

I grab my phone and start scrolling through the apps mindlessly to find something that might distract me from this dark hole my thoughts are creeping towards, I cant be spiraling now and sure enough I end up on tik tok watching videos that try and motivate me but end up making me feel worse about my mental health than I did before opening the damn app in the first place. What is up with my for you page these days ? The universe must be trying to tell me something and if it is I don’t like what its saying. Feeling called out on my bullshit I'm just about to leave the app when one of my favorite types of videos pop up and I know I've found home again.

Ahh book-tok we meet again.I watch as the creator lays out a book scene in the video adding yet another good book recommendation to my ever growing TBR list. That is what I needed I needed to read I needed to escape again for a while.

I used to be the girl that believed in fairytales and that the hero deserves the girl. I used to love happy endings that is until i started reading this book called another day without you. This books teaser had me in a choke hold and i just knew i would love it once the author released it.

Who doesn’t just love a book where the morally grey villain falls in-love and does everything in his power to get to the woman he Love. Tries everything to save her but in spite of all he does t protect her from the evil in his world she somehow still ends up in the hero's arms. Not that its the safest place to be.

The villain knowing all to well that he will never get the happy ending he needs with her , he will always be just a friend.

Now this has been how I spend my evenings escaping reality by emerging myself into a fictional one. What more can one ask for.