I was really trying to avoid this. All this awkward, cuddly stuff, I mean. The longer we sit here together, the more I can feel the tension building, and the more my thoughts just start swirling and racing through my head.
I’ve been here before, and I learned my lesson. I don’t want to endure all this again only to find out after I finally give him what he wants that it wasn’t enough, and he’s not interested in me anymore. That’s why I tried to just skip ahead to that part and get it out of the way. At least then I’d know.
But no, he’s insisting on making me go through all this yet again, except this time I’m not enjoying it. I already know that this isn’t really what he wants. He’s saying that it is, I think because he expects me to be impressed by that or something, but I’m not. I’m ir
