My Life By The River

I have always wanted to feel at peace with myself and my inner being who always seems to go against my wish and now am supper tired of it am tired of my heart loving the wrong person. someone who is not worthy of me, someone who always stands against what I believe in. I had no drama in my life until he came along but then he decided to go the same way he came the only difference was I had fallen for him but he still chose to go and now all I want is revenge no matter what I will teach him a lesson. "hey Natalie how are you?" "am okay and you?" "am great but u don't look okay what's up?" my best friend Mary asks I hate hiding things from but I won't let my emotions show. I look at her and force a smile knowing fully well that she won't believe it. "nothing really just can't wait to go to college tomorrow and it being my first year am just a bit nervous" she walks to me and puts he hand on my shoulder "hey don't worry everything will be okay and I believe in your ability" I smile knowing fully well that she got my back. "guess what?" she asks "what?" I answered looking at her hope she doesn't bring him up last year was one hell of a year "they are cute guys at college and I know you won't be single for long" I just roll my eyes as I walk away "you know that am not going to date" "look I know what that ldoit did to you was not good but you just can't push men away you need to feel love you know let the right people do that he failed and it wasn't your fault" I know she's right it wasn't my fault but I have to make him pay for the humiliation he has put me through God hope me because am ready to make him pay and regret never appreciating me.