FED UP.

f**k Cancer

Jerome,Jerome. Yes yes baby?? what's going on baby why am I here? Sweetheart you had a Miscarriage. What I wasn't pregnant. Yes you was he said as he starred into my eyes. I wasn't so sad, Ryiah was only 2 months. I don't know when I got pregnant again but I was sad that I lost a child. You lost so much blood baby they had to give you three bags of blood,he explained rubbing my arm. Looking him into the eyes I see he was hurt. Baby its gonna be okay I said rubbing his arm. Its my fault I shouldn't of f****d you so rough last night. He said sounding hurt. Baby that's not what made me miscarried I ensure him kissing his hand. The doctor wants to keep you a couple of days, mom is gonna bring the kids to see you in a min. Are you up for company he asked me kissing me on the lips. Yes daddy I am. I'm up for some food to I said looking at my ring on my hand.

4 hours later

Cancer? Are you sure? Yes Mrs. Carter you have stages 1 of cervical cancer. We will have to started radiation ASAP.. Crying as Rome held me I agree to the plan. Please don't leave me I said to him as he laid on my chest. Why would I leave you baby? I don't know I might be bald.

Day 1 of Radiation. Connected to all these dumb cords and IVs. I feel so sleepy . I had to do 41 radiation treatment in order to be cancer free. The doctors explained to me that the cancer was in its early stages and I'll be fine once I finish the treatment. After the treatments was finish he inform me that he will do a pap on me to check for any cancers. If there's any cells he will have to remove them and I may not be able to have any more babies.

How do you feel babe? Rome asked after I came home from my 21 Radiation treatment. I'm okay just sleepy. Okay baby let me give you a bath and put you to bed. He was treating me so good. He would cook everyday. He would clean the house, take care of the kids and me. I wore a scarf because my edges had came out pretty bad. Give me that scarf baby he said removing it from my head as I stood in the hallway. I haven't lost a lot if weight ,my hair just came out a lil. And I look like I haven't had sleep in days. Rubbing my back he kissed my neck. I want to stay down here baby to play with the kids. Oh okay baby come on.

Heyyy mommy babies I said kissing Jr face then Ryiah. Hey, mommy Jr said. He was a big boy now but he loved me so much he would sleep with me every night.

Feeling my body get weak I passed out. Wtf Tori is all I heard Rome say.