For You

I know what you did last Summer

'' Do you think we could ever be a couple?" Dave tells me when I am busy finishing my whole bottle of Pepsi in one breath .

We were sitting on the rooftop, our legs hanging above my mom's garden. Birds were heard twittering as the icy wind blew around our ankles. I finished the bottle speedily to resolute that lionhearted person I am.

"Nice try Dave to stop me. But I know I finished it before you, " I declare.

I wipe my mouth typically with my jacket .

"No really! I mean we have the same personalities."

I scoot closer to him goading, "Duh! which makes me feel like you are my little brother, "

I burst out in laugh as I nudge him a little playfully. He punches me in the shoulder trying not to hurt me.

"You know even Selena called Justin her little brother before dating."

"Yeah and how they are not even a couple right now, " I purse my lips answering as I got up to watch Dave giving me a puzzled expression.

He shrugs his shoulders ,"How does that match with what I was trying to say?"

I give him a hand responding, " I know what you are trying to say Anderson and the answer is no. Because trust me, I will never date you."

Dave moans, ''Ouch'' in sham pain as he stood up cleaning the dirt off his jeans . I get down from the rooftop using the ladder before him. I stand on the ground and looking upstairs staring at his purely creamy innocent face I add, "Because I am not ready to lose my forever friendship for a non lasting relationship . "

He replies with a genuine smile.

"Okay dude! "

The problem is I thought I had everything sorted out that day. But sadly, I was wrong.

*Currently in the car*

A memory peeks through my mind while Dave tells me the thing I have always fantasized . I say staggered, "ME?"

He looks the other way turning around hiding the embarrassment displaying on his face.

" I mean someone like you . Obviously not you."

I get a relief that it's a not me . Because, at that moment all I was thinking about was Abby. I was not trying to be a homewrecker. But again, a piece of me is sad because of course I wanted us to be a couple.

But not like this .

He drops me at my house and this time he didn't look at me and say , I will call you later or text me when you are bored. This time he didn't bade me goodbye. This time he left like a stranger.

When I reach home I thought now I could be stressed free. A complete peace with no Dave and no friendship problems . But no , I see this two young lady invading my privacy.

" Umm.. What are you two doing?" I shout.

Abby accidentally drops my journal. Maggie looks at me with a nervous smile.

This doesn't feel okay.

Abby puts up the book and keeps it where it was before in the drawer .

She stutters , " We ... we were ..."

I sense something bad is happening.

Maggie interrupts Abby saying, "We came to invite you to the sleepover. "

Which raised a question in my mind,'Is this a trap?'

I was vexed by the fact that mom had let them enter my room so easily. But I shouldn't blame it on her either. Because, she has always seen me be nice to them. So, she obviously thought they are my friends. I thought it too.

I couldn't keep up with the false act anymore. I question suspecting , " Honestly girls, why are you here?"

Maggie gives a stare at Abby and she finally opens her mouth, "What happened this summer?"

I loose my words because that's a question I am too guilty to answer.

Summer 16. Not the day I am proud of . But not the day I regret . It's when me and Dave had our first kiss.

We were all playing spin the bottle except the only known people in that group was me and Dave. And the rest? Who knows?

When it was our turn Dave leans in moving the bottle out of the way. I was pretty shocked by his actions but it was clear that the alcohol was what took control of him.

He shoots me a wicked grin and then tilts my face up to his. The crowd of young as well as drunk high schoolers surrounding us were cheering. The song of Eden - Wake up blowing out off the speakers. Reminding me one last f*****g time to wake up from this dream as soon as possible.

I wouldn't lie if I say that people in our school have always wanted us to be together. But of course, by then I was too foolish and too stupid to accept the facts.

He brings his right hand to my cheek sliding it under my jaw. Then, he dares to cup it tightly. The crowd sounded more hungry than us as it grew louder by that second. Me and him both laugh slowly hearing the noises. It may have looked like we were doing it for the circle of people around us. But in reality, we were doing it for our stubborn hearts.

He delicately strokes my lower lip preparing both of us for his mission. And no matter how much I wanted to decline. Because, I know once I give in there won't be turning back. But still the alcohol was controlling me as well as my decisions. For which, I decided to listen to my instincts.

I drop my eyes to his lips signaling my wish. He smiles looking back at me before he obliged and with that he preciously claimed my lips, passionately kissing me. A kiss I will never be able to forget.

The moment felt like a dream. A complete serenity. It was like he didn't care about the game, only us. But again, we were kinda wasted.

After the party we were holding hands and walking by the beach. It was almost midnight. The entire beach environment was painted in black. The smell of sea invading us, the shaky weather making our hair worse, cold sand tickling our feet and that one special person beside me.

One thing I really hate about myself is... when am high I spill my guts out and that's exactly what I did that day.

"I like you Dave."

He stops walking and holds my face saying, "Too bad.. I am taken."

I let go of his hand and response with a laugh, "Too bad I am late."

He twirls me pulling me closer to him by grabbing my waist , "Too bad I don't want you to leave."

He slowly rests his forehead onto mine. Our face were inches apart and we could hear each other breathing heavily. Both of our alcohol mixed breaths blending together. He leans in to kiss me again but "Too bad..." despite of me saying, slowly I turn my face around wincing, "Too bad it's not right."

Suddenly something happens, like a ignite and Dave's expression changes into anger as he pushes me away.

"And it's right for her?"

I jerked backwards scared.

What just happened?

My heart beats went abnormal .

I don't understand what he's trying to say .

"What are you talking about?" I shout with a strange feeling.

" I know she's cheating on me with that asshole."

I don't realize what he was trying to tell me at that time . Because, I never even guessed or thought Abby would do something like that .

"Who are you taking about?"

I feel I know the name but I don't intend to hear it. His voice lowers when he says, "Abigail."

He exhales a clod of exasperation and then continues , " Don't act like you don't know."

I couldn't help but to yell and holding his arm when he was trying to leave to give him a proper justification.

"What are talking about? I didn't know she was....."

I was quite angry. Because he thinks me and Abigail are close but no, we are not. I think the only reason she talks to me is because I am best friends with her boyfriend or I was .

Without facing me he replies in grieve, "Well, it's happening."

Deep down I feel really bad for him because I saw something in his eyes for her and now I think it's fading away. I turn him around to face me convincing,"Does she know that you know ?"

"Yes"

His eyes were glassy and red. I don't know how to make it stop. How to stop the pain that is spreading in his veins? So, I hugged him genuinely to comfort.

"Well she's a slut and you deserve better."

It doesn't take seconds for him to hug me back.

That night in the summer camp we spent the whole 7 hours in my room cuddling under my blanket and talking about how Abby is not right for him. But the real error is the alcohol , that washed away everything in the morning ; when I saw him leaving my room for a call.

I couldn't help but to eavesdrop.

"Yeah it's okay...how many times are you gonna apologize for it?''

''Of course I forgive you."

And lastly when he utters, "I am glad you told me the truth."

A tear drop descended on my cheek because the sentences where stinging me internally . I wipe it off immediately when he sees me standing behind him .

"Good Morning!"

He smiles like nothing happened.

I couldn't keep up with that drama. The kiss between us was still replaying in front of my eyes. I don't know if it was fate trying to tell me that he was using me to forget the pain he achieved from her. My eyes sank and I shut it to not pour the tears down. I take a deep breath as I reopened them in a second. I bravely head to him in the balcony standing fiercely, showcasing the fake brave me.

"Dave last night whatever happened... let's just forget it ."

Dave agrees with me and we went to our separate ways . But, summer ended and it's not even one week yet that school started and everyone already got to know about it ?

Abby watches me turn pale as she tries to explore some explanation studying my face. The answer was pretty simple and it was there at the tip of my tongue. But I absorb it. Because, I don't wanna jeopardize everything .

"Nothing.. nothing happened."

I can apprise that she doesn't know. The only thing that led her to my room checking my middle school diary is because she isn't sure yet. Dave ignored her and it had been burning her making a hole in her chest. She may never know the truth. Because the only two people who knows it will carry it in their hearts forever, aiming to never expose.

My heart beats drops down.

"Seriously?"

I have never seen Abby this angry before and I hate to say that I hate her angry face.

"Look..." before I could say something Maggie stops me.

"We know something happened and we are gonna find about it. If it's not from you then someone else."

Maggie grabs Abby's hand and they leave my house maddening. I don't say anything except watching Abby looking at me while I am staring down from my window. I actually feel bad this time. Because well, I would hate it too if someone tried to steal my man.