For You

When you love someone

School is probably the last place on my mind right now . I don't want to be a part of the over-dramatical scenes created by Abby and Maggie . But I guess it's my fault . Since, I am the cause of it .

I wake up with a sudden urge to not go to school . The same day repeating again where classes , classes and of course those idiotic conversation.

Alex picks me up every morning. Since my house and his are practically 10 minutes away.

I finally get myself up although my heart wasn't willing to . I take a peak at myself in the mirror set right in front of my bed . My hair is all messy and my eyes are puffed up because of crying yesterday. I stop the clock placed on my bedside table which has been continuously alarming for the past 5 minutes exasperating my ear drums. I get out of the sheets and turn on my speaker giving one of my favorite song.

Because , how can you start a day without music?

I head inside the bathroom to get ready while the background music plays SYML - Where's my love. After freshening up, I throw in a pair of black skinny jeans and a white tee with a denim jacket . I pull my hair up into a ponytail by tying it with a rubber band . I look at the mirror to apply some chapstick on my swollen lips and a brush of mascara to serve a natural look. I leave my room lazily forgetting to fix up my rumply bed.

I race downstairs for breakfast being absolutely famished .

"I wish I could skip school for eternal, " I mumble to myself while I climb down. I reach the breakfast table where I found mom making pancakes in the kitchen and on the other side dad sitting noiseless.

"I see you are up early today," mom says through the kitchen window that is connected to our living room.

I look at dad who's trying his best to ignore me .

"Aren't you gonna say good morning , dad ?" cordially I say. He doesn't even look at me showing how busy he is , swallowing the pancake .

I look back at mom who gives me a puppy face .

"Okay well , I am not having breakfast with you . If that's what you want . "

He still doesn't reply to me and it was killing me . So, I leave the room maddening while hearing mom calling me from the back.

I know I am being a brat but so is dad . I mean, he needs to know these things are normal for teens . He needs to know that I am not in middle school anymore . He needs to know that I am growing up and he needs to know I am not his little girl anymore.

I call Alex who's not picking up his phone. I wait for him for 15 minutes and still he doesn't dare to call me back. I walk to the bus station finding no other options . When it comes, eventually I get myself in . In the bus, I am there sitting beside the window , reminiscing why I started to go to school with Alex in the first place .

Few years ago , when me and Dave were friends and just friends , not complicated like now. He used to pick me up every morning . Listening to Ed Sheeran songs we used to travel school together and he used to drop me at my house every time . But after I told him to bond with Abby since she was all broken up because of her then boyfriend cheating on her . He started talking to her and one day she came up to me saying , "Hey Ellie . Can you help me with something ?"

I close the door of my locker answering ," Yeah of course . What's up?"

She didn't know I was already helping her since I introduced my best friend to her .

"Can you tell Dave to stop giving you rides in the mornings?"

She just said that so casually . I mean , should I tell my best friend to stop spending time with me? But that wasn't what I said . I looked at Dave who was talking to Mason on the other side . He waves at me the moment he sees me and I smile . I turn my gaze back to Abby responding to her unwary line, "Sure. I will just tell Alex to pick me up then ."

Listening to my answer she starts jumping , clapping her hands like a little kid.

"Yeah that would be cool . Thank you so much. " She exclaims giving me a tight hug and then she continues blabbering, "I thought if he picked me up then we could spend more time together and in that way I will get him to get more close to me. "

But I wasn't paying heed to her mouth moving rather I was thinking in that moment,'Am I doing the right thing?'

I get outside nestling myself out of the bus when it reaches it's destination. Entering the school area in front of the parking lot I see Alex parking his car . I stop on my way to talk to him . He closes the car's door and he was startled when he spots me standing behind him.

"Oh hey El. "

"You didn't pick me this morning Alex."

My vocal could express the itchiness of irritation interlinked to it . He moved his long bangs in the back of his head intensifying his eyes which is as clear as the sky above us.

"Yeah I was busy....''

"Well, you could have texted . You know I was waiting for you."

I was bummed out. Suddenly his gaze where somewhere else , so I glance over my shoulder to check. I see Maggie and Abby standing on the other side of the lot gawking at us.

"Oh now I understand."

I leave the lot in a vexatious position while they both still look at me and Alex calling me in the background .

Entering the school, I walk straight to my locker where I see Dave waiting for me leaning his hip on it.

"Good morning. " he says standing straight. Replying nothing , I passed him as I start walking faster for my first period class not minding to keep my books into the locker.

I can comprehend that his smile vanished the minute I crossed him.

"ELLIE WHAT'S WRONG?" he questions following me in the hallway retracing my steps while I ignore him entering the class before everyone .

Everybody was getting into the class one by one but I preoccupied my mind outside the window whimsically . I didn't realize when the class was full.

"Ellie, are you with us ?"

Mr. Colin calls me gaining my attention and I attempt to put my mind in the class .

After first period ends, I get out to see Dave again. He stops me on my way.

"I know you don't like talking when you are mad . But you know I can help."

I don't look at him.

" I don't need your help Dave . I am fine ."

I know he can see right through me, so my lying didn't help.

I know it's not Dave's fault obviously and I didn't wanna talk to him since I will be pouring all my anger on him instead. I wasn't mad because of the stupid ride problems . I was mad because , how could Alex be on their side? I ultimately venture as I lift up my eyes to look at him convincingly , "It's nothing . I just had a fight with dad. "

"Well, do you wanna talk about it?"

I give him a half smile replying, "Not right now. "

We both start walking to our next class together. But of course the real danger was still awaiting .

I didn't even ask Dave if he broke up with Abby. Since, now it feels like he is cheating on her with none other than me .

At lunch, where we all decided to meet again for yet another 'fake' group hangout .

I see Maggie , Abby and Alex already sitting on the table . When I and Dave walk together to sit with them then all three look at me in a different manner. I reach at the table where I see one seat empty placed beside Alex and and the other beside Abby . I am pretty sure she saved that for Dave . But before I could give a signal to him he sits beside Alex . I mean, how could he be so stupid?

I sit normally I could ever be while Maggie besides me gives me a tight-lipped saying, "So what happened yesterday?"

She was acting normal too.

"What happened yesterday?" Dave says taking a bite of the cookie from Alex's tray . I look at Dave who looks at Abby sitting quietly saying nothing which is very unusual.

Alex interrupts saying, "Well, yesterday you both missed school." Alex puts it mildly.

Now, I have to justify them my reasons of missing school to them?

"I was sick," I reply because I don't like beating around the bush.

"And I was..."

They were probably waiting for Dave's answer and not mine but I say anyways , "He was giving me company."

Even though I don't look at Abby I can feel her rolling her eyes at my soul.

"Just giving you some company?"

Maggie puts it in the easy way and I appreciate her trying . I knew it was coming and I was ready for it .