Loved But Broken

Chapter 13

“Yes...I knew he was being released Sophie.” She finally responded to me. “what else was I meant to do. I didn’t want you to worry. You had your exams to get through. Your Dad and I have known for a few days now. His due to arrive in town tomorrow.” Tears began to fall from my eyes. I blinked them back, turned on my heel and left Mum and Dad alone in the living room. I didn’t turn back to see if they were going to follow me. They wouldn’t try to; both knew to leave me alone especially after lying to me.

They preached to me constantly about the truth and apart from my lie about William I always told them the truth. Didn’t I deserve the same respect? My feet carried me in a trance. I was so lost in my own thoughts I didn’t realise I was at Williams door opening it quietly to sneak in. He was lying on top of his blankets when I opened the door. He wrapped his arms around me protectively before I came out of my trance. I cried into his shoulder, he sat there embracing me until I stopped the tears from flowing.

Tilting my head slightly I found his golden eyes gazing into them. I found his lips and kissed him like my life depended on it. In that moment I didn’t care if we got caught. I wanted, no I needed him. He slid his tongue inside my mouth and enveloped me in that kiss. I turned my whole body around so I could straddle him. I could feel his arousal I wanted to feel him more than ever inside me. Sliding my pants and knickers off I tossed them onto his floor. Not stopping our kiss as much as possible.

Undoing his button on his jeans with one hand and unzipping them with ease he wiggled out them. Still with our lips locked together. Breaking apart only for brief moment to lift our shirts over our heads. Tossing them aside I resumed my position on top of him. My kisses dropping down his taut torso, swirling a hand along his shaft my fingers pausing for a moment at his tip teasing him, before bring my lips to him and sliding my tongue along his edge. Sliding his hard on between my lips with ease I took all of him inside my mouth. His hands danced in my hair I sucked him harder while his lips found their way inside my waiting core. With his tongue deep inside me and my lips taking all of him.

The events of the night faded away. Pulling away only to slide his fullness inside me. Easing his hard on inside me slowly, smiling and leaning back into his lips to kiss me again. He held on to my arse and we melted together it wasn’t long before we both we reached climax letting out bursts of ourselves with him deep inside me. We lay there beside each other in his arms for a while longer. Thoughts of the night gone for now. Laying there I felt safe like I always did when I was in his arms. Finally feeling at ease, I cuddled deeper into him. He wrapped his arms around me tighter. I didn’t even care if we got caught now. Mum and Dad wouldn’t be able to talk themselves out of this one. I was determined to fight for William and fight is what I was going to do.

By the time I finally moved from Williams arms the sun was starting to rise. We had fallen asleep in each other’s arms. Slowly opening my eyes, I looked up at him. He was already awake watching me peacefully, with a smile on his face. Grinning I tilted my head more and leaned up to kiss him.

Getting up to find my clothes we had thrown all over his room during the night was heartbreaking. I didn’t want to leave his arms let alone his room, but I had to face today and Mum still had a lot of explaining to do. After getting redressed I leaned back over William giving him one last kiss before our next time. Leaving him that morning was one of the hardest things I have ever done. Walking down the hall to my own room as quietly as possible I snuck into my room to find fresh clothes and then headed to the bathroom for a fresh shower. Leaving my phone in my room, I turned the water on and felt relaxed with the water running down my back. Stepping out of the shower now refreshed and in clean clothes. Ready for my conversation with my parents.

Striding through the house I found both parents in the main living area. “Mum, I need answers.”

“Sophie, I did what I thought was right.” She declared. So matter-of-factly. Her face however said different. In her eyes there was fear. There was definitely something she wasn’t telling me. I was determined to find out why. I could no longer take her excuses or have her brush me off. Billie being back was too much for any of us. She wasn’t pushing me out of the house this time.

“Mum, I want answers. You told me you didn’t talk to him. You haven’t talked to him since he was put inside. He is dangerous. He tried to kill me Mum. He would have succeeded I’m certain of it if you hadn’t of walked in when you did. I’m not doing this again. I refuse to Mum. This is my home. He is a grown bloody man and you keep treating him like a frigging child. When are you guys going to see that I'm not a child anymore and I haven’t been for quite some time now? I’m almost a grown woman. Start treating me like one. Billie wanted me to know his out. He wants me to fear. His unstable and out of his mind. For once do what’s right for me. Make your choice Mum give me the answers I’ve been asking for my entire life or continue lying to me and yourself.” I shouted at her no longer able to keep my patience.

I stood there waiting for her, the answers I pursued but knew she was never going to give me. She chose to leave us to grow up without her. Nan passing away gave her a second chance to get to know us and she was failing miserably at it. Some days I wondered why I chose to come back to live here. William was my reason for staying now returning years ago was a choice. Before Billie came back into our lives, things were normal, Mum was finally the loving parent we had hoped to have for years. Granddad did his best to protect us from growing up damaged from her alcohol abuse for years.

When she finally cleaned herself up, we got our Mum back something that nan would have been proud to see but was no longer with us. This woman sitting in front of me, she wasn’t the Mum that we had grown to know. She was failing me once again. Pushing me towards what they have tried to prevent for the last two years. William. Her eyes changed and saddened as realisation was setting in. As if she finally understood me. So, I waited a little longer with hope she was finally understanding.

“Sophie,” she began “I don’t have all the answers for you. I will say this though. I can’t abandon one child and focus on the other. Yes, Billie has his problems but you and I both know why. He won’t except help. I don’t know why he hates you. He is coming home here and you will be going to stay somewhere else. My decision is made and final.”

“But Mum you have got to be kidding I don’t know why he is the way he is. Why do I have to leave my home for him? This is bullshit you never think about me. He is f*****g psychopath why do you think bringing him back is going to be different this time.” my voice started to falter. My mind floated back to William to being in his arms calming me back down.

“Sophie Louise Porter how dare you speak to your mother like that! I told you I have made my decision you will leave and you will be staying with Delores.” She shouted back at me. My worst nightmare coming to life.

Turning from my parents I ran from the room. Not knowing where my feet were taking me, I fled from the house. Phone in my pocket I kept running until finally my feet came to a halt. I sat on the bank of the dam. Looking out over the water. My phone vibrated reaching into my pocket I stared at the screen.

3 unread messages opening the messages I dreaded what I was going to see.

William: hey babe, are you ok? I heard the shouting

William: babe I’m worried about you where are you

William: babe now I’m really worried. Text me back or call me please.

Suddenly I felt a drop of water on my leg. Wiping it away another drop fell. My eyes became blurred, tears welled up. Flowing freely for the first time in a long time. I dialled Williams number, he answered on the first ring “babe, where are you?” he asked me.

“Ba.be...I’m...down at the ... dam.” I managed to get out through tears.

“babe stay there. I’m coming now.”

“O.K... ba.be...I’ll stay...here.”

What felt like hours when in reality was only a few minutes. My bae was strolling over the mound. He sat down beside me, wrapping his arms around me, I leaned in close to him. We just sat there while I cried, he held me. Slowly my tears stopped falling, his arms became more protective around me. Leaning in to him I let him sit with me. Both sitting there speaking without words being spoken. He handed me a small packet of tissues for my nose. Wiping the snot from face and cleaning up my tears. I leaned up and kissed him. “you know me too well babe that’s why I love you with all my heart.”